Having A Low Social Battery Is Something Else Like My Friend Asked If She Could Come Over To My House

How to explain jurdan to a neophyte:

AU where Regulus’ karma is having a son who happens to be the carbon copy of Sirius.

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"james ally potter this" and that and wtv let me tell u sum fr james is so internally homophobic it makes me sick hes gotta be the supportive friend yk, that's what he's known for, but deep down, it thinks its all wrong, when remus tells james's he's gay, james's acts like nothings wrong but everything is, he questions their friendship and whatnot, but he feels guilty, then, just when he tells himself hes going to talk to sirius about his feelings, wolfstar is dropped, now james has to be the supportive bestfriend, sirius had endured so much, he needs som1 he can rely on james doesnt know why he specefically hates wolftstar, he's been okay w same sex couples but wolfstar bothers him, he realizes years later he'd been crushing on them both at the same time, but bc of his internal struggles, he never realized it cue barty, bc im a sunkiller fan, james wants him so bad but it feels so wrong, so he suppresses his desires, then, one fine morning, barty reveals hes trans and james's thought process is "im in love w girl techniqually" and suddenly its not so wrong to kiss barty anymore, he'll try to be the man in their relationship but at the end of the day, barty's a boy and james has to learn to accept that, but he cant thankfully barty becomes a evil deather eater blah blah blah so james has an excuse to break up w him, but hes still painfully inlove, so he marries lily who deserves sm better than james (maybe she has a secret relationship with pandora but james doesnt need to know that...) and now, james has to be unhappy in his marriage, in love w blood supremist death eater and watch wolftstar have a happy life, thankfully peter has always looked out for james and ruins everything thank you for coming to my ted talk

i hate the fact that the idea of opening up to someone, of asking for help, makes me sick to the stomach.

i had an epiphany

somebody pls lock me out of tumblr i have two more essays due and haven’t even started the reading but i’m instead sat scrolling through tumblr like an ipad kid giggling at fics about dead gay guys

RIP James Potter you would’ve started barking when you saw the Timothee Chalamet Rolling Stone pictures

have you ever thought about how YOU were the problem? and then you start feeling really guilty and sad and oh my god why did i do that to them? then after a while you think back and you’re just like WAIT. i gave them chances. i told them about how i felt. they never changed. or was it me with standards to high? and then you’re just confused and lowkey frustrated

regulus "oh, please, don't drop me home, because it's not my home, it's their home and i'm welcome no more" arcturus black except he's talking about himself and what he means by "their" is pre-transition regulus who is the only version of him his parents will accept. he feels like a coward for not being able to stand up for himself, to not be able to leave it all like sirius did and he feels unwelcome in his own skin and he hates the way he looks in his house because "why did i have to transition?" and-