Me, Very Much Aromantic: It Would Be Awesome To Be One Of The Hunters Of Artemis.

Many of my texts to my friends read a lot like Tumblr posts, but I can stop bothering them because I actually have a Tumblr now.

Just ate a strawberry and had the flavor still lingering in my mouth. As I walked out of the kitchen I was like, "Woah, that was strawberry flavored!"

I will point out the most obvious things like it’s a novelty.

"Wow, Dad, Uncle looks so much like you!"

"That’s because he's my brother."

"Yeah. And he LOOKS it."

Or

"Wow, *voice actor* really sounds like *character*!"

"He voices him."

"Yeah, and he sounds like him too! :)"

I realised the reason I love reading those romantic xReaders so much is because my fear of always being left behind runs deep enough that it bleeds into fiction. I assume everyone is going to leave me once they get a crush and/or fall in love, so especially when I'm reading xReaders, I have to be reading the romantic ones, because I know that as long as the characters like me romantically, they'll never leave me. I realised this when I read a completely platonic one, and I was uncomfortable. I was complaining to myself that I much preferred the romantic ones, which were much more fun and interesting. But when I got to the end, I thought about how if I had that friendship in real life, I would have felt so fulfilled! So I reread it, and it was so cute and fluffy and wholesome and I loved it! But I wondered what the character would do if he ever fell in love with someone else. And then it hit me.

I fear even a fictional character, in a fictional scenario that I can control just by thinking about it, leaving me for a romantic entanglement.

I am not okay.

Today I learned that all the little stories I wrote in high school got deleted because I didn’t save them to my other account, but it’s kind of fine because I don’t actually remember what any of them were. Still, I’m a little disappointed.

KAVETHAM IN VEGAS

That is all

I CANNOT FIND THAT ONE FANFICTION I THOUGHT I HAD SAVED DID IT GET DELETED BECAUSE I KNOW I SAW IT ON MY SAVED TITLES MULTIPLE TIMES WHERE DID IT GO

I haven’t had a good long cry in a while and it’s annoying me. I need a fictional thing to lose my heart to.

I don’t always like my older brother but uhhh shout out to my older brother for NOT getting mad when I’m not able to concentrate on his long rants. I will zone out all the time and I’ll suddenly cut him off with “Wait I’m sorry, I zoned out. Can you go back? The last thing I remember you saying was [thing]” and he’ll go back and explain what he said again. I’m sorry, Big Bro, that probably frustrates you, but thank you for putting up with me so far.

My friend: Your boot’s zipper is broken.

Me: Oh, it’s fine! That zipper’s just for decoration. The real zipper. . . *displays shoe* is also broken.

My city had its first pride celebration tonight! It wasn’t a lot, but it was something, and I didn’t think I would be able to go but my brother went with me and it was great. A pretty big step for a pretty conservative community. There was just a really nice atmosphere. I hope they do it again next year.