Ash Nazg Durbatulûk.

checkmate, chuds.

It doesn’t seem in our world anyone truly cares about it. We are aware and when we are aware we dont particularly follow quality. There’s nothing wrong with living that way, living like a mechanical person, doing same things over and over even though cold to the mind is warmful to your heart, just because of far worse existence as mind that is cruel in its apoptosis forming network of sin. It’s comfy. Being static and habitual, ultimately one would want to learn many skills and excel at these skills instead of picking as many hobbies as fraud maniac, but I myself think who reads my rambling? Do human beings only tender to what is in their benefit? Do they understand what these cretins want too?

I really need to reach state of nirvana.

Do you think CIA is retarded and if you use older windows version they wont be able to watch because it has no backdoor anymore?

Forgot to train today.

I get ueah I am guilty. But I hope i can loss this fat man..

Making decisions has always scared me because i want somethinf that is the best. Sometimes, there’s bo such thing as best but I was not educated well as child. If you had to decide what shirt to wear, my mind would go blank. If I have to decide what to eat it’s blank again. Maybe because I personally never felt good about making choices of my own, perhaps I suck at choosing arbitrary subjective traits, that makes me insanecel.

I am starving, carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs…. I hope as long as I daily train muscles I can starve well. Yesterday I felt my muscles soaring, I shouldn’t have binged another tranime AcKA manga, that was bad move. I am like a robot programmed to consoooooooooom

Consooooom

If my inner voice stayed longer with me, I am sure I would have lost all kinds of bad habits in life, why is it so hard to make decisions that normies dont worry about? I feel sometimes rationalization isnt that bad, why do I wear skeleton on surfing board shirt? Hm……

Decisions.

BECAUSE ITS FUCKING COOL GET IT? SKELETONS ARE SPOOKY AND SURFING BOARD IS ALPHA SPORT.

I know I am broken tape recorder but I am like the guy from Kiznavier.

First, I go through this logic. I imagine the world without pedophilea, is this world any different? Is this world any better? Are the people more moral? Do they help each other with no benefit for their own soul?

No.

Then, let's go farther, the wrold without death, the world without weapons... Bla Bla Bla. Will people not find ways to hurt each other? If after the people are traumatized, they no longer make coherent cynical decisions, then wouldn't that be possible that pedophilea is not bad either? In the world as it is I really advocate for wokism, fort he way for trash to wake up. I want them to be wokne up. If you are moral solely because of random bias subjectively that you've encountered, my sword or anyone's sword is moral and justice, I cannot imagine the world without pedos as they will be replaced by the very ones who hated them, as their jealousy is shown true color.

Wiring that huge essay didnt make me less horny sadly.

Why NOT

siiigh some things are beyond our control

Another obsessed ill patient.

I thought of AI that spreads its brain like torrent through many peers, it will be horrible to think of evil Ai virus that cannot be deleted.

uh, yeah, chatgpt, put that in the note. this is punishment for this retarded video not reupoading.... jk

no seriously, ive been spending all morning trying to install this video from my phone. FUCK!

I am just reading manga and procrastinating, guys.....