Thursday, 8th July 2021

I was a gifted child. Until I wasn't. I was the golden girl. Until I couldn't burn anymore.

My parents expected me to build wings of gold and fly further than anyone could ever try. I don't blame them, having a child to raise is like sculpting a clay pot, you can shape it the way you like, paint it the colour you fancy. To raise a child is to play God. To raise a child is to be God.

But to be a child is to fall, to make mistakes, to fail. The thing about being too bright at an early age means you burn out by the time you're 16 and suddenly the world around you becomes more gray and terribly, terribly lonely. The fire is never warm enough, nothing is ever enough. And one day you find yourself begging to a godless sky, begging for a new spark.

I was a gifted child once. I was the golden girl. And one day, I burned out.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

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i want to be good. (i want you to fear me.) i want to do what's kind, and gentle, and right. (i want to rip it all to pieces with my teeth.) i want to make the world a better place. (i want to shove my suffering down the throat of the world and watch it choke.)

Fallen angels are only humans in disguise, reincarnated to follow a new purpose - heal others in order to heal yourself.

Black foggy mountains

bow beneath the legacy

of a golden sun

It was true love felt, never true love given

This is in no way a fairy transaction, I promise.

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My written Tarot Readings are written in the style of a letter, catered to you and your personal questions. I do three different tarot spreads and you can ask any question you want, whether it is related to relationships, work, family, home, or what the year is going to look like for you. I use my cards to help me interpret your dreams, so give me your dreams and I'll give you an understanding.

i wish i was the birth of a newborn or an infant's first word,

so i could make you beam like a child's proud mother.

i wish i was the first day of school, or a girl's 16th birthday,

or her high school graduation and the after party.

i wish i was your first kiss, or the first time you liked a girl and thought about marriage. 

i wish i was the first heartbreak or the love you'll die with,

i wish i was special, or something like it. 

- i wish i was special

the memory of a memory, Katie Maria