It was ep 104
You may think it was bc of the clown
I was expecting it to be a clown too
It wasn't
It was tim losing his dawn little brother
I woke up at 4 am bc i had a nightmare with my baby brother and had to check on him
Fucker was watching tv peacefully
Finally
I reached the The Magnus Archives ep that gave me nightmares
And its so not what i expected
I hate it here
I am laughing so much that i see half of those happening on others povs and just thought it was normal stuff they would do
Like yeah cleo totally would just play a "our base" card on someone for no reason what you mean it was her task??
All secret tasks for session 1:
Bdubs: Make your base deeply uncomftable to use and look at
BigB: Dig a big hole. All the way down. At least 3x3. Make it your base if you want.
Scott: Build your base directly and obnoxiously attached to someone else's
Etho: Collect 4 beds without being caught and place them on a shrine
Gem: Convince someone to take a leap of faith and make sure they take no damage
Grian: Make 3 bad jokes and get NO laughs
Scar: Call people anything but their username for at least 30 minutes of the session BUT changed to coming up eith a nickname for anouther player and getting two other players to use it
Impulse: Make cherrywood your entire identity
Martyn: Build an identical base to anouther player
Lizzie: Write a poem about anouther player and read it to then
Skizz: Don't be further than 20 blocks from GeminiTay for 10 minutes. One attempt only
Jimmy: Break 5 crafting tables while they're being used
Mumbo: Make a pun at every opportunity in a 5 minute conversation, minimum of 3 successful puns
Pearl: Get 3 players to gift you their heart
Joel: Plug the life merch in the worst possible times to other players at least 4 times
Tango: Get Scar to take about Star Wars for over 60 seconds
Cleo: Build your base directly above anouther players above the ground
Everyone was successful or well you know unless you count scars as a failure
Neil Josten moodboard
I need to talk about Mikaele Salesa
Fucking love this man
Just like, think it through: Salesa was everything and more that Leitner tried and failed to be. He have access to artefacts, he knows the supernatural, he can do what very little others can (he thrives through the fucking end of the world!) But he knows what he's doing, he knows how to keep himself and his people safe
Mikaele Salesa is a myth while leitner died a pathetic old man, with no library, no assistents and no books to save him.
Salesa could be a greedy bastard but no, he sells his shit to snotty rich people mostly, he takes care of the shipment himself for not to risk his crew
He knows when to stop, going as far as faking his own death to assure his retirement
He is so dawn sweet and nice when we met him in s5
And what make me love him even more: how he accepts his death. He doesn't fight it, he doesn't try, as many others, to be imortal and unstoppable . He accepts his own mortality and chooses his own end.
Mikaele Salesa is such a human character and i love him for it
happy anniversary to my personal hell
You said your favourite thing was Eli's abilities to ignore reality. Can you elaborate on what you mean? Some examples?
I think him in vegenful when he was at EON is a great example of how inside his own head Eli can be, he just seems to convince himself that he's right and nothing will ever stop him, like, yes keep talking to the "ghost" even after connecting that he was alive, do it! delusion at it finest.
I think this might be one of the most striking traits of his character and how he reasons things, a lot of people just hate him for how he called the cops on Victor and if you just try to follow his vision it makes sense! come with me for this one.
- I feel strange after becoming a EO, like something is missing, apathy and emptiness, loss of fear, so I try to "protect" the only person I consider a friend, this person kills my girlfriend and lies to me even after I saying it shouldn't be done like that, I call the police, he comes back and stabs me, and uses his power on me, confirming my "suspicions" that EOs are in fact inherently evil and wrong I no longer recognize my best friend as himself but rather a "devil" who is using his body. -
at the end of the day I think a lot of Eli is how he rationalizes and tries to fit together pieces of a narrative that doesn't go against him being exposed as wrong or as monstrous, or not holy, for various reasons, being a martyr? maybe his general relationship with religion and how he sees himself as a person? What he knows is that he can't be wrong, it can't be true, if he's wrong what would become of him? Then god hates him, and god doesn't hate him. if he can't die. There's a reason. It has to be one.
"Wouldn’t You?” He cut deeper, through to bone, over and over, until the floor was red. Until he’d given his life to God a hundred times, and a hundred times had it given back. Until the fear and the doubt had all been bled out of him. And then he set the knife aside with shaking hands. Eli dipped his fingertips in the slick of red, crossed himself, and got back to his feet. " Part Two; Chapter IV, Vicious.
Many people wonder, why does he kill other EOs if he himself is one, doesn't he consider himself unnatural too? when in fact it is more he has convinced himself that he is different and that this has a purpose! he clearly doesn't like being an EO and appears to admit that he would kill himself if he could, he literally tried too, but if he can't then this has to be something bigger than him right? he can't be a sinner, against God's nature, God obviously has a mission for him! Because God loves him.
Anyway, I just wanted to give a bigger picture of how I think Eli works as a character, I think too much about this guy, sorry for the delay in responding, and thanks for the question!
No hyperfixation of my was as unexpected as the magnus archives
Like ???
I am a fucking scared cat who can't see horror movies alone but suddenly i am listen to this creepy podcast every day on my lunch break ??
And i am fucking loving it
Oh i didn't think of that
Holy shit
ALL HE WANTED WAS NOT TO BECOME ANOTHER MYSTERY
THEY DIDNT EVEN FIND HIS BODY
FUCK
Joel bloodthirsty is already my favorite thing
this is really messy but i NEEDED to share my vision
Did anyone ever write a fic about like, Neil dies there but Kevin never tells the foxes who he was bc he knows it's too late
And now Kevin is the only person that ever got to know both Neil josten and Nathaniel wesninsk, he is the only one who knows how deep Neil's secrets vent and for the rest of his life he will carry it with him ?
I feel like we as a society don't acknowledge often enough that Neil was convinced and waiting on his death for months and no one around him knew until he told Kevin
Neil was 18 at the time
When he ended his protection pact with Andrew so Andrew wouldn't get caught in the crossfire iirc he was freshly 19
We joke about him ignoring the countdown texts but he knew exactly what they meant and he was so tired of running fighting and collateral he saw no other options
Like do you realize how horrifc that is
Divorce by combat? You mean the Limited Life SMP?
He/They - if something i post sounds funky its not bc of my shitty english, i just talk like that pfp:@drawingangie.bsky.social
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