Hey There, 57 Kg—didn't See You Coming! It's Like I've Shed Some Of Those Weighty Worries And Gained

After 48 hours fasting I was so exhausted that I nearly was not able to run, only 6 instead of 10 km. So I decided to eat something. The funny thing is, after intermittent fasting I cannot binge anymore. There is no space in my belly. And that is genius.

Early in the morning, second day fasting. I am happy. I am not alone in that. I feel the warmth of doing it together, living it together. Being less, purging away all superficial, all unecessary. Being pure at the end. Feeling being loved and being able to love.

quotes to live by.

starving is a gift, not a punishment.

hunger will always feel better than the sickness and guilt that follow eating.

hunger means it’s working.

to be empty is to be strong.

to be light is to be perfect.

eat to live; do not live to eat.

if you must eat at all, let it be just enough to keep your secret safe.

& nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

Feeling exhausted. 3d needs patience

New

quiet rules for quieter days

– choose discipline before desire. let control be the first bite.

– brush your teeth, then once more. mint tells hunger to wait outside.

– cold water fills the places where want once lived.

– chew until your thoughts dissolve, not the craving.

– let the scent satisfy. the will to say no is the real indulgence.

– move your limbs until the noise fades. burn to remember you’re alive.

– stand beneath cold water. reset. rinse the need from your skin.

– scroll the still bodies, the soft lines, the quiet frames. become the goal.

– let bitter coffee kiss your throat. green tea if the silence needs steeping.

– curl into the ache. breathe through it. you’ve done this before.

– remind yourself: it’s not about food. it’s about becoming less.

When I am fasting, I wear a bracelet which is locked on place. The key is hidden at home. As long this bracelet is locked, I cannot eat. I wish I had a kind of device (gag?) in my mouth which could be locked preventing eating.

Essentially I want to be less. Diminished. 20 kg of me are not needed. I want to be less visible. Paradoxically I find a friend(s) here who sees me. This makes me happy. So I want to disappear while being happy to be seen.

Before you report someone's blog and take away their safe space...

Ed's are the most lonely and isolating illnesses there is. You are accepted only if you're successfully recovering, otherwise you're automatically problematic and promoting. Your body and habits around eating are triggering. You're demonetized for simply having a sickness.

People with ed's will always find their triggers, no matter how hard you try to block, report and all. But the thing is, you have to find these spaces. Closed spaces. If we don't have those, people will take their ed's on TikTok or other platforms where they will eventually pop up to everyone to see. If someone looks for these spaces, they're already sick. No one will GET sick by looking at someone's blogs.

These spaces let's you be honest, vent, have people and friends that all go through same things. You're less lonely. These spaces can be toxic, but when you find the right people it can be uplifting and actually good for your mental health: you're not alone.

These days people are mostly nice and pro recovery. M34nsp0 is something only kids post these days anymore. We connect, we vent, we help each other. Until WE are ready to recover. Forced recovery will never work the same as choosing recovery yourself. Reporting everything makes everything worse: you get isolated again, you're lonely again. Most people who D13 from Ed's d13 from taking their own life... It's the loneliness and depression that takes them eventually.

So if you see someone's Ed page, let them have it. Block it if you find it disturbing, but that can be the only thing keeping them alive atm. Just because YOU feel like it's not good, doesn't give you the right to take that safe space, friends and support from them.

If you need to find it, the sickness is already there. We will take these things to another platforms if these ones gets taken away. And then they will pop up to everyone.

So, our businesses are here, yours is there. The problem comes when you're also there, in our businesses. Protect your peace and block. Thank you.

Couldn't write it better

How to trick your parents/family you at3🥒

First of all,I’m not promoting any ed’s, I am not responsible of anything that happens if this goes wrong. Prioritise your health,and if you’re not feeling well stop any moment. Always look after your body.

Think about your goal. Your parents love you,so they want you to be eating. Well,it doesn’t always work like that. Here are my tips on how to skip that one high c4l me4l..or more.

1. Ask for money to eat out.

Oldest trick in the book. You get closer to your gw,and make money out of it. One of my personal favourites. Let’s say you have to go somewhere in the morning,you skip breakfast telling your parent you’ll pick something on your way.

Works: max twice a week,they’ll say that you have to eat real food and not just takeaway.

2. “I don’t like being watched while I eat”

I love this one. I’m actually pretty awkward when someone’s eating with me. Tell the parent you’re closer with that you feel uncomfortable eating with others,so ask for permission to eat after everyone finishes. Then,you can eat a little,throw away some food,or whatever method you prefer.

Works: pretty much everyday,unless you are in a rush and need to eat with others. Doing this often makes it look more real.

3. Eating in your room

Isn’t this the most obvious one? Do whatever you want to that food if you’re alone. Make sure to bring the “empty” dishes to the kitchen,but not too quick.

Works: max once a week,most parents don’t like the idea of eating in the same room you sleep in

4. Prepare your meals yourself

You don’t have to know much about cooking to make yourself a delicious l0w c4l meal. You can even cook something that won’t raise an eyebrow and then throw it away.

Works: not so often, maybe once in two weeks, you don’t wanna seem obsessed with food

5. Using time in your favour

Let’s say none of these worked. You’re at dinner with your family. You pour yourself a big glass of water. You quickly chug it before starting to eat. You start by cutting every piece of food in small pieces, while talking to your family. As you’re about to put that fork in your mouth, you come up with a new subject. You close your mouth,but don’t take any bite. Use a napkin to throw your food in. Move the food in your plate to make it seem like you ate.

Works: not every time,but worths a shot. Make sure to e4t only when they’re actually looking at you

6. Water bottle method

This one worked so great for me, it’s crazy how it works every time. Get a colored bottle,not the usual transparent one. Make sure the lid is big enough. Empty the bottle and hold it close to you. After every 2-3 bites, “drink” some water. Spit the food inside the bottle. You can hold some of the food in your mouth then spit more out. Everyone fell for it.

Works: anytime, any meal, with anyone. One of my best tips

Hope this helped, and I’ll come up with a part 2 if anyone wants it. Let me know if my tips worked! x