Inktober 2018 Day 18

Inktober 2018 Day 17

“Swollen”

Poor babu wolf twisted its ankle. Dontcha hate when that happens??

Couldn’t be bothered to pull out the india ink for this and Bottle so I didn’t.

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Behold, comic page after years of posting nothing here! And Warframe fandom no less. This is a sort of after credits scene on a fic I'm working on called In These Days of Hope. If you need some context, give it a read and let me know what you think!

Massive thanks to @doggojin for inspiring me to use mediums other than words to explore my Drifter's time in 1999! I hope you don't mind me emulating your style a bit, when it comes to drawing people and simplifying things, I really struggle and your work helped me loosen up.

NOW THIS GUY I AM PROUD OF. He took forever because I was constantly referencing my anatomy books to get him to feel just right. And right does he feel. Finished him in summer 2016 and I love all the small details I was able to pack in that just add to the stretched feel of his skin. His head was kinda hard though to get the right shapes and shadows.

Titled: Toxic Tides

So I decided that I’m gonna do Inktober 2018 whether I like it or not, so here’s Day 1: Poisonous

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Inktober 2018 Day 22

“Expensive”

Cool plants are always dang expensive, so I drew and orchid. These guys are so cool and I would love to own one, but I always find conflicting information on how to water them so that they will actually live. Plus idk if they would like the temperatures of where I live.

Got a little to eager with my brush when the india ink wasn’t quite dry so it smudged DX.

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Finally some more art to post that wont get flagged by the nsfw censors XD ive been having a blast with some friends i met through 1999 and we have been enabling each other. One such thing was drawing my Drifter in biker attire. Im working on coloring it, but have the lines for now. I just feel like I haven't seen that many drifters in biker attire.

If you are a biker and you see some things wrong with his garb, no you didnt. Im not going for total accuracy here.

A thing I’ve been working on for the past day or so, completed 3-18-18. Had this in the lineart sketchbook for a long while now, but decided to just get it done and over with. Took about 10-15 hours to do, which was longer than Indigestion’s time to finish, which was around a few hours. That’s probably ‘cause I took way more time with the lineart on this one than the previous, so I’m gonna try to keep that stage on the down low and simple next time around. I want these things to just go faster so that I can get stuff out faster. This one allowed me to play more with shading, and I like what I did with the background, what with the increasing lightness as you go down. Was great fun to do, and am excited for the next project. The next one is likely to be a piece with more tight lineart and no shading, so look forward to it. 

Art titled The Overseer

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Gender and Sex: The Issues between Sex and Gender Identification in Transgendered Individuals

Written by: Ari Mortensen, a ftm individual

              In recent years, gender and sex have developed new definitions to accommodate the growing number of members in the LGBT community. Gender has been redefined as the mental identification of an individual based on their own preference and feelings towards their role in society. Sex is now defined as the biological characteristics of a person’s body that determines them as male, female, or something else along that scope based on what doctors observe upon birth. Now, while gender has come a long way from what it was once considered in recent years, the term sex still has a long way to go as many times, the distinction between female bodied and male bodied individuals acts to invalidate those individuals of the LBGT community that assign themselves as some other gender than their body, at one point, suggested. Society conceptualizes sex on a male to female spectrum, which in my mind is a disgusting and invalidating idea for transgendered people such as myself. As a female-to-male transgendered individual, my gender is male though it was once considered to be female not by myself, but by society and the doctors that aided in bringing me into this world. While my gender is all good and dandy, what with it being increasingly accepted by society as science sees the errors of historical gender roles, my sex is a different matter entirely. As I was born with a “female” body, my sex is still considered to be female while my gender is male. In a biologically scientific standpoint, this should pose no problems, as it makes it easier to give healthcare and aid to those with specific body parts that determine their bodies as male or female. On a psychological standpoint though, the same is not true, as the distinction between the sexes (male and female) invalidates everything that transgendered individuals are trying to work for in their lives. Because of society’s distinction that, despite ftm individual’s gender being male, their sex is female, the work we have put into appearing male is destroyed, reducing us to our uncontrollable biologic traits and presenting us to society as female-bodied-males. This concept and stigma of sexual characteristics needs to be eradicated on a scientific standpoint, again because of how it works to diminish the gender identity of an individual. Society needs to get rid of the concept of defining sex along a spectrum of male or female to describe specific biological traits, and instead transition to defining sex as just labelled biological parts that describe the body part itself and not establish that the body part is inherently male or female. The terms male or female are distinctions that should only be used when speaking about gender identity, as they are merely two of the many genders present in the world. Male and female are terms that should not be used to describe biological body parts as there is nothing inherently feminine or masculine about such body parts, and are merely what society is trying to impose on individuals whose gender identity is something different from male or female. When referring to the body parts for reproduction, nothing should be described as a male body part or a female body part, but should only be described as what the body part really is: penis, vagina, uterus, testes, breasts. These terms have no distinction of what is male or female, and merely describe the role of the body part in the reproductive process. Having a vagina should not make my sex female, nor should having a penis make my sex male. Sex should be described only as a reflection of our internal gender, so that that even if we have vaginas, those parts are considered to be male parts because they are on a male-identifying body. My sex should only be described by the actual body parts that I have and not an incorrect umbrella term, like male or female, to describe what is between my legs that has nothing to do with what I identify as. Those umbrella terms and categorizations essentially destroy the work we transgender individuals have put into making ourselves appear male or female. This is especially true in regards to the healthcare we receive, as a clinic that deals with vaginas or pregnancy should not be considered a women’s clinic, but should just be considered a uterus, breast, or vagina clinic. That way any ftm individuals like myself will not be singled out in such a clinic that defines itself as a Women’s health clinic, thus being able to be more comfortable with receiving healthcare that is aimed not to female health, but to vaginal or uterus health. I for one, would be glad for this to happen because it would allow my dysphoria towards my “female” biological traits to diminish as those body parts of mine would no longer be considered as female parts but merely just considered as a vagina, breasts, or uterus. These body parts are not innately feminine or masculine as they are just body parts that do not denote a more feminine alignment, as that is all a person’s own mental gender preference. It wouldn’t hurt nearly as much going to the Doctor’s office knowing that your body parts that may be having problems are not masculine or feminine and are just genitalia. In a way, for some ftm individuals (not me though), it would make it much easier for them to have biological children. They would know that their body parts that enable them to carry their child are not female body parts but are just the more attuned (not motherly) genitalia to carrying a child than the genitalia of their partner who may have a penis (which is not a male attribute). In this hypothetical situation, being described as motherly or fatherly is not based on whether the individuals in the relationship have specific genitalia that society considers to be male or female, but is instead based entirely on the individual’s gender identity and personal preference to be called motherly, fatherly, or something entirely different.

              In addition to the issues mentioned above, it also needs to be accepted that, even with developments of society in these directions, such developments don’t destroy a transgender individual’s desire to have been born with the body parts we want that are described as male or female. As an ftm individual, I wish I had been born with a more “masculine” body despite my belief that a penis or more muscular body does not denote masculinity or a male body. This is just an aspect of those who are gender non-conforming that must be accepted despite how contradictory it may seem. I want a more masculine body (muscles, facial hair, penis) because those traits are generally what are found on male bodies at present day. I feel as though my wish to have a more “masculine” body is simply based off what I see around me. Everyday, I see individuals that describe themselves as men or males with their more muscular bodies and facial hair that I want myself, who has an unfortunately softer body that people describe as female (oftentimes against my will). This is really the only way that I can describe this seemingly contradictory wish of mine and other ftm and mtf individuals. I hope that one day, society reaches a point where a ftm person considers their genitalia to be undoubtedly masculine as a vagina on a man should be. In society right now though, this level of self-confidence is almost unreachable, so much so that even I wish not to have been born with breasts or a vagina.

Contains spoilers for the game Undertale

Just a random post, but I've been doing a lot of exploration on Undertale and everything to do with it. Fan comics, Canon stuff everything other than actually playing unfortunately.....and....it just shocking how real it feels. I just feel the need to talk a little about this wonderful game with its beautifully developed characters. I've seen quite a bit of the angst having to do with some of the chars and the different ways to do a playthrough. My main thought on this game is the absolute horror that happens with a 'No Mercy' run, killing all of the main characters who show the player love and affection, and the effect this has on the rest of the characters in the game, especially in Sans' case, who is my favorite character. I believe that the pacifist run is the true ending to the game, but the other timelines, mainly the genocide timeline, and their effect they have on a select few characters just gets to me like nothing has before. The effect they have on Sans is astounding, as he has knowledge of the resets and saves of the player, along with any previous run throughs, of the game, which likely cause him nightmares should the previous games be No Mercy runs. This and how the death of his friends and especially his brother affect him just makes my guts wrench with sadness for him. A lot of people are scared of Sans as they fight him near the end of the No Mercy due to his cold rage towards the player's actions but I feel only this unbearable sadness for Sans....all those who he loves and cares about are dead and since he knows of the resets he knows that all he tries to do in that timeline is for naught. Urgh it just makes me want to take all the potential pain away from Sans, the hurt that comes from his almost omnipotent awareness and the pain from the chance of losing his brother and those closest to him in any play through other that the True Pacifist Run.....anyways....just felt good to get these thoughts that I've been wondering about all day out onto "paper." Anyways, see ya around.