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I just want to remind you that sometimes your life really doesn't begin until you are 26+... Romanticizing and obsessing over our youth is harmful. Growing up is beautiful. Discovering who you are and how you interact with the world is a gift. Maturing and learning what you truly want out of life and living in that purpose brings fulfillment and peace. Your life is not over in your early 20's because you haven't figured it out yet, it's just beginning.

~✧°+* 11/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

10.08.2023

More literature review and spending lots of time outside.

Building and keeping routines has always been a struggle for me. It works during the semester because I build my personal routine (when to get up, when to have food, when to do chores) around my classes, but during the semester break it all falls apart :') So for the past week I've been making an effort to get up at a reasonable time and head outide right after getting ready. It's done wonders both for my productivity as well as my mental health

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

continued literature review

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

went for a walk

Hours slept: ~8hrs Screentime: 5hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~8.900

my whole life has been a play of obsessions and distractions. to be obsessed with something so it distracts me from the reality, to find another distraction cuz the obsession is destroying me.

~✧°+* 4/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

31.07.2023

Another late update. I hope I get into the habbit of posting these before bed again, it rounds off the day very nicely.

The exam went well! It took me a while because I struggle with staying focused a lot, but I believe we ended up with something presentable!

I didn't do too much besides the exam. In the evening I went for a walk and got Young Mungo. I wanted a Mieko Kawakami book but I want to read her writing in German and they didn't have the German editions. So I went with another one I've been eyeing for a while!

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

took my history of witch hunts exam

went for a walk

got a pizza (as a treat)

bought a book I've been meaning to read for a while

continued watching Peaky Blinders with my friend

Hours slept: ~8hrs Screentime: 7hrs Steps taken: ~4.300

happy six months baby<3

Hey you. You know you should be doing The Thing. I don't want to do The Thing, either. But we can sit down and do it for 2 minutes together. Then we can do it for 5 minutes. Then 10. And so on and so forth until it is done. I'll be coming back to reiterate this.

To whoever needs to hear it: it does not have to be perfect. It does not have to be world altering. It just needs to be done. And I'll sit with you while you do The Thing.

Now go. Stop scrolling. Go work on The Thing. I'll be back to check on you and cheer us both on.

~✧°+* 7/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

05.08.2023

Another not so great day. Sometimes bad days, unproductive days, days that make you feel sad and lonely, just pile up. Sometimes you have four, five, twelve of them right back to back, and sometimes you have none for months. But regardless of how frequent they are, eventually they'll pass and you'll go back to calm days, to productive days, to happy days.

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

called my parents

did the laundry

tried baking cookies (and failed horribly)

played minecraft with a friend

Hours slept: ~7hrs Screentime: 6hrs Steps taken: ~900

~✧°+* 32/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

04.09.2023

I went to the doctor's today to get some new meds because the ones I've been taking weren't doing the job. So now I'm on antibiotics and I really hope that'll finally do the trick.

Because I'm still not feeling too great I took it slow again today. I got some more paperwork done in the morning and made a to-do list of what I have to get done within the next week or so. Sometimes I feel bad if all I do in a day is planning, but I always try to remember that planning your tasks takes a huge mental load off of you. Taking a whole day to plan things out is still productive.

The second half of my day has been taken up by great media again. I played some more Lakeburg Legacies and I'm loving it (even though I think I'm failing at it pretty hard). I also managed to get some pages of Swimming in the Dark in. I'm nearly done, only got like 25 pages left. I wanted that book to be my summer read but I had such a dip in energy in late August I just didn't get around to it. But I guess finishing it in early Seprember might still count as a summer read. I wraped the day up by watching New Moon. Probably my least favourite movie from the Twilight-saga, but what can I say? It's the season for Twilight. Also the soundtracks of these movies are so good it's criminal.

Despite having been sick the past couple of days it still feels like I'm managing to be myself more again. I'm very relieved about that. It's weird to explain, but I'm way more interested in doing things I love again, especially writing. Maybe I'll try to do some of that tomorrow. This might also be the perfect opportunity to give my diary some love again. I started it at the beginning of the year but only used it a couple of times...

Positive things I did today:

got paper work done

went to the doctor's office and got new meds

planned tasks

did things I love

Hours slept:  ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~600

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“I pray you do not fall in love with me, for I am falser than vows made in wine.”

-William Shakespeare, as you like it