being mentally ill + suicidal at a young age (before 18) is. strange, because you grow up with this idea that one day you’ll finally snap, turn off, be brave enough to kill yourself, so you don’t really plan for the future. adulthood- further life, it isn’t for you, nor do you feel included within the future of it. it isn’t.. it isn’t part of your life plan.
and then before you know it you’re 18 and you’re an adult but you never thought you’d get this far and sure it’s great that you’re still alive you guess but also. you feel so alone + lost in a world you never expected or planned to be a part of.
Honestly in all of these stories these poetic white men who somehow end up immortal get so bored and miserable because they just sit in their mansion all day doing whatever it is they need to do in order to sustain their immortality and then they just throw lavish parties and organize orgies or whatever and then they’re like “why am I sad I eat three course meals and have at least one orgy daily what MORE could I POSSIBLY need??”
Like???? Damn go for a walk. Do you even KNOW your neighbors? Get a dog and take it to the park. Set up an elaborate fish tank. Go skiing like you’ve been alive for 200 years and you’ve spent 180 of it in your house looking at paintings and drinking wine with other rich assholes no wonder ur life sucks my man.
Buy a canoe.
Sketch pile commission for @snowontheradio of a whole bunch of glutton knights! The painted one is their character Augustine, and the dragon is Augustine’s totally-not-girlfrienemy Linnae. I took some artistic license with their armor, because I’ll take any excuse to draw some of that late medieval articulation. Oh baby, look at those joints.
The rest of the knights are just general fun with the concept!
Cthulhu Wars
A new series of illustrated plates from a recently released book, “Cthulhu Wars” by Osprey Publishing. I worked on these a couple years back but because the release of the book was severely delayed for some reason unknown to me I am only able to post them up here now. I’ve never been a big fan of Lovecraft’s work but I honestly had a lot of fun working on these and learned some things about the Cthulhu Mythos. I hope you guys like them.
Copyright of Osprey/Bloomsbury Publishing
Darren Tan
Russia by Igor Shpilenok
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RIHANNA for Paper Magazine photographed by Sebastian Faena