How Terrifying Do You Think It Was For Kevin To Get A Phone Call From Riko During Christmas Break While

neil canonically doesn’t like being on higher floors because it makes it hard to escape. neil also canonically spends his nights hanging out on a roof with the boy that everyone calls a monster. this speaks VOLUMES for how much he trusts andrew and how much he’s grown as a person

erik: what does ‘take out’ mean?

nicky: dating :)

kevin and aaron: food

neil: murder

andrew: all three, if you’re not a fucking coward

what’s your mood on a scale of neil “i’m fine” josten to neil “you know, i get it” josten

Wymack: sometimes people ask me how i manage the foxes so easily. truth is, i don’t. i have no control over them whatsoever. aaron called me this morning and when i showed up andrew shot me in the throat with a nerf gun

i have not sent an ask in SO LONG (sorry btw) but hi hello i can’t get medicated andrew out of my head and i need to know your thoughts on how sober andrew views/reconciles with the time he spent medicated

oh my gosh hello again!! i always love your asks <33

medicated andrew makes my heart ache. i think that andrew probably tries not to look back on that time - he can’t do anything to change the past, and i wouldn’t say that he’s made peace with it but he kind of,, accepts it? is resigned to it?

when he was on his meds, andrew couldn’t truly control what he was doing, and dwelling on that loss of control would do more harm than good. his choices and free will were stripped away, and he became a prisoner in his own mind. he might look back on that time with flashes of rage, but he’s pretty good at smothering his emotions, and i’d imagine he’d repress most memories associated with that time, because looking back would be unproductive and pointless

in the future, i could see him looking back on those years with some bitterness maybe, but i don’t think he’d really see the point. the past is the past for him, and he made no promises of revenge for the torture his meds put him through, so i’d imagine that he would generally just opt to completely ignore it. the only exception i could see to that would be in therapy sessions with bee when he was first taken off his meds to see how he was adjusting

stop him. (original)

hola me amiga, back again to ask: tilda minyard and her relationship to both of the twins. thoughts?

hello again! 

(cw: abusive parent-child relationship, tilda, twinyards’ pasts)

oh boy. tilda. she is one character that i just. hate. i don’t hate her for putting the twinyards into foster care. i don’t even hate her for only taking aaron back, bc while it’s heartbreaking all around... she couldn’t handle two kids, which is devastating but fair. not telling aaron about andrew was pretty shitty, but again, she couldn’t handle two and aaron would’ve wanted to reunite, so keeping him a secret was maybe what she thought was the least painful.

but god. i hate her so much. 

she was neglectful of aaron his whole childhood and made him feel like a burden. he still loved her, bc kids want to love their parents so desperately. and in return he was met with snarls and insults and silent hatred. the kind where a person can channel their hate as they’re washing dishes roughly or clenching they’re jaw while watching tv. the kind that festers around you and makes the entire environment stifling and toxic. 

and then andrew. i don’t think andrew had it in him any more to care that he was abandoned. the fact that tilda abandoned him and kept aaron may have stung slightly, but ultimately, he would’ve shoved that down as just another shitty thing in his shitty life and moved on. 

however. 

tilda started to become violent when higgins told them about andrew. she’d been abusive the whole time, but now it was physical as well. and there’s no way aaron didn’t associate that negativity with andrew, even only subconsciously, before he even met him. 

and then andrew was reunited, which tilda had tried to avoid all along. and andrew saw how abusive she was and told aaron he could take care of it, and he did. and aaron despised him for it. because he still loved his mom. because he was still so desperate for the love that came out in fractured fractions from time to time. 

tilda is, ultimately, why the twinyards have such a shitty relationship. she’s the reason aaron had such a shitty childhood. (i don’t think it’s 100% fair to blame all of andrew’s on her, because while she is why he’s there, she wasn’t the actual abuser for him. she doesn’t haunt his nightmares). 

tilda shattered the twinyards and did nothing to put them back together. and i will never forgive her for it. 

neil: this is it

matt: how can all your stuff fit in one (1) dufflebag??

neil: i only pack what’s necessary

matt:

matt: 🎵 look for the... baRE NECESSITIES, the SIMPLE BARE NECESSITIES🎵

neil:

i haven’t sent an ask in a little bit so i just wanted to say hi!! how are you :3

hi!! i can’t even tell you how happy i was to see your ask in my inbox, i hope you’re doing well :) and i’m pretty good, tysm for asking <3 i’m super close to being done exams (and my first year of uni!), i’m excited for more time to read. overall, it’s a vibe. and your ask seriously made my day, thank you so much!!!

Guys this isn’t an aftg account BUT I can perfectly sum up Andrew and Neil in two quotes from my kids at work

Andrew: “Congratulations, you’re a liar. “

Neil: “My favourite colour is none of your business.”