:/ Both Splitting On People And Stockholm Syndrome Are So Fucking Stupid. I Want To Rip My Ribs Off One

i hope you see this. you mean so much to me, thank you for not giving up on me. <3

the things I hate most in this world are myself and the fact that I’m still alive.

my self discovery journey is off to like the most insane start?? the universe has really decided that now is the time i finally get my shit together and be the person i only wished i could be. the coincidences are starting to feel more like fate. i want to talk to the Gods quickly on the subject and make sure that i am on my highest path,, but i think i’m really doing it guys. i just read the most empowering book about the universe and power of belief. i have the will, i just have to start to believe.

like the random compliments i’ve been giving are coming easier, enjoying my days and finding the good is still tough but i’m getting there, the last step is realizing that i am not what my father thinks i am- which will hopefully come faster than i could ever expect.

how do you cope with being everything you’ve ever feared?

if what’s happening is what i think is happening i will literally just lose my MIND.

the stress hallucinations are back along with the most violent escapism known to man and me and my dad got into it the other day. you never really get past age 14 huh?

michael and lucifer. the militant and the fallen.

currently trying again tonight to open my frozen over heart, wish me luck

TW: brief mention of SA and physical assault