I’ve Been Rotting In Bed With A Fever For Four Days Now Which Means It’s Been Four Days Since I’ve

not to be deep, but i can’t help but feel like i’ve somehow found my way back home when it comes to writing. i loved it when i was a kid, and i’ve fallen in love with it all over again as a young adult.

there are *so* many things that have happened in my life that make me look back and wonder if those things were meant to lead me right back here. to writing.

like for example, when i was a freshman in high school, this guy told me i looked like my name would be: Sabrina. he would literally call me by that name even though it wasn’t my name😭

fast forward years later to me naming my book characters, specifically my main character who is somewhat based on me, so i’m essentially naming myself in a weird way.

i was thinking and thinking and thinking, and then i remembered that guy from high school who’d call me Sabrina. and voila, i had her name. and it fits her so well too!

idk maybe i’m crazy haha but it really is things like that that make me wonder if maybe i am where i’m meant to be after all, no matter how much i feel otherwise sometimes.

shoutout to brandon from high school for my mc name!!!

just changed my already published book covers for a fourth time

Main characters meeting up be like:

if you’re a fan of romance dramas that contain relatable topics but with a much needed healthy balance of comedic relief, love, and friendship, please give my book a chance<3

it is a romance drama book series that follows the lives and love stories of eight childhood best friends. tropes and dynamics range from:

grumpy x sunshine, i hate everyone but you, four core female group, brother’s best friend, secret relationships, small town romance, found family, childhood best friends to lovers, it’ll always be/it’ll never be you, sapphic romance, slow burn romance, forbidden romance, one bed trope, and more!

this is my first time tackling a fictional universe and characters like this as a self-published indie author. it’s been the most fun, fictional adventurous learning experience ever<3

i’ve always loved romance and writing. i love creating characters. i love being able to give them a story, name, personality, etc. not to sound dramatic, but it’s truly the most magical experience.

i just finished the second novel which should be out before the end of this year🧡🧁🦋🌙

w o w

do you torture the character you relate to most and recreate your own abuse in fiction to cope or were your needs and feelings acknowledged as a child

in my tortured authors club era

I've seen a lot of posts about the stress of not knowing what comes next when you're writing, but what about the opposite? What about when everything goes exactly to plan, and you're finally forced to face it?

Not knowing what comes next is a few hours/days of brainstorming before figuring out something cool

Knowing is "I've been planning this for literal years, but now that I have to actually type 'he's dead' I feel like I'm choking on my own spine"

...and those are two very different kinds of stress

does anyone else struggle with making their characters imperfect? or making them have imperfect moments? i find myself scared to do that sometimes. i blame cancel culture😭

the ones that truly do have hearts of gold, anyway. there are a few of my characters that do deserve a couple lashings.

maybe i’m the problem? i tend to care too much what people think sometimes.

i feel like an old maiden in dating culture. girls, don’t settle <3 do what makes you happiest!

i’m either filled with inspiration as i type on my keyboard at lighting speed or i’m spongebob trying to write an essay and all he has is the word: The.

there is no in between unfortunately.