Oh. Oh No. Oh No Friends. Friends I Think I’m Aroace. This Is Scary.

Oh. Oh no. Oh no friends. Friends I think I’m aroace. This is scary.

It's honestly so difficult for me to admit that I even suspect I'm aroace, especially in my country. The Philippines is a highly religious and traditional country that celebrates romantic love nearly every-fucking-day. Hetero relationships are the norm. Everyone keeps fucking asking when I'll get a boyfriend or saying that "Oh you'll find someone you want to settle down with one day. Someone you'll marry. "

Even with my friends, loathe am I to admit, I feel the pressure to like other people that way but I... I really don't. Don't get me wrong. I find a LOT of people aesthetically pleasing and I've developed crushes on people, but it's only recently have I discovered what aesthetic attraction is and goddamn did that astound me. I like looking at people and marvelling at how they present themselves and certain aspects of themselves I find appealing, but I don't want to date them. Heavens no.

I do have a friend that I really love to touch though. I think they're attractive and they're soft and I find myself gravitating towards them whenever I look for comfort, but that's all it is. I really value them as a friend but I can't imagine dating them. I think I'll lose interest really quick.

Relationships sound draining. I'm still not sure if I'm aroace but I admit I'm more than a little scared to be. Not because I think they're fake, but what if I am? What if it's just all in my head? And what will my friends think if I come out to them? What if I'm really just being fussy?

Juleka patting rose on the head reblog if you agree

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peanut-and-butter

5 years ago

Happy trans day of visibility! I had no idea that was today but here I am! I actually changed my name yesterday! Call me Eli or Elijah

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peanut-and-butter

4 years ago

I swear to Christ I heard about this game in 6th grade and now I’m going into 9th grade and I’m back to thinking about this FUCKED UP, MESS of a game.

When you do an art collab with someone more talented than you:

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peanut-and-butter

3 years ago

rb this post to tuck in the mutual you rbed it from w a soft comfy plushie

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peanut-and-butter

3 years ago

Fuck off you gremlin

Boyfriends aren’t allowed to follow me get out you’ll see all my slut posts

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peanut-and-butter

3 years ago

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peanut-and-butter

4 years ago

My parents won’t give me the password to download apps so I’m just here going fml tbh

oh hey, stealth and closeted trans people! i keep forgetting to mention this and idk if everyone already knows but there’s this free app called transtracks (android + iOS) that acts as your standard transition tracking app (medical transition, social transition, surgical transition, whatever you’re tracking) except it has a stealth mode!

just change your passwords settings to “train tracks”…

… and voila! the app has become for train schedules.

this is what the new decoy password screen pulls up:

it isn’t exactly safe for me to be out IRL so i’ve been using this app for a while now! it’s mostly helpful for my peace of mind and in case somebody needs to use my phone because i’m out to my family- but anybody living at home who isnt out or who has nosey/transphobic parents- maybe give it a shot!

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peanut-and-butter

3 years ago

THEY SAID THE THIIIIIIIIIING

Note: This Isn’t An Insult/sassy Come Back To People To Asking Valid Questions/statements (well Maybe

Note: This isn’t an insult/sassy come back to people to asking valid questions/statements (well maybe a bit sassy lol), none of it’s meant to offend people that are calmly trying to educate themselves to lgbtq+. Questions are always welcome!

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peanut-and-butter

4 years ago

Lol I’m late but fuck it