Spot On, Indeed.

This isn’t an image thing - I’m fine with being squishy looking. But I’m feeling the negative effects of my squishiness. I just don’t feel good or comfortable of cozy. I feel sluggish and lazy and helpless. I want to change because

I have two small children and I don’t have the energy to give them all I can and it breaks my heart

I want to feel comfortable in my clothes

I want to live long enough to have a relationship with my adult children and grandchildren (if my kids choose to, or are able to, have them)

I am flying to Spain next year. I hate flying. I want to at least feel comfortable on such a long flight and not claustrophobic

I want to sleep better

I’m tired of my heels cracking under the pressure of my weight

I want to be able to fill my day with fun activity without feeling dead at the end of it.

I want to, hopefully, rid of my acid reflux

I want to feel good and healthy and active for as long and as late as I can in life

Time is going to pass anyway - I want to make the most of it

I am an adult woman with a full time job in a career that I built for myself over a decade of working my way up, two children, and a mortgage and it still really bothers me when my mother doesn’t take me seriously. Because she doesn’t. Ever.

I decided to stop posting calories alongside my meals. Again, this stuff is mostly for my own reference to make things easier for myself. Almost like creating a menu for myself to look back on. Anyway, if I post it, it’s somewhere in the range of 350-500. This was lunch- potatoes, peas, and chicken sausage. Yes, I’ve been eating potatoes every day. Because po-tay-toes.

Bbq sauce goes weirdly well with broccoli.

Bonus hobbit points - bell peppers and jalapeños came from my garden and I pickled the jalapeños myself

Todays activity took me to the garden. I sowed some more seeds for the fall - radish, lettuce, and carrots for the third time.

Apparently carrots don’t germinate in temps over 80 degrees. I didn’t find that out until after the second attempt.

I’ll probably do a last harvest of my tiny peppers and giant basil this weekend and then take them out and maybe plant something else for the fall.

Oh and I accidentally grew some pumpkins from the ones I chucked out back last year 🎃

A cozy little lunch, because healthy hobbits eat their veggies 🥗

For two weeks I’ve been eating more vegetables and fruits, cutting back on salt and alcohol, and eating less “overly processed” foods. Already I am sleeping better, having less anxiety and heart palpitations, and overall, I’m just feeling better. Huzzah!

"If by my life or death I can protect you, I will."

Watched Vivarium last night and I still feel uneasy. I’ve never been made so uncomfortable by a movie.

I went for a cozy walk today. It’s hot outside and I wanted to light a candle and walk in front of my tv so that’s what I did. I also downloaded this app that tracks your steps and you travel to fake Mordor, but I’m just using the free trial bc I haven’t decided if I want to buy the full version. With the trial you can only track one mile per day.

We tried to go for an outside walk after dinner but the halflings were being difficult and then we wound up getting in a conversation with our neighbors