Crazy World

Don’t put out the light out on me

I asked

Ever so silently .

He turned ever so slightly

With a grin upon upon his cheek

Blew the light

And I was gone within a blink .

@trueemotions91

I see the sun, I see the sand , I see the sea, but I can't see the air .

I can see all that's beautiful around me.

But you no what I can't see .

The thing that keeps me alive

And that's the distraction in life.

We are surrounding by beauty, ugliness , and everything far and between .

But do those things really bother me ?

Where's my twisted feelings ,

my emotions when they run high,

the 1000 words that race through my head every night !!!

But why ? Cant I see these in front of me!!

If these were on show they wouldn't be a distraction it's my lifelong goals !!

These are the main

Yet they kept locked away

Tightly secure inside my brain

The things we can see , touch, feel , smell are distractions in my way!!

Why can't the things that matter be so easy to reach and grab!!

To put all that matters out on a table would be a lifelong puzzle but that puzzle is my goal in life .

You see it's the only thing on this earth that's been made just for me!!!

So when you see that beautiful flower blossoming don't make it a distraction , alter it to the reality and perception , your own path in life is taking you through.

@trueemotions91

Fondling ,

In between the leaves,

Of a crispy bed of seaweed.

Slithering down my body

To find thier new home

deep in between my legs,

Where the spiders wait

Late at night

Stalking thier next victim ,

The mouse use me for warmth,

Scared of the night time dawn.

the owl holds all

Of my darkest secrets,

The stars have witnessed

My deepest desire ,

She feels me

When I whisper ,

Her leaves curl

Into a twisted picture .

Their all use me for

shelter.

@trueemotions91

Crossroads lay ahead

The paths are clear now:

Continue or change

Alcohol, antidepressants and rage

Sobriety, healthy lifestyle and peace

Exhausted from protecting myself

And pretending to be strong

A brain is a weapon , mass destruction , out of any league of your imagination .

You think fire burns ever had your head like it’s going explode, a build up of pressure , you can’t control , the motherfucker just squeezes even harder.

Till you can’t take it no more .

That’s a war .

A war on the inside only you can defeat.

A war with yourself.

No one else can see .

Now if these thoughts automatically went what would that brain have left to wonder.

Is this the issue why we all at war with each other .

our brains are on a constant over drive.

Fighting with our own  imagination  . 

Why does our brain work this way .

Try so hard to turn the fucker off but hey ho it just feels a empty hole  .

What’s the point the ability .

If only we can feel the pain .

It is self destruction and every single one of us do it.

But why ?!

Why do we cause ourselfs so much hurt, crying , pain .

Why can’t we allow ourselfs to live in harmony.

Something crazy going on

I’m sure we weren’t created for our brains to self destruct from the inside out.

That’s what we are doing !

Scary crazy shit happening up here , only god must stare .

Self destruct on every brain.  

Hell no !

Its not the norm .

I’m sure

but how to defeat it

Is a whole other board game .

@trueemotions91

emotions make me feel physically sick

Yet I fight that feeling everyday

Just because I’m used to feeling that way

It’s not normal

I know that now

It is my soul

Breaking inside

It’s only escape

Since I lock it deep

I’ve ignored every instinct

To fight what I know

Coz the truth be told

I just don’t care no more .

Bottled for far to long

It’s only aim is to remind me every day

What makes me feel vile

But I allready know

He will never complete my soul

Yet forever under his control .

@trueemotions91

I’m going be going for a while , as I can start work again soon ! Yayyyyy ❤️ so big thanks to all my followers who have shared my words and cheered me up with your beautiful words , posts and everything amazing ! I will be on time to time but not as active before! All of you keep up the brilliant work you all share, remember to keep smiling and pushing ahead ❤️ love to all of you and keep safe in this mad world ❤️Once again thank you, I shall miss my daily dose of everything fun and inbetween , but human contact is calling me 😝❤️x

Life one look one love , one heart one soul, one shot at this game .

Play wisely like a fool watch for the stars and fill the space .

Don’t let the clouds move that amstophre push them thoughts through quicker then a river.

Watch how it moves, watch how it trembles . It bears a lot of Weight but yet - never do it buckle .

To love, to loss ,to lose , to gain, to win , to climb.

To fly like a bird with the wind gliding your path.

You flip I flop .

You fall I climb .

@trueemotions91

Law and order

What the hell has happened

You all want the same thing

Peace love and harmony.

We just want freedom

To explore our own minds

To walk across the land

We was giving for free.

We stand with hands in the air

Chanting we just want to be heard

While your stood on the line,

Distorted face , a devils eye.

We was placed upon earth

By your mother and mine

I was giving life , by a wife ,

But I did not choose

To be put upon this world

Which is falling apart in front of me.

I did choose to have a mind

Not to be controlled by the side ,

But to many sheep are falling for the governments lie.

Your hitting innocent humans

While you glare with your power

Think your better then any other .

I don’t disrespect you job

But why do you defend the slobs

And not your job

Which is to protect your family and mine.

Not to use the bat

Given you to by the mighty rats

To a innocent man without a hat

We have no weapons , just a voice

We beg you can hear ,

But we know we fall upon deaths ears .

If we was to bring shields , bats and the world

You would be the ones running for the hills.

We out do the majority of you

But we still carry nothing

We don’t throw stones ,

Our hands are clean

We don’t carry a gun

Just a empty thumb.

We can all play games , believe me so,

But you lock the most powerful men in a zoo,

If them wild animals were let out ,

Your power would no longer be felt

As they would out do the devil in you.

We unite as one with out any cause

Millions of us , face off demons

Who won’t let us become one.

We are told violence is wrong

And we agree can’t you see

It’s just me .

I have no riot gear, My skin is my armour ,

A shield is my face , as I have nothing to hide ,

I don’t carry a baton , I carry a lantern ,

To show you the light , in the darkest point of your life.

I bring my energy , you carry a taser

To zap the life

Straight out of me .

We beg you to see

We are peaceful in this sweet lullaby

We only want to be free.

@trueemotions91