@markiplier How Flipping True Is This

you ever know what it's like to lose the person you love? that pain that you feel because you feel as though it's all your fault? I lost the man I love because I feel like I fucked up so bad. I feel like I did everything wrong. As much as he tells me it's not all my fault. I'm always gonna feel that way. He tells me that he's giving me another chance to show him I'm changing but he's out on a date with someone else. I'm so confused /: And the way he talks to me.... Talking to me like I'm a stranger when he's drunk. Why? He says he hates to see me hurt, but yet he's gonna talk to me that way.. What did I do to deserve this? Why me? Why us? We had everything. Yes, we had problems but what couple doesn't? Okay, so I haven't shown him my ambition. Alright, I get that. But if you really loved me like you say you do, you would've tried to push me harder then you did. I love him with my entire being. I believe he is the piece I've been missing all of these years and I don't wanna give that up. I've got hope that once I show him how serious I really am, he'll change his mind and want this back. It hurts so much. The sound of his voice soothes me and makes me think things are okay but then reality kicks in and all I wanna do is die... I wanna crawl under a rock and die. I can't deal with this pain and I'm afraid I'm gonna die of a broken heart because of this. I can't eat, I can't sleep. All I can do is toss and turn and panic. I don't wanna hurt anymore. I want us back. I want everything we had back. He is my best friend and my whole world. Since he left, my world has crashed down around me and I feel so alone. I'm glad he's still in my life, but I don't like not having him in my life as my boyfriend. I thought we had a future together? We talked about it all the time. All I can do now, is show him that I'm changing and hope for the best. He says he's moving on with his life because he doesn't believe that I'm changing. I can't wait to show him how serious I am. I don't wanna move on. He means everything to me. He will always be my number 1. And he'll always have my heart. And I'm glad to know that I will always have a huge part of his heart. All I can do is hope....

I don't

wanna lose my bestfriend. I feel like we're drifting apart and I don't like it at all. Please don't leave me alone like this. I want it all to go back to how it was before. When we talked on the phone at night and we talked for hours about nothing. What I would give for all of that back. I hate this feeling so much. I wish I could could have it all back.

After all we’ve been through, you made it look so easy to just walk away from me.

Fuck, this hurts. // R.R. (via missinyouiskillingme)

<3

I miss you

I just want this to be some awful nightmare and I'll wake up in your arms to your smiling face telling me that it was all just a bad dream and that everything is okay. I miss you so much, it hurts. It feels like we're drifting apart sometimes and it's slowly killing me. And what kills me worse is that someone else gets to hold my whole world. What I would give to make you mine again. You tell me to move on, but I guess you just don't understand the way I feel. I just can't get you off my mind no matter how angry you get with me and no matter what mean things you say. Please come back. I miss you dearly.

Sometimes,

I wish I could go back to being a kid. When I was a kid, life was so easy. No worries about money, not having my heart broken into a million pieces, the newest technologies or getting a licence. All I wanted to do was hang out with my friends, play outside, play video games, and crush on celebrities. I hate that I had to grow up just to work a shitty job for shitty pay to try and make ends meet, to deal with stress on a daily basis, to deal with my heart being broken so many times, and to lose the people who were very close to me. But, I keep my head up and work through them because I have a lot to live for and I’m not gonna waste myself away stressing out about stupid crap. My family, my close friends and my boyfriend are all that matter to me and they are the ones who keep me sane in this place I call hell.

I am so relieved that you are out of the hospital and the recovery is going well! Take all the time you need to heal up handsome, you deserve it <3 markiplier