~✧°+* 32/100 Days Of Doing Better*+°✧~

~✧°+* 18/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

17.08.2023

I am still lost in the sauce but the sauce is more like a clear broth now, so I think we are getting somewhere.

I had to escape to the city library today in order not to melt. I wouldn't want an AC in my home, but thank god public buildings have them.

Pogress is being made with my essay. Slow, slow progress, but once I get out of the mental haze that is the planning phase I think I'll manage to wrap this one up quite smoothly. It#s only supposed to be 8-10 pages, probably around 2.5k words, anyways.

Also, damn, I really gotta start putting more effort into taking pictures for these posts again. Sorry about that.

Positive Things I did today:

worked on my Hamilton essay

went grocery shopping

cooked dinner for my me and my friend

continued reading Swimming in the Dark

Hours slept: ~7hrs Screentime: ~5hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~4.100

“What horrifies me most is the idea of being useless : well educated, brilliantly promising, and fading out into an indifferent middle age.”

-Sylvia Plath, the unabridged journals

~✧°+* 31/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

03.09.2023

Some people are Gilmore Girls people as soon as autumn hits and some people are Twilight people. I am 100% a Twilight person, absolutely unapologetically.

Positve things I did today:

did some admin work

played some video games

looked for apartments

Hours slept:  ~8hrs 45mins Screentime: ~5hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~500

obsessed with mass market paperbacks. their pleasing rectangular proportions. how they fit badly in a hoodie pocket so you can drag them around everywhere with you like a temporary little buddy. the way they fit in your hand because they're MADE for human hands and not as bookshelf decoration. the way the pages feel when you riffle them gently with your thumb. How pristine and crisp they look when you get them and how creased and folded they look when you're done, even if you try to be nice to them. how that wear is okay, how that's correct actually, because they're made with the philosophy that books aren't meant to be PRETTY, they're meant to be read. that little ripple new ones get on the left side from where you hold them when you're reading, the way the ripple only goes as far as you've read, because u change stories by reading as they are changing you. how you can find thousands of these creased and folded and loved little dudes in every thrift store and used book shop and neighborhood library and you can instantly see the ones that someone carried around in a backpack for weeks or read to pieces or gave up on halfway through because they wear being read like fresh snow wears footprints. I love these poorly made, subpar little rectangles so much. truly the people's books.

~✧°+* 13/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

12.08.2023

Super late update because things have been a bit hectic :/

Had a good day but pretty much only did chores again. It is what it is. This is all about balance after all. Sadly let the Duolingo streak die after 20 days, tho >:(

Positive things I did today:

went for a walk

got errands done

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

cooked and meal-prepped

played some minecraft with a friend

Hours slept: ~9hrs

Screentime: 3hrs 30mins

Steps taken: ~5.800

~✧°+* 40/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

12.09.2023

While my sister started school again yesterday, my brother only started again today. Obviously, I am just as proud of him as I am of my sister! He also graduated earlier this summer but will continue to go to school for 3 more years in order to get his Abitur (secondary school diploma which enables you to go to university in Germany). He's actually going to my old school now, which I am probably more excited about than he is!

Because it was the first day I drove him to school and because it was only 3 hours long I killed some time in the city before picking him up again. I got breakfast and then did some shopping. I also managed to finally finish Swimming in the Dark! I really loved the novel. It's close to a 5 star read for me (and might have been a definite 5 star if it hadn't taken me this long to finish it). I'll definitely keep an eye on Tomasz Jedrowski for any future releases. His way with words, his prose, was one of the best things about the story in my opinion. Maybe I'll also get a German edition of the book to check out the translation.

Positive things I did today:

went out for breakfast

did some shopping

finished Swimming in the Dark

went grocery shopping

prepared lunch for the next day

Hours slept: ~ 6hrs 30mins Screentime: ~6hr 30mins Steps taken: ~7.800

when i say "romanticise the ordinary" i don't mean "hide all aspects of your life that do not fit under some kind of aesthetic" but rather "strive to find beauty in all the little things because i promise you, happiness can be found everywhere"

I love how Dead poets society perfectly presented how kids who don't receive enough validation that they crave from their parents often seek validation on teachers who act like parental figures to them instead. You know that thing where people would say that kids with mother issues often cling to female teachers while those with father issues on the other half often cling to male teachers? ─⁠─ Neil's father issues explains why he was so drawn to Mr. Keating. He's fond of him very much because Mr. Keating treated him with warmth unlike his father who treated him with such sternness and coldness. Mr. Keating acted like the father figure that he needed.

(he's so me)

learning from the reblogs of that post that there's a lot of people out there under the impression that "kill your darlings" means "kill your characters" and that's the funniest possible interpretation of that phrase

"fck you my child is completely fine!" M'am your child is reading gossip about dead authors from the 19th century at 3am