Tfw When You Were Raised So Neurotypical The Only Times U Let Yourself Actually Feel To A Full Extent

PLEASE USE IT IN A FIC JUST GIVE ME THE LINK PLEASE I WANT TO READ THIS

ok so I just watched across the spider verse (ik I’m late) but I had a fanfic idea pop into my head after it finished. Yk that scene where miles-1610 says ‘you don’t have to be the prowler’ and aaron-42 says ‘I’m not’ and we cut to a shot of miles-42? It sprung up from that. In dc (yes this is turning into a slight crossover) there’s a gang called the red hoods and I remember laughing at one point because Jason Todd as a child said he’d never be a red hood (in rhato- pre rebirth I think) so like imagine a scene where a Jason Todd from another world (in the place of miles-1610) is talking to a Willis Todd and saying like ‘you don’t have to be a red hood’ and we have a shot of the red hood/jason todd like does someone see my vision?

Short version: So like… gender? What?

Long version: I am relatively sure I’m genderfluid, I identify with experiences of womanhood and having grown up as a girl so like sometimes I’ll say ‘the struggles we face in society’ but if someone asked me if I was a woman my response would be anywhere between no and crying depending on how masculine a day I was having and like? Am I shrodingers woman?

so like… tamlin

no, this isn’t me talking about how he was done so mfing dirty and i would defend him, BUT

He plays FIDDLE

not violin

like there’s a difference between a posh traditional ballroom music (no hate to violinists) and the inherent community that comes with folk music (the fiddle is a folk instrument) and like it’s not a big thing

but

tamlin was the son of a high lord he hated

he’d do the more ‘common’ instrument out of spite, out of defiance, out of something to separate himself from them and pull himself closer to the common people who he likely preferred being around

because folk music is something to dance to! It encourages community, it would be done at taverns and town squares, in festivals for people who wouldn’t hear ballroom music, much less attend fancy balls or soirées for violin music

and there’s something there

something something being taught a more common style of music by maybe a more common person (because folk is an incredibly oral and aural tradition, more passed down than written down) in defiance to a high lord and high society who gave him an instrument that they want used for ‘proper’ and fancy music

Aaa thank you so much I want to make you a bracelet! (I had a hyperfixation on that last month like you get a fidget and a bracelet and if u want a pride flag) what’s you opinions on bands like lovejoy or idkhow? Also cheap perfume is a favourite of mine (it’s okay to punch nazis is an utter bop)

Hello I have a desire to talk to a normal person for a bit because literally most of my friends and myself go to a private school and it’s like fuck you mean lunch is lamb falafel or roast gamon? What? And like the more I look at my life I go what the fuck guys? (Also most of their only knowledge of the current situation comes through heavily conservative parents and I would not trust them not to vote tory) so like ??? What do I do ?? Because they do the subjects I want to do for a level there for sixth form but I could also go be among normal people at the college in town at the cost of English lit a level and a mean asf chem a level teacher and I’m getting very off topic so hello can we interact please lol?

Mate

Lets go get some bloody chips, then we can go graffiti shit and fuckin' put arson to the govern's. Then you can tag with me and my mates

(IM SORRY YOU GET FUCKIN LAMB??? -mod)

Also if i said Hobie is Percy?'I'm not a hero because calling yourself a hero makes you self-mythologizing',blue aesthetic,punk,the cool oldest experienced member of the mcs,gender swag,his whole attitude?????

YES! Ok you’re an objectively cool person, like this comparison isn’t one I see often but I love it and after watching atsv with the characters still running around my brain, I thought of this! Man did not give up godhood to have no one know he’s anti-establishment (and punk) and all the points I could make here!

being gender fluid is very fun today, like yes I’m in a cropt halter top and tight trousers, yes I’m wearing makeup, yes I’m feeling he/they, like I get it all rn

🫵🏼MILES G IS JASON TODD-CODED TRUTHER!!!!Tysm for saying it,you're objectively correct🩷

YES THANK YOU HE IS! Like I do not think I’m the first to say it but it needed to be said bc I love making parallels and linking my favourite medias together! Another opinion- Hobie is much more similar to Ekko than Miles is, but powder from the other dimension was kinda similar to Gwen which I think is where it comes from. Like her universes Ekko could well be like miles but our Ekko? Much more like Hobie

not too caught up on rtc lore, was monique gibeau his closeted self, his self insert, or him in drag?

’why don’t you just talk to an adult-’ my parents still call me their daughter and this is after coming out/telling them my preferred pronouns are not she/her and telling them how shitty dysphoria me feel, my ex-therapist told me i was lacking in empathy and asked me to ‘just shelve’ any looking into adhd and said after i came out how i was ‘considering lesbianism’. I’ll talk to my similarly queer friends who have checked with me what nicknames make me feel dysphoric, who when i asked about adhd told me ‘yeah you are’ (correct btw) and who i feel safe talking too. Hope this clarifies!

These are the opinions that make me go ‘and I would love to say ‘I will not elaborate but unfortunately I have adhd and am incapable of shutting the fuck up, so listen’ just because ash and yut lung had a similar situation does not make them similar! Yut lung is a type of antithesis for ash and the fact that he spent the whole time in the show fighting for an identity outside his brothers only to be reduced in fandom to a ‘worse ash’ is tragic in this essay I will-

"yut lung is just ash without an eiji" you are insufferable and wrong