They're Both Alive I Have Proof Right Here

blind Ash from volume 14

ash lynx my boy👏

i’ve wanted to do smth like this for a while and finally got around to it

actually take this before i sleep because it makes me SICK in the best way

I don’t believe Ash is bitter about kids who have good parents, I believe Ash views the world realistically and knows that the perfect parent doesn’t exist

Eiji

adult asheiji just chilling <3

'I feel like the Banana Fish ending was fitting. Ash is inherently a tragic character that was finally able to be released and find the peace he wanted that he couldn't in life- there was no more story for him-' okay but have you considered shutting the fuck up and that him being alive, moving with Eiji to japan, and finally being able to heal would be the better ending? The fitting ending? Because while yes, he is inherently a tragic character, the ending helps push the stigma SA victims cannot or shouldn't heal- whether that was intentional or not. There was so much build up and metaphorical ways of saying that 'yes, he is free from his trauma now, he can heal' Only for him to just die? To not heal? Only to inflict a trauma Eiji can likely never heal from? I get that the show's a tragedy and supposed to be realistic- but think about what you say. There's a lot of people *in* real life in similar situations, who have the chance to heal but don't know if they should. Just because a person, or a situation, is tragic, doesn't mean healing isn't possible

I am saved by the fact that you exist

BANANA FISH (2018) #22 As I Lay Dying

Eiji after Ash's death being told over and over by everyone that Ash died to protect him, but Eiji hoping to god that it isn't true, hoping that Ash finally finally understood that Eiji did love him, that Ash's death would hurt Eiji, and hoping that Ash decided, for once, to be selfish. That he knew it would hurt Eiji, but still decided to die because it was what he wanted. Eiji hoping -- praying -- that Ash didn't die for Eiji, but died for himself.

Eiji telling himself (because he has to believe it, for his own sake) that maybe, just maybe, Ash's last act was his most selfish.

Because God knows Ash deserved to be selfish for once.