Ahhh… I Want To Cry :’ Today Art No Good… Arghhhhh
ahhh… I want to cry :’ today art no good… arghhhhh
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very blergh day to start…. 😔😔😔
—today surprisingly started to draw in the morning… ahaha I don’t usually… even took my pencil towards to sketch… and thought to start with heads from yesterday… and just not looking at refs to see where I am… and well that first one came really well… I Like… but ahaha yeah I def need to practice heads more ahhhhh… well at least they don’t look bad……?
—and then I went to do usual figure pracs but I don’t know if it was the heads that three me off but man…. I feel like I was stumbling and I didn’t know what I was doing 😭😭😭 everything felt so blergh…
— took a lil break and came back to see if drawing fav character to draw would help but omg I think her magic fell?! cuz it didn’t feel any fun to draw her wtf……. I was planning to lmao continue drawing other wips but that was too much work to try so I went to doodle her but even she… didn’t help…. 😔😔😔
—but looking at these doodles now I am feeling great looking at her….. maybe it would really help to try to doodle shit… even if the procress might feel urgh/not great I am sure I will feel a lot satisfied and happy to see myself draw a character drawing. maybe even a small comic for ft… since 😳 im getting ideas….?! okay so plan for next stuff!!! i don’t feel like drawing now…
okay all I have to say today was super insane???? wtf…..
—uhhhh so from yesterday, i just thought after a while id continue drawing…….. and you know i looked at my prev art stuff and saw how I’ve been drawing srda… especially her eyes and i just wanted to try that again…. also since i saw I used to draw in that water brush i thought why don’t I try again you know… and yknow. the first srda was…….fine……. but not really a fan ITS ONLY WHEN I TEIED COLOUR!!!! THAT WOW….. IT REALLY GOT<3 I think i did try colour in this brush before but i didn’t intially like it PROPERLY BECAUSE I DIDNT FULLY DO SOMETHJH IN IT!!!! anyways this was the start of something<3 i went ham ahahah. like the second srda wasn’t the best either (man i need to work on my face angles) but MY GOSH the third srda is fave 💞💞💞 (seriously i want to forever draw like her like this!!!!!) (it’s so perfect…..her hair…. expression just. Yes) I also didn’t want to go out of prac with figures so i just drew in a redraw of panel and pleasantly surprised at how she came out….? hehe…. <3 I did realise I see figure small lmaoo…. I wanted her face to be bigger but oh well and of course as soon as as I be drawing her I get the urge to draw the two… srda + chou… I wanted a lil peck idea… and man it was kind of hard to get profile and also wondering how to draw her from side profile and to keep the chubbiness…. but yeshhhhh it was a good prac. speaking of the eyes, i meant like before i used to had in some lower eyelash or whatever and it looked so nice i gotta had to add it back in also lmaooo the side profile one i was drawing (the peck) got a lot skewed since i wasn’t really putting in a lot of effort anyways and lol her eye turned out really big than i wanted it to be…. anyways yeah.
—anyways after that… I wanted to draw more 🦋 and uhhhhhh this one wasn’t really going well… I botched up her face and tried to fix it anyway cuz of that im really meh over also lol I tried to make her arm do diff lol… or smth since I just keep the arms straight in bust shots… I really need to practice bust shots lol… btw heh the blue background was a homage to my old drawings… I always tended to just add a blue background (if you can’t tell, it’s my go to colour for a lot of things) (honestly my fav colour at this point but I wouldn’t really say fav… it’s like a Homebase fav. that n pink/purples I like to really draw in…) (once I discovered drawing in purple I was a goner ahahaha)
—anyways of course I had to see how 🌸 looked in this brush…..! wait… didn’t I do juv first…? man this is why I liked to do a write up on thoughts as I do it but I was lazy… I have terrible memory lmao. anyways right I did do juv to see her and then skkr… idk if I liked the juv so when I tried to compare her to the normal procreate pencil brush I use… I actually liked that better than the pencil brush lmaooooo. also did other juv in diff brushes just to comapeee… and just to draw her lol… I do like her in more textured brushes….
—and then!!!!! 🌸 I had to get her in…. And im really liking it….? the first one was skewed as obvs… im bad at trying to get her hair right lmaooooo…. but then I wanted to do a redraw of manga from gaiden just to see and cuz I wanna get her more right and I do really like it….? def one of the best skkr I’ve drawn….. but hmmm at the same time it’s not really the type of skkr I want to draw I guess… but I’ve been thinking I wanted to draw that type of skkr but I guess I realised I don’t …. anyways these came out well and did make me very happy in realising that i can draw her in a way that I do like…. :’ I guess major thing that helped was the eyes since I looked at prev art that I drew with srda i realised that I didn’t used to draw the eyes in one line go… and makes sense since when I’d try to draw eyes in one ago… it didn’t really look good… also what’s so hard about skkr was her damn pupils… it’s hard to draw pupils as dots without it looking scary after all or super off but I think im getting hang of it now… it helps to have a good brush too…
—I wasn’t going to draw anymore and take a break but I guess I am just on a roll this morning lmao …. the urge to draw is Real… anyways so since I was playing homage to some of my old drawings I THOUGHT I HAD TO DRAW SOME ⏳!!!! since SEEIOUSLY!!!! I drew like a bunch of him in Feb I think.. 2022 let me check.. no it was in 2024!!!! seriously I think it was the most I drew a character in a freakin day… got obessed with his design and needed to draw him and now kinda sad that I got over that…!!!!! but seriously!!!!! drawing him was what made me discover some of my fav brushes ever…..!!!!! and since it’s his bday month i had to draw him in…. i really was liking the diff colour drawing for each character so i wanted to get that in too…
—and hello????? why is that one so good…???? I’m seriously shocked!!! I don’t really like the first one I drew like lol why his face look like that lmaooo but second one….?! since I had especially just scribbled in his clothes…?! I think it’s cuz the face was so fun to draw in… and I made it more intense than the anime screencap I ref’ing… in comparison the third I drew was so disappointing lmaoooo. it didn’t even turn out to look like him… but I do think it looked more like him before I ended up trying to shade in some colour… also this red colour is super fun to colour him in…….
—anyways I decided to colour in that one…. and hey….?! it’s coming to look really nicely….?! what the…?! I tried to add some shading too but intially didn’t like it and remembered from that colouring session like days ago… that this artist used some diff colouring for the shading like teal/green and I went with green to see how it’d work and tried to make sure it was darker than the skin so it’d be shading but I think it’s when I used the multiply layer and lowered the opacity that it went YOOOOO. I’m really liking it!!!! the colours look super fun together…. im not completely satisfied with it… maybe if i darkened the overall picture… hey wait let me try that now… (20.10) yeah………No. even when I changed the blue to be green multiply. nah didn’t work
—-anyways that ⏳ drawing REALLY MOTIVATED ME… To Want to draw a proper piece for him but honestly I had like no ideas and then remembered I could borrowse through stuff to get ideas but I haven’t…. Really…. I don’t think my browsing was the best and it’s still on my mind but oh well. I do hope I draw something since it seems like a waist not to…
—I did get around to doing daily figure pracs….! this session kinda sucked though lmaoooooo. like I didn’t really have a general idea of what I really wanted and it was kinda boring… I worked on shoulders since I figured it’s something I needed to work on and did some hands (which uhhhh I think I need to study back hands properly urgh…..) and I was kinda basically all of the place and lol I attempted doing figure prac in that water brush and uh yeah. Didn’t like. Anyways wasn’t feeling it really after filling this page so I didn’t…. But I do like with some of the arm prac I tried to add on face later and that was kinda fun even if portions was sometimes skewed… since it got to doing poses that I don’t usually do if I start with torso and stuff
—this is making me wanna do an exercise where I draw the hand first….. hmmmm. that would be fun and I do want to get a gist of how things are portioned to each other and work in relation so I can jump around in my drawing and draw things from different places and ahahah anyways this session making me realise how weak I am honestly in just everything in knowledge and stuff and I think it’s best to practice the bones and urgh the leg especially since while I have a gist. a lot of my figure drawings feel like guess work which I don’t is working that much for me
—-after this!!!! I did so much video !!!!! watching!!!! found this good in depth anatomy stuff too… that I just watchedddddd. a lot. and I think honestly I just want to watch a lot of anatomy videos to just see and get more in depth and then more closely study the bones in a general way so I have more awareness of them and then try to apply knowledge in my figure pracs….
—-one thing I have to say it’s a shame!!!! I didn’t draw ssk today!!!!!!!!!!!’ :/ I wanna draw him but also I really can’t be bothered right now………. Hopefully before day ends (now:20.22) I will get to doodle him and get some idea for a ⏳ drawing….. I do have some ideas but it gets in other characters and honestly can’t be bothered trying to learn how to draw his sibs too… for a drawing but I make it make it an idea for me to draw hmmm. anyways yeah. I think I will just go into more videos right now and just. get myself immersed in everything….!!!!!
—ah well I didn’t do anyhhhbg else today but I was getting more immersed in trying to study poses/figures and I think I got an exercise that will help… I really want to learn how to get angles right and the relation of pelvis n ribcage so I think it’s good to study poses and try to get how the pelvis would look like in that angle and help using 3D model of a pelvis that I can move around… cuz I really need to study tilt and shit… want to get more in depth study of knowledge so that all left is the drawing part…. Ah well didn’t explain this well but who cares
Ah fck this.,, art is so hard.,,, it’s so frustrating :’ like I wanted to create some fanart for my ship and it was sooo hard……… I can’t even…,. There’s so much in realising I have to learn ahahah….. (sob) oh man. This shit is so hard n annoying. The frustration I felt while attempting too…. :’ I wanted to give up so badly aahahha.
insane. as soon as so woke up… add this dream of art.,.. so obviously I got out my iPad and IMMEDIATELY went to drawing. the bright light of my iPad killed me.
I spent so much time on that face in the last one 😌 I like that time of art moment… just working… looking at refs…. Refining….. 5.39
But…. One thing I’ve been sadly about lately is well…, sIGH…. How I feel like my figures don’t look all that nice…. It’s just kind of disheartening I suppose….. like it’s not bad… at this level… I GUESS…. But I want it to be better…. Ahhhhhh SIGH….. I have to a lot of practice and studies I suppose 😞 but nothing man. I’m getting better at Creating stuff, I think. IDK!!! it’s honestly hard to gauge my progress level. It’s not really a straight line…..
COLOURRR TIMEEEE
like lol I did genuinely have a diff plan today which was to DRAW DRAW DRAWW character stuff!!! plus have some figure prac dibble in. since this morning n afternoon, I’ve been watching some videos. faces n clothes. and honestly didn’t help that much but the clothes one I think I got more better understanding…? And what I need to study I guess.
but ahahah while I did want to draw I didn’t feel urge to get pen and draw until… I came across this beautiful colour sky thingy on yt background for a song and wow it suddenly got me wanting to do colour studying!!!! so I got my pen and cracked to it.
— one thing I wanted to focus on is the ability to just pick colour and feel for the right one which I think…(?) I’m getting. still very weak on that especially that yellow one down there. not satisfied since I wasn’t able to get the overall genera colour scheme awww.
—like initially just wanted to see how diff colour picks would be easier or not against diff value backgrounds….
—for the person colour drawing I wanted to capture their overall skin colour and I think I went too overright with the Oliver. since they had more lighter skin. but at least my second attempt is better than the first which I think turned out overalll muddy because I used a green undertone but wasn’tttt entirely sure of how to use it.
— I do like how the blockage for the darker skin sphere turned out. I remembered these videos I watched a whileee ago and the more saturated colour picks and it def helped…!
— I stopped for a bit since I felt like this was starting to become aimless and I think would be better if I did a full colour for a character and then figure out my weakpoints to study on… also this was god since I was able to get in some figure study ^^ and something I realised/well more like reinforced is the drawing the legs….. and just understanding how it more less connects from the body. also ahahah I feel like it’s better if I start to work on studying the feet at one point….
— also I started to think that I want to do more comic focused today as well. it would be really good in realising what stuff I’m missing in gaps and just the prac down. I’m havin some problem in head just finalising vague ideas so I think it’s best to get something down… also do have some urge to just draw on paper today… also I really want to draw this character on motorcycle!!!’ it’s something I’ve never done so I know it won’t turn out amazibgggg and shit but. well. it’s best to try right!!!!! and ahhhh I really just wanna draw characters interacting man….. so many to-do…. piority is really that comic stuff since I can have character interactions and general comic prac which is what I need!!!!!! 15.07
ahahah… yeah I did say all of that. but I didn’t do it<3 :’
— honestly wasn’t feeling it but I felt like doing some figure pracs anyways so I just got to doing it. I wanted to focus on character interactions and lolll immediately came across this hard one… lying pose…. I honestly wasn’t feeling it so lol I put low effort into most of these… but I do think it was good and lil fun now realising doing more varied poses… also ahahah I do like the multi coloured look… I realised I still had the green from the colouring session before on when I went to do the figure prac and wanted to see how it would be like to do in all these diff colours and it looks fun to look at. but as per usual, I do like/prefer more brighter pink dark blues and black to draw in… purple when I’m in mood.
—I included hand studies and oh boy those are hard :’ ahaha…. like wtf is this under me…. Idk what I was trying lmaoooooo.
—also remembered to include some lil twisting bodies pracs since I remember I suckedddd at that yesterday ahahah. and I think I got it(?) a lil bit…. like the way the shoulder one one side is almost not seen and like doing that paper thing helped at first to see the twist…
—and well since I completed to fill the page I wasn’t really feeling doing another page but also didn’t want to stop drawing… and well remember how I said I wanted to do comic? Well I thought… what if I worked on stuff I already have…? And what do you know! That way worked! The roommate one… I didn’t actually start anything for it lmao but drawing some idea I had for poses anyways… so I just got straight into it. And uhhhh not bad. Actually quite proud of that first panel…. I did have some idea of them being outside and I don’t think I like how I filled the background since I wanted them to be more outside so something to change. also I’ve been looking closer at mangas I’ve been reading and they do tend to have panels with characters smaller and I wanted to try that. and I realised that it’s best to have a script since while I had vague idea of what I wanted in this scene it’s. kind of hard to think of the sequence just like that. but honestly cba to write out the script for this comic today LMAO so yeahhhhh
—but I did want to continue drawing and did have some urge to draw some srda and I did have this some kind of idea in my head for her pose but ehhhhhh lol when I put it to paper lmaooo it def felt so….?!?! like what was even the plan for the pose… nothing about it made sense?? why would she be doing that???? also wow I really suck at drawing the face I realise. it bothered me a lot lmaooo . like pls why does she look like that 😭😭😭
— I honestly didn’t think that I’d be doing other drawings and plus the prev one took all the drawing want to draw at all from me lmaooo. but ehhhh i got back to picking up my pen since i was back in my bed anyways… and this time i wanted to focus on faces… but i def did feel like this was super aimless… and just doing whatever and trying to get some faces in diff angles and i think the problem is that my understandings of faces structure is terrible…like i knowww the gist and general of the stuff. but well it’s more the jaw I guess and idk what it is i feel like im not completely understanding it like how im understanding and now the figure better…. so i guess its time to watch some videos and just also general videos of people drawing faces…. I feel like that would help I guess…. Also man it did feel super sad since how terrible my faces is…. I think it’s cuz I always prided myself on doing good faces and well, I know that now my “eye” has gotten better i wasn’t really that good at faces. maybe yeah for straight ones but ahh… still…. It’s kind of sad…..
ahaha I wasnt actually any more stuff but welllllll
—I was watching videos and i wanted to just try drawing and this time just focus on scribble and gesture and whatever. and I think it helped a lot in just getting myself to loosen up and not think at all even tho that was a bit hard since I was slowing down in scribbled to get things right. anyways I realised that I was doing arms last so I decided to then look at the ref for a while longer than draw with knowledge of how the arms are supposed to be like that.,, and then I redraw the same poses, seeing what I did wrong (drawing elbow low and too far out) and then
—I wanted to draw over it in more finalised way and ahhh… that’s when it clicked. the way I started to feel actual struggle over my arms is when I was drawing character stuff and that’s like — it requires more detail? to arm? I guess. like character drawing is diff from figure prac.,,. while I might have ref to work from, I have to adjust and it’s about getting ideas across… too.. and well. the drawing has to look more finished too. and since I just draw arms for figure prac I don’t focus on it as much but when I drew character drawings….
—anyways this exercise was good for just loosening myself and quite fun that way…
today’s art:
—okay so I just did really VIDEOS!!!! and then went to through this rabbit hole and found.. well I guess first I should start with. I really needed to learn how arm connects to the shoulder asince I think I just forgot????and my gosh I found this super good comprehensive video that did demonstration and everything. it was really good
—honestly after that I went through rabbit hole of seeing his other videos and then well… I found this super long skull video and was watching and then it started to do a draw with me sides of skull and I did want to follow through so I just decided to do that later when I could draw with… and well then.. I just went off to do other stuff
—i don’t plan on drawing today and if i was, probs just general studies but ahaha i was on x and it really inspired to draw my otp and SO I PLANNED TO. but then it turned into redraw of someone else’s art and then into prac ahahah.
—the first one wasn’t great at all… and I just wanted to focus on the pose instead!!! and see what I was doing wrong etc. One of videos I watched made me think about that. Talking about focusing on analytic and like looking at what you drew and finding out what you did wrong and etc. And I do think that was good thing to be aware off and so I did that… and well even if I don’t think the last one turned out amazing or anything I do think it made me realise stuff. like how in the pose it was the arm that was stretching out to the knee…
—and so since I liked doing this n thought was fun/nice I did another pose study! And oh man the hands were HARD tin this one I still have no idea on how to fix it and just gave up in the end lolllllllll. Arms. Arms were hard. Why do I keep saying hands when im talking about arm lollll
—but one think I did realise that I was doing wrong was when drawing lower part, in trying to get the legs right, I forgot about the butt that was actually sitting down. and cut it off since the crouch wouldn’t be visible… and so it was helpful in remembering stuff like that. and trying to visual posing better: like it made next time to remember to think of whole pose and how it interactions with whatever it’s doing and even bits that can’t be seen. like being aware of stuff like that is really important.
—and well after that wasn’t feeling like doing any more pose studies and well… I SKETCHED IN THE IDEA FOR THE COMIC I HAD???? very happy about that
—okay lol I did think of doing some kind of script but cba to and was keeping in mind this comic tips/tutorial I came by that stuck with me yesterday. for first panel I very obviously can’t draw backgrounds and just couldn’t be bothered to look up refs and just scribbled in general idea I had for it. and for the next one I tried hard to make sure my figure was reading well (to me) like the general idea I wanted for it and later in did feel in general idea of background which im happy about.
—the initial idea that started this was the next two panels. ahaha I really just wanted to draw him being tied. can’t believe they did that. I mean I can but still lololol. and I do like the close up in next panel from diff angle. also this made me concious of how expressions ain’t my strong suit lmaoooo.
—and well after that is where things started to fall apart. like I had general idea in my head of what I wanted but I feel like the pacing n etc wasn’t great at all but I think it was good to get the general idea and everything tdown… so im happy that I actually sketched in the idea for comic. soooo happy. ^^
—and welllll remember juv art from yesterday. I realised after a bit that she doesn’t like she was sitting at all lololol despite that being intention. cuz I feel like I was so focused on getting the length of leg correct that I forgot that she was sitting so her knee would be higher. and well. I just wanted to fix that.
—added a bench because why not. and honestly im…..not sure that I did fix it completely. It still seems off…? but ehhhh i got her to look like she was sitting so that’s a win.
—I wasn’t planning to draw anymore but while taking screenshot for this post…I ended up just drawing some figure pracs and ahahah these didn’t go well at all. it was alright. But like mabnnnn even while keeping in mind what the video said (the dots around the arm meaning to represent scapula so just to keep in mind while drawing the arm) but ehhjhhhb I feel like like my arms isn’t at alll good. like I feel like I just forgot everything. so I think it’s best to watch videos of people drawing …. that always helps.
—and well but I didn’t want to end it there and wanted to draw something nice……to finish the the day with… something that would feel nice about. and yeah no that didn’t happen. 😔😔😔
—I thought while it’s been a while since I drew my lil srda too<3 I should do it but yeah no. it went horribly. well that’s kind of an exaggeration. more like I just…? don’t like….? I think it might have to do with the brush and how out of prac I man with drawing her hair… cuz man I have def drawn better srdas in my time. I feel like it might be her expression so. I changed it but it wasn’t. So I did an overdraw just because but it wasnt lollll. and I do think it’s funny how her expression gets more sadder. like the way I felt (more disappointed) when drawing it LMAO
I actually like the first one drew the most…… 😔😔😔
I made this comp a while ago, maybe before christmas? I've made some more sketchbook pages since but I thought I'd also post this here! Maybe I'll compile the recent ones at another time, though they're far more boring as theyre all black & white lol
I kinda wanna work…. On the srda hair comic wip…. But im feeling lazy 😔 ngl….. I deserve this break anyways….. I just drew some crazy stuff right after waking up. Immediately. LOL.
