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Til death do we part, hm?

lil gods own country Andrew and Neil

They abandoned you and I collected you like a treasure

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Happy (belated) Valentines Day 🌹

Had to draw more Andreil, they still have me in a chokehold 😪

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belated father's day post!

a polaroid memory of james with harry, aka his "little snitch", taken by lily ♥️

A drawing I did for @allegorius’s au where Andrew has to take care of Aaron’s kid after Katelyn passes and Aaron starts struggling with addiction again…

(There’s no fic or anything we were just shooting the shit in discord and now I’m obsessed with this concept)

((Yes he’s singing the mcr song foundations of decay… what about it))

They deserve a good nap 😴

Teaser? Teaser!

I mentioned this earlier this week and here it is! A teaser for the AFTG AU fic I've been working on :3 Since writing this, I've made some changes to my plans for this fic, so there's already plenty of edits to be made but if anyone has any feedback for my writing style then feel free to say :P

CW/TW: implied/referenced rape and assault (lmk if there's any other warnings to add)

Neil's broken into a sweat by the time he makes it to Wymack's apartment building and up three flights of stairs to his front door. Practise had been gruelling with Kevin having a temper tantrum over Andrew's disappearing act. Combined with his run from the stadium Neil's toned legs are left aching from Kevin's backlash. After his therapy session, Andrew had refused to return to practise and instead chose to crash at Coach's and was likely pilfering from his alcohol collection.

He knocks, and when he receives no answer, calls out to Andrew. He'd be almost certain that Andrew is passed out somewhere in the apartment if it weren't for the muffled murmuring and rustling from inside.

He knocks again, harder and faster. Concern begins to creep in. Andrew is an asshole, sure, but with everything going on lately, including the awful offer of dinner from Nicky's parents on the twins' birthday, Andrew would open the door on principle just to tell him to fuck off. He's about to knock again when a voice that's definitely not Andrew's yells for him to come in. And so, Neil cautiously tries the door handle and lets himself in, only to be confused by the scene that greets him.

At first glance, Andrew is nowhere to be seen and instead, Coach's couch is occupied by a hunched over broad-shouldered short-haired man in a wife-beater. The stranger looks up at his entrance with a smile splitting his clean-shaven face. A flailing leg brings his attention downwards and it's then that he sees the restricted hands and a familiar flash of blond hair amongst the mess of couch cushions.

"What the…?" Neil doesn't have the chance to finish before he's being slammed back against the door. Hands wrap around his throat and squeeze hard. Despite Neil's flailing, the enemy is strong and his resistance is futile as black spots invade his vision. He's dropped before he passes out and is barely able to catch his breath before he's grabbed and dragged to the other couch. He's shoved face down and straddled by the man who grabs a handful of his hair and forces his head up so he can see Andrew laying similarly across from him. Andrew's eyes fluttering open and closed with his withdrawal likely in full effect and a concussion on top, it's no wonder he's barely conscious.

End for now :3

“beige flags” “trauma dump” “the ick” let me ask you this have you ever gone outside and marvelled at the beauty of the spider’s web

I am no mother.

I am no bride.

I am king.

obsessed with the idea that even when andrew and neil fight it’s glaringly obvious that they love each other very much

so for example after an argument neil leaves and slams the door behind him without a word but then he opens it back up again, says that he’ll be back and then slams it even louder. andrew pretends he doesn’t give a fuck but he silently appreciates it bc it means that neil hasn’t left left

or like andrew throwing neil out but not telling him to give back keys, bc a key is a home and he doesn’t want to take that away from neil. arguing but never throwing the word misunderstanding around. smashing dishes but not those favourite cups that were a gift from the foxes. pushing and probing and provoking but never breaking

I just think that both neil and andrew know each others’ softest spots and they could very easily destroy each other. but they don’t and they won’t bc they trust and respect each other way too much for that and I think that’s very beautiful

You know what makes me sit in silence everytime i think about it?

The fact that Andrew was attracted to every version of Neil.

He thought he was hot when he still had his brown eyes/brown hair

He thought he was hot when he had blue eyes/brown hair

He thought he was hot when he had blue eyes/auburn hair and the number 4 tattooed under his eye. ”you are a pipe dream“ , he said, looking at Neils bruised and most honest self.

Then Baltimore. Neil got tortured. Got bruised all over his skin, scars that’ll never be forgotten and what does Andrew do? He asks yes or no and kisses his hip.

It sure af wasn’t love at first sight but the fact that his initial attraction never faded gives you a hint about what Neil is for Andrew.

(Not to mention how the versions of Neil changed the more Andrew learned about Neil as well. First he was Neil. Then he was Abram. Then he was Nathaniel. Until he finally became Neil Abram Josten.

All the lies. All the truths. It all came together and Andrew was there during all of it).

and if I start talking about Neil falling for Andrew the more he learned about him and the role he took over-

(Neil is there to protect the one who protects them all)

Follow up to this post, since I COULD NOT know peace until I got the “shy angry cat finally trusts you enough to come sleep on you” energy of this concept out of my system. Thanks @jtl-fics (😘)

And DOUBLE THANKS Ash for putting it in word form 🥹 you can read this sweet little exchange here! 💕

so i definitely vibe with the headcanon that andrew gets a medusa tattoo, but hear me out:

so in the actual myth, athena doesn’t curse medusa out of pity or to save her from the men that aim to assault her. she did it out of rage and vengeance after medusa’s rape basically defiled her temple. on top of that, when she is beheaded by perseus, athena then puts her head on her shield to protect herself against enemies.

with this in mind, i think andrew having a medusa tattoo, or relating to medusa in any way, is kind of ironic and takes on a different meaning when you think about it.

he dealt with unwanted attention and sexual abuse his whole childhood. he was raped in cass’s home, a place where he put up with so many advances and assaults, and so much pain and confusion. he loved and respected her, and wanted to protect his brother.

in the end, he was punished for being assaulted by so many people in his life. It’s insinuated that cass knew what was going on, and she let it happen. his uncle blamed him, and his brother resented him in his ignorance.

then he was labeled as a monster, and used for his protection by so many people in his life.

i just think it’s a interesting comparison to make.

wip in between comms to support the jock Neil and greaser goth Andrew agenda

He pretends he doesnt like drunk neil. Its a lie

so i definitely vibe with the headcanon that andrew gets a medusa tattoo, but hear me out:

so in the actual myth, athena doesn’t curse medusa out of pity or to save her from the men that aim to assault her. she did it out of rage and vengeance after medusa’s rape basically defiled her temple. on top of that, when she is beheaded by perseus, athena then puts her head on her shield to protect herself against enemies.

with this in mind, i think andrew having a medusa tattoo, or relating to medusa in any way, is kind of ironic and takes on a different meaning when you think about it.

he dealt with unwanted attention and sexual abuse his whole childhood. he was raped in cass’s home, a place where he put up with so many advances and assaults, and so much pain and confusion. he loved and respected her, and wanted to protect his brother.

in the end, he was punished for being assaulted by so many people in his life. It’s insinuated that cass knew what was going on, and she let it happen. his uncle blamed him, and his brother resented him in his ignorance.

then he was labeled as a monster, and used for his protection by so many people in his life.

i just think it’s a interesting comparison to make.

MARVEL 

link // https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHUrAvKNF8s (collab w/ djcprod)

fuck this *unfocuses my eyes*

Tattoos and whatnot

 OkAY so Will’s tattoo in Tower of Nero got me thinking about the 7 getting tattoos aaand then I digressed SO...

-The Greeks absolutely start getting bad ass tattoos after seeing the ones that Camp Jupiter have

-Will, Rachel, and the Stolls run an underground tattoo parlor and campers sneak down to her cave and come out looking like the baddest of asses with their tattoos 

- Annabeth gets a little Delta tattoo on her wrist in honor of Daedalus

-She also gets one on her side under the arm to honor Luke with the year he was born and the year he died

-Piper gets lyrics of the Cherokee songs her grandpa knew she would one day sing across her back

-Also she gets a lip ring, like the ones that go through the middle of your bottom lip uGh yes

-LEO leo Leo LEO he gets the coolest tattoos man, he gets one of the Morse Code patter he and his mom tapped to each other on his collar bone  

-Also he gets the words FLAME on one foot and the word ON on the other no I will not elaborate

-SO many piercings all self given cuz he get BoArd this boy has piercings in his belly button and his nipples and his nose and his ears and his eye brow and like just in his shoulder cuz fuck it but he never wears any of them

-Until people ask him to put all of them in and he is literally 10 pounds heavier

-He has a tongue ring and he always wears that one its so good man

-Ok hear me out Frank gets sO many tattoos like all the way up his arm and chest-- think Maui from Moana

-He gets one to represent his mom, and one for each of his friends, and like all of the animals in the WOrLd and also the Canadian flag cuz he can

-Now Hazel doesn’t get any tattoos but don’t for a minutes think that she doesn't help design all of them

-OK so Nico has actual bad ass piercings, like he has the coolest gauges cuz he’s our emo boy and three above his eye brow and all three nose piercings that he cycles through

-I don’t know if Nico has tattoos but what I DO know is that he is fabulous at makeup, in the mornings sometimes Will asks him to do his make up and he does the most fabulous blended eye shadow and wings and inTenSe glitter on the cheekbones cuz he lives vicariously through Will

-Now Jason might not have started wanting any tattoos cuz he’s Jason but, again hear me out, he goes to support Leo getting a tattoo but leaves with a big ass lighting McQueen tattoo on his pectoral all the way up to his shoulder with the words Kachow right above his neckline 

-He loves showing it off and at any given moment it is his pride and joy, people ask about the Kachow above his shirt and he IMMEDIATELY takes have his shirt to show off his lightning McQueen

-And then he escalates to the point that Piper dies blue lighting bolt streaks in his hair and that’s the end of that 

-PERCY gets tattoos every time someone is scared about getting one, so he has the most random and at the same time meaningful tattoos

-He has one about the Dam bathroom and one on the small of back where is Achilles heal was that somehow involves Annabeth and so many disney tattoos, oH and one that says you drool when you sleep

-ALSO he has a ton of ear piercings cuz when he was growing up he thorught the way his mom had so many ear piercings was so cool and wanted to grow up and get them just like her

-They have SEVERAL matching earrings that he always wears with piercings all the way up his ear

-This boy is a jewelry boy, he and Annabeth have cheesy matching friendship bracelets that say Seaweed Brain and Wise Girl and Tyson makes him the coolest earrings, bracelets, and rings in the forges

-AND and and he wears nail polish all the time, he and Annabeth paint their nails together and he has the coolest blue colors to do it 

-Not to make you cry or anything but when he loses his memory he refuses to take off his earrings or let his nails get at all chipped cuz he knows they’re important to him and he’s afraid if he chips his nail polish off he’ll forget Annabeth completely

Lmao this was long as shit but all of this plagues my mind at ALL TIMES and it gives me much serotonin 

ah yes, top hat Death Boy and his glow-in-the-dark boyfriend

ruth bader ginsburg lived 87 fucking long years, helped secure abortion rights, marriage equality, and immigration rights among loads of other things.

remember her legacy as both a supreme court justice, as an advocate and icon in equality movements, and as the woman who wouldn’t take no shit from donald trump, sticking through multiple battles with cancer to preserve our rights.

rest in peace. honor her legacy.

wip of the men who invented love

Welcome to the cozy dream kitchen in a little cottage somewhere in the mountains very far away from people 😌

I know my therapist says healing from trauma means finding little ways to feel in control but I think if I were baby Tarzan sleeping in the arms of my big gorilla mom in that tree nest while Phil Collins sings us to sleep I’d finally feel safe

happy pride month! being queer does not absolve you of your white privilege and now is not the time to be centering yourself! ACAB!