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no one really needs me and that makes me really fucking sad 

Be carful who you call ugly in middle school

bro your whimsy. you forgot your fucking whimsy. your solemn and somber attitude is scaring the hoes

Time blindness is the weirdest aspect of executive dysfunction and so weird as an experience to live with. It’s like you see the clock, the clock says 3pm, you look at the clock again and it’s 3:02, then 3:05, and then you look again and it’s 8pm and WHAT THE FUCK.

You don’t even need hyperfocus. But hyperfocus is like the Warp Speed:tm: version cause when that hits, it’s 3pm and then it’s the next day and why is the sun rising and when did i last eat and oh god i need to use the bathroom. And oh, also, you’re EXHAUSTED. The act of your brain tunnel visioning on something drains you (but that’s another topic).

Time blindness is…. having the general knowledge that today is Wednesday, and you need to do something on Thursday. Thursday is logically tomorrow, but the mysterious void of time is like ‘that’s like next week or something.’  It’s knowing you have to do something in three weeks on the 21st. And as the days creep closer, the 21st is stuck in a constant state of still being 3 weeks away, despite the fact it’s now tomorrow.

It’s wild. ADHD is literally living in a constant state of “There is Now. And there is Later.” and there’s no in between; no dates, no times; no hours, weeks, or months. It’s just Now and Later, and oh god why is is X o’clock already!?

I hate asking for things

For some reason I have a general fear of asking for things. Money, a pencil, a question, etc. And when I do ask, I normally get what I want.

I’m just so scared of getting yelled at or rejected that I go around things and make everything harder.

Part of it was the environment I was raised in. Another part is just my anxiety kicking in.

I can’t ask my parents to borrow a few dollars to get lunch in the fear that they’ll say no or something. And I know they won’t, but I just don’t want to take the risk.

Weird.

My problem with studying

Before I start here’s some background on me:

I love procrastinating

I have horrible anxiety

I am depressed

Now that’s out of the way here’s the problem, so I already don’t wanna do my work. After school my brain is fried from everything being crammed into my brain.

My anxiety is telling me “You have to study! If you don’t you’ll fail and everyone will hate you!”

But my depression is telling me “It doesn’t matter if you study, you’ll fail anyone and everyone already hates you.”

So I’m stuck in an endless cycle of battling myself until I break down crying and forcing myself to put what little energy I have left into homework/studying.

Best part is, I’m procrastinating right now.

@memespalace​

Please. Please please please read this and reblog!

If you support LGBTQ Rights you need to stop scrolling and read this. This is not a fucking joke.

If you cant read this, here it is: 

If you don’t remember Sophie M Herold, she is a German girl, who is extremely homophobic and transphobic. She has found out LGBTQ persons names, addresses, personal info etc. And set up her own database. Her intentions with this are harmful.

She is sending out this information, your information, your best friends information, someone you love and care about. She’s sending it to hate groups, malicious people, people with bad intentions. And if you think I’m blowing this out of proportion, people have been kicked out of homes, disowned by families and even MURDERED. Yes, murdered. Innocent people who have done nothing but love. She has had numerous blogs and each have been removed. Tumblr staff are aware of her, and as far as I’m aware she currently doesn’t have a blog, but this does not mean she isn’t still on peoples tumblrs, asking via anon where you live, what your name is. An email I received today. She’s sending out information of same sex couples with children so the children can be kidnapped. She entitled it “Time to strike back”. If that doesn’t suggest harmful intentions I don’t know what does. Please be extremely careful what you post on tumblr, on twitter, facebook, anywhere. Do NOT give out your full name or your address, or even the town in which you live. Look out for one another, and don’t answer any suspicious anons. Especially if they use your name in quotation marks. Sophie M Herold is still out there, she always will be, so please spead this message and warn people. She’s attacking in silence. We don’t need more people dying because of her actions.========This disgusting excuse of a human being of needs to stop, but the only way it can be stopped is if you spread this! Please, be aware of any suspicious people or anons asking for personal information. It can get you or your loved ones in SERIOUS DANGER. Thank you.

This is disturbingly accurate.