That Moment When Everything Just Clicks In Your Writing Or In A Scene You’re Putting Together Or An

trying to keep up with writing while trying to keep up with promoting my writing while trying to keep up with work while trying to keep up with taking care of my mental health aka the reason why all these things are so hard in the first place is so hard!!!!!!

taking breaks isn’t an option for me unfortunately. my mentally ill brain needs a routine to keep the wheels turning. it sounds like self torture but trust i’ve been through worse, this is light work for me!!!!!!

(i don’t think i’m human anymore)

is it bad that one of my favorite characters i’ve written so far just so happens to be one of the most “villainous”?

i use quotations because she’s not necessarily a bad person, she’s just made a lot of awful choices that have led to awful circumstances for her and those around her.

she’s also someone who’s been through a lot. she has a good heart through and through, but i can definitely see some readers disliking her, which is fine!

it’s exactly what i want, actually. i want her to be a character people have mixed feelings about. i want her to be a character you either hate to love, love to hate, or somewhere in between.

funniest part is she was only supposed to be a side character aka the mother of one of my character’s😭

now she’s become my little phoenix rising from the ashes as the catalyst for the biggest scandal in my book series.

the main character before my current main character was the main character. she paved the way fr i cannot wait to write her prologue book one day!

taylor swift wrote “and they called off the circus burned the disco down when they sent home the horses and the rodeo clowns I’m still on that tightrope I'm still trying everything to get you laughing at me I'm still a believer but I don't know why I've never been a natural all I do is try try try I'm still on that trapeze I'm still trying everything to keep you looking at me” and just expected us to???? move on with our lives?????

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CHARACTERS ARE ALLOWED TO BE SHITTY. THEY ARE ALLOWED TO BE BAD PEOPLE. THEY ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE BAD OPINIONS AND EVENTUALLY REALISE THAT THEY'RE WRONG AND TRY TO CORRECT THEMSELVES. CHARACTERS OPINIONS ARE NOT A REFLECTION OF THE WRITERS OPINIONS. I BEG OF YA'LL. LEARN BASIC STORY TELLING TECHNIQUES. CHARACTERS ARE ALLOWED TO BE FLAWED WITHOUT BEING 100% A TERRIBLE PERSON. BECAUSE. THATS JUST HOW PEOPLE ARE IN REAL LIFE.

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do you torture the character you relate to most and recreate your own abuse in fiction to cope or were your needs and feelings acknowledged as a child

eras tour just ended haha no one talk to me hahahahaha

i’ve been rotting in bed with a fever for four days now which means it’s been four days since i’ve felt the cold, smooth touch of my keyboard and mouse💔

on one end, i’ve been meaning to let what i last wrote marinate for a bit, but on the other miserable end, i miss entering the makeshift portal i’ve created into my characters’ world (‘:

i have had plenty of time to conjure up a million potential storyline ideas that might not ever even come to fruition anyway, so there’s that!

me 🤝 my notes app

“She stands out in a way no rambunctious crowd or stuffy room could hold back.

She is the room.

She’s the diamond chandelier people awe at.”