Hey, It’s Okay To Take A Break!

that’s it

i’ve been putting this post off the longest, because i know people have extremely strong opinions on this, and sure, maybe i’m wrong, or this really is an opinion, but i want to talk about it, because it’s so uncomfortable seeing references to it.

If you haven’t read the Karlnap “Monster Ultra” fanfic, 1. disregard this post. 2. DO NOT READ IT OR SUPPORT IT. I’ll explain why.

AGAIN: Take this with a grain of salt, because I could be wrong, this could also technically be an opinion, I’m not here to argue, but I do want to bring this to attention.

With that said, TRIGGER WARNING! This post will contain mentions of rxpe and NSFW/smut, so read with caution!!

For some context before I start (in case it’s needed), my friend was the one to read it first, and bring to my attention that she felt really uncomfortable reading it. I told her we suffer together, so she linked it. And my words, “it cant be that bad”...

This fanfiction... “Monster Ultra”, Karlnap smutshot, is not okay. There is extremely clear depictions of rxpe, at the very least, it was borderline rxpe. There are moments where Karl literally begs Sapnap to stop, but he didn’t listen and didn’t care, refusing to stop unless Karl used a safeword or the color system.

Sure, Karl never actually says the safeword or color system, but how could he? Imagine you’re being forced into something you don’t want to do (even if it’s sfw, doesnt matter), and you keep saying no, but they don’t listen unless you say something specific. You’d likely be nervous about actually saying that thing, because you’d be thinking about what that person would think about you, how they would react, especially in manipulative, toxic relationships. So, Karl probably did want to say something, but was afraid of what Sapnap would think, or even what Sapnap would treat him for it after.

Sure, it’s said and shows that Karl still enjoyed it, but think about it realistically; If someone sexual assaults you, you dont enjoy it in the moment, they go to prison, but later, you change your mind and say you enjoyed it... do you think that your assaulter would just be let free? No. That’s why there’s still a very obvious problem here.

Aside from the rxpe... KARL IS NOT OKAY WITH NSFW. He has said himself that he doesn’t want ANY NSFW fanfics about him at all, because he is on the asexual spectrum. 

https://twitter.com/ccboundariies/status/1422746878760820738

It is stated TWICE in that thread that Karl is not okay with NSFW content of him. So whether you agree with the rxpe part of it, or not, it’s still not okay.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

DEAR HORROR ENTHUSIASTS...

I work at my local Haunted House, this year, I agreed to be in a room with one of our new volunteers. The room is just a living room set-up. There's a fake, charred skeleton with some creepy mask on it, it sits on the couch which is kinda old, and movable. There's also a wooden chair that one of our managers designed to be motion tracked, so when people walk past, it goes off. Thhere's also a painting on the wall, a few other decorations, and the hidden door has a shelf attached, along with a home video camera on top of it, so it blends in, and it takes a bit longer for people to get through the room and what not.

The reason I bring it up, is because I NEED IDEAS! Give me your ideas, please! I'm not the most talented with make-up, but there are other people around to help too, I am okay with special effects, there is blood, and costumes to pick from, and I do have a few clothes here at home.

We have a little less than 2 hours to do make-up, (they open at 4 for actors to do make-up and dress up, etc. and this year, we have a strict rule to go to our rooms by 6:40. We start letting people in at 7.) so I need something I could do quickly, but it may be possible to do some make-up at home.

So, with all that... give me your ideas! (please)

Alright so coming on from my last post I learned some information about Meowbah

(If you don’t know what post I’m talking about see my profile)

Her name is Zoey Stegmann

She is 15 years old

She as the timing of this post currently resides in California which area idk but I know that she resides in California

Remember Meowbah you disrespected the blade and everyone across all communities by saying the “R Slur” “F Slur” A N D “The N Slur”

And she said that shy people are weak and shouldn’t exist and should KMS and also fun fact Shy People make up around 25% - 40% of the WORLDS population

And she supports Putin for invading Ukraine to try and re-conquer it Ukraine rightfully had a choice to separate from Russia and they did and she is saying that Putin had no choice?!

Remember This.

After All You Have Done To All Communities This Calls A NEED For War.

Remember.

You Brought This Upon Yourself.

Burn In Hell You Sick Monster.

just gonna type here and get shit off my mind.

i wanna be completely transparent. im 100% going to get harrassed for what i have to say, but i just need to talk.

in regards to what's been revealed about Shelby's situation and Wilbur's involvement.

i've been a big fan of Wilbur since I joined the DSMP fandom and continued to be as I grew older. he's someone i strongly related to heavily due to mental health struggles. i love his characters and his storylines, even if they were silly sometimes. i loves his relationships with those close to him, like with Tommy and Quackity especially. i love his music a lot, Lovejoy is my favorite band, and is probably the only music i never really get tired of.

this is why im not ready to just suddenly drop him. deep down i still really like him and have related to him which is exactly why it is *so* difficult for me to just suddenly stop everything related to him.

on the other hand, i've known about Shelby since i was young. i watched a lot of her stuff with NewScapePro (lots of the undertale and fnaf roleplay stuff) and she was always one of my favorites, though i hadn't really stuck with her as i grew up. when i heard about her situation, i felt a lot of empathy with her, as i also went through abuse (mental and emotional, though).

where my struggle really starts is that i want to support Shelby, but i cant find it in myself to just completely stop my interest with Wilbur. it doesnt help that Wilbur has been one of my primary comfort people for the past few years, he was one of the people i chose to watch or listen to when i was sad.

im internally conflicted. i KNOW i should stop supporting Wilbur, especially because i've been a victim too, but it's so difficult for me, especially when my current hyperfixtiations involve him primarily.

im not ready to just let go. i should do it, but i physically can't. it's so damn hard.

i desperately want to believe in him, believe that he can and will change, but i know how abusers work. i believe in him but i know i shouldnt, and it is frustrating me.

i love him (in a way one would love any other celebrity, obviously) but i also hate him right now, but i also dont.

im not a bad person for not being ready to let go yet... but what happens if i'm never ready? what if im only ready once i find a different hyperfixtiation?

what's going to happen now? will Wilbur even be okay? (i shouldnt wonder about it but i do)

im in a very tough spot. there are so many thoughts in my head that are worsening my already low point in mental and emotional stability.

im gonna be seen as a bad person no matter what i choose to do.

which is why im just choosing to not let it change what im doing right now. maybe once things calm down, maybe i can figure things out more and i may do something different, but for right now, im not going to change anything. i will change things when im ready too. people may not like that, but it's what i need. it's what's best for me right now.

i hope Shelby will be able to fully recover and heal. i hope that Wilbur can genuinely change for the better. i hope that those closest to Wilbur are doing okay too.

quick edit because i forgot to mention this:

Wilbur's mental health is NOT excuse for abuse. Wilbur's twitter post also wasn't great.

but im also choosing to keep in mind that 1. he doesnt owe the internet an apology. he only owes the victim(s) apologies. we are not entitled to an apology.

2. while it isnt an excuse, mental health still contributes to abuse which is why i still believe that if he really tries, he can improve himself.

im not forgiving him for what he did, but im still struggling with my thoughts and emotions, which is why i cant just drop everything.

i hope that this clears things up a bit more.

i just wanna say that @loverofpiggies has no idea how much love i have for them

why do you make such good art and characters

and why do i simp for the most unattractive possible character of yours (aka error) how does that even work

my standards are so low

Pwotecc de child >:'''( Noir belongs to https://www.instagram.com/saltedtotty/

I hoped to never go on to social media to call out someone for abusing me in some way... but here I fucking am.

TW// grooming, toxic relationship

At the age of 10, I met someone online who I shared a common interest with. They introduced me to their friends, and one of them would become my abuser. After our little group fell apart, her and I stayed friends. Eventually, we figured out we liked each other, and we started dating by the time I was 12.

Things were fine for awhile, but during an arguement one time, I remember her calling me toxic. I didn't even know what that word meant, yet it stuck to me for years. I didn't get over that until I finally stepped into the light, left her behind, and finally started to get better.

We'd keep arguing, we'd take "breaks", but with each break we'd end up still be like "ily" and realize that we weren't truly having a break, ever.

Once we broke up, it only took me a day to decide that we couldn't even stay friends. It didn't feel right. I ghosted her, and I don't even remotely regret it. I was only 13. Things were quiet, and with my therapist, I had come to realize how much she really abused me.

6 months later, my abuser reached out to me. She snuck into my discord server, once she revealed herself, I was willing to make small talk. I was willing to forgive. I was naive.

I mentioned that I told my friends in my server about what she did. So she snooped and got upset when I called her a groomer. So, I deleted that message... but I really shouldn't have.

I'm 16 now, and I only just now realized that she abused me so much worse than I think. Everytime I realize that she did something wrong, I think "it can't get worse than this.", but it has. Most of my memories of the time I had with her is blotted out, but one thing I do remember is a BDSM list.

I was 13, maybe even 12, when she sent me the blank list, and one filled out. She told me, "You should do this and send it to me. Here's mine." I don't remember looking at hers, but I remember genuinely trying to fill it out, because I was young. I was naive. I didn't know any better.

I didn't know most of the things listed on it. I had to look half of it up, and I was so uncomfortable doing it the whole time. Not like anything could have had any truth to it because I was fucking 12/13. I had absolutely 0 experience in anything sexual. I was so uncomfortable doing it, it wasn't fair to me to do something like this and not understand any of it.

I didn't realize how damn weird it was back then. I only just realized it and it's been nearly half a decade. There are certain people out there that have used that list to groom their victims, I found it out just now, and it hit me like a fucking train to realize that I was victim to it.

Tabby, I don't fucking give a shit if I ruin your chances of college, or a job. You don't deserve a good life because you ruined mine. And even though I've learned to grow around my trauma, I cannot move on from the fact that you are the reason I struggle so much today. I don't fucking trust people, because of you and the way you treated me. But I have learned to realize that I will not tolerate people stepping all over me and I will not be treated unfairly because I have fucking worth and you don't get to act all innocent anymore.

My abuser is Tabbybat6. Bluebat, Tabbitha, whatever the fuck she goes by now. I first met her on Steam, we moved to hangouts, then Discord. She has Wattpad, Instagram, Tumblr, and on everything I could think of, I have her blocked and restricted.

Tabbitha, if somehow, you're reading this, I hope you understand the way you made me feel, someday. I hope you feel all the pain you made me feel from your abuse. And I'm praying to the god I don't believe in that justice gets fucked served.

reblogging this because it's funny

not sure if someone's done this yet but here it is anyway

Ink: *touches Error*

Error: *crashes*

Ink: Oh no! My Ruru! He's broken!

Next we have the most cult-ist shit I've ever seen, all said by someone who claims to be her partner.

All of these were responses to other people calling out meowbah for being a shit human being.

And, just in case you guys want to read things for yourselves, this is their account.

Still pretty cult-ish.

What can we do about all this?

First of all... STOP INTERACTING WITH MEOWBAH. The more interactions meowbah gets, the more enabled they feel, and the more they will continue, regardless of if it's hate or not.

Second... We NEED to make sure that the youtubers involved (Ranboo, Tommy, Dream, and even George because he ended up in there at some point too) are aware of what's being done to them. Yes, it's super uncomfortable for them, but because they are REAL PEOPLE, who were put in there WITHOUT PERMISSION... they are the ones who can take legal action.

Third... REPORT MEOWBAH. Any platform that you see meowbah, REPORT HER. We ALL need to be reporting her. We know she still has a platform on discord too, which I'm personally not sure how to go about that, but eventually we can figure that part out.

So: REMEMBER... keep yourselves educated. Report, ignore, and bring awareness to others without enabling her.

WOW! A new meowbah post. Let's jump right in. By the way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There are mentions of pedophilia, necrophilia, racism, mocking of religion, dead people mentioned, what can be described as cultists, and probably more.

First of all, I think these screenshots will speak for themselves.

Technoblade is a dead youtuber (rest in power), he passed away from cancer in 2022. He was never okay with shipping or NSFW art of him, and there are suspicions that he was POSSIBLY (not confirmed because he never said it himself) aromantic and asexual.

Tommyinnit is a youtuber as well, he was underage up until last year in April when he turned 18. He has made it explicitly clear that he is NOT OKAY with shipping and NSFW content of him.

Ranboo is all the same. He turned 18 a little over a year ago, and is NOT OKAY with shipping and NSFW content of them.

While I don't know much about Jellybean, I do know they only turned 18 November 2022, to which meowbah made NSFW art to "celebrate" it.

This is obviously an issue, because she makes art of REAL people, without permission, and to add onto that: these are people who are not okay with NSFW about them.

(cont.)