Inktober 2018 Day 17

Pretty sure I forgot to post my weekly monster sketchbook art. So here ya go.

Heyo all! Sorry for the lack of updates, I'm just trying to figure out my scanner so that I can post even better quality pics of my drawings and sketches. Anyways with the New Year just around the corner, I wish you all a Happy New Year! And my good things come to you! I'll get to posting art again soon so don't worry.

I love how this beauty turned out. First time I was able to do just linework too without wanting to shade some bits. Gah I just love this piece so much, I wanna do another one like it already, even though it was kinda a pain figuring out how all of those veils should go. 10/10 would do again though. Who knows, I might just ink it and color it one day. I'm excited for the future!

Inktober 2018 Day 2

“Tranquil”

Here’s day two. I’m not behind on the actual art, just in the posting. Shhhhhh. I think i prefer the sketch for this one more. Plus i think I cheated because i didnt want to whip out the india ink for this and the next one so i just used my micron pens DX

Gender and Sex: The Issues between Sex and Gender Identification in Transgendered Individuals

Written by: Ari Mortensen, a ftm individual

              In recent years, gender and sex have developed new definitions to accommodate the growing number of members in the LGBT community. Gender has been redefined as the mental identification of an individual based on their own preference and feelings towards their role in society. Sex is now defined as the biological characteristics of a person’s body that determines them as male, female, or something else along that scope based on what doctors observe upon birth. Now, while gender has come a long way from what it was once considered in recent years, the term sex still has a long way to go as many times, the distinction between female bodied and male bodied individuals acts to invalidate those individuals of the LBGT community that assign themselves as some other gender than their body, at one point, suggested. Society conceptualizes sex on a male to female spectrum, which in my mind is a disgusting and invalidating idea for transgendered people such as myself. As a female-to-male transgendered individual, my gender is male though it was once considered to be female not by myself, but by society and the doctors that aided in bringing me into this world. While my gender is all good and dandy, what with it being increasingly accepted by society as science sees the errors of historical gender roles, my sex is a different matter entirely. As I was born with a “female” body, my sex is still considered to be female while my gender is male. In a biologically scientific standpoint, this should pose no problems, as it makes it easier to give healthcare and aid to those with specific body parts that determine their bodies as male or female. On a psychological standpoint though, the same is not true, as the distinction between the sexes (male and female) invalidates everything that transgendered individuals are trying to work for in their lives. Because of society’s distinction that, despite ftm individual’s gender being male, their sex is female, the work we have put into appearing male is destroyed, reducing us to our uncontrollable biologic traits and presenting us to society as female-bodied-males. This concept and stigma of sexual characteristics needs to be eradicated on a scientific standpoint, again because of how it works to diminish the gender identity of an individual. Society needs to get rid of the concept of defining sex along a spectrum of male or female to describe specific biological traits, and instead transition to defining sex as just labelled biological parts that describe the body part itself and not establish that the body part is inherently male or female. The terms male or female are distinctions that should only be used when speaking about gender identity, as they are merely two of the many genders present in the world. Male and female are terms that should not be used to describe biological body parts as there is nothing inherently feminine or masculine about such body parts, and are merely what society is trying to impose on individuals whose gender identity is something different from male or female. When referring to the body parts for reproduction, nothing should be described as a male body part or a female body part, but should only be described as what the body part really is: penis, vagina, uterus, testes, breasts. These terms have no distinction of what is male or female, and merely describe the role of the body part in the reproductive process. Having a vagina should not make my sex female, nor should having a penis make my sex male. Sex should be described only as a reflection of our internal gender, so that that even if we have vaginas, those parts are considered to be male parts because they are on a male-identifying body. My sex should only be described by the actual body parts that I have and not an incorrect umbrella term, like male or female, to describe what is between my legs that has nothing to do with what I identify as. Those umbrella terms and categorizations essentially destroy the work we transgender individuals have put into making ourselves appear male or female. This is especially true in regards to the healthcare we receive, as a clinic that deals with vaginas or pregnancy should not be considered a women’s clinic, but should just be considered a uterus, breast, or vagina clinic. That way any ftm individuals like myself will not be singled out in such a clinic that defines itself as a Women’s health clinic, thus being able to be more comfortable with receiving healthcare that is aimed not to female health, but to vaginal or uterus health. I for one, would be glad for this to happen because it would allow my dysphoria towards my “female” biological traits to diminish as those body parts of mine would no longer be considered as female parts but merely just considered as a vagina, breasts, or uterus. These body parts are not innately feminine or masculine as they are just body parts that do not denote a more feminine alignment, as that is all a person’s own mental gender preference. It wouldn’t hurt nearly as much going to the Doctor’s office knowing that your body parts that may be having problems are not masculine or feminine and are just genitalia. In a way, for some ftm individuals (not me though), it would make it much easier for them to have biological children. They would know that their body parts that enable them to carry their child are not female body parts but are just the more attuned (not motherly) genitalia to carrying a child than the genitalia of their partner who may have a penis (which is not a male attribute). In this hypothetical situation, being described as motherly or fatherly is not based on whether the individuals in the relationship have specific genitalia that society considers to be male or female, but is instead based entirely on the individual’s gender identity and personal preference to be called motherly, fatherly, or something entirely different.

              In addition to the issues mentioned above, it also needs to be accepted that, even with developments of society in these directions, such developments don’t destroy a transgender individual’s desire to have been born with the body parts we want that are described as male or female. As an ftm individual, I wish I had been born with a more “masculine” body despite my belief that a penis or more muscular body does not denote masculinity or a male body. This is just an aspect of those who are gender non-conforming that must be accepted despite how contradictory it may seem. I want a more masculine body (muscles, facial hair, penis) because those traits are generally what are found on male bodies at present day. I feel as though my wish to have a more “masculine” body is simply based off what I see around me. Everyday, I see individuals that describe themselves as men or males with their more muscular bodies and facial hair that I want myself, who has an unfortunately softer body that people describe as female (oftentimes against my will). This is really the only way that I can describe this seemingly contradictory wish of mine and other ftm and mtf individuals. I hope that one day, society reaches a point where a ftm person considers their genitalia to be undoubtedly masculine as a vagina on a man should be. In society right now though, this level of self-confidence is almost unreachable, so much so that even I wish not to have been born with breasts or a vagina.

a video i made to cope with myself

Inktober 2018 Day 28

“Gift”

I am so goddamn glad that I have two perfectly functioning hands, because i would never be able to do this sort of precise stuff with a pressure dependent ink pen.

Art © Me

@crapnatters

Detail of Miniature Graves / Confetti Funerals - for the Gallery Nucleus 11 Year Anniversary Exhibition. Watercolor, gouache, & colored pencil on paper.

http://www.gallerynucleus.com/gallery/485/pieces/

Finally someone explains why to do something and not just what to do

I see this kinda advice passed around all the time here is the thing: shading with black will indeed look bad if you don’t know what you are doing. However, telling people not to do things without explaining why is terrible advice.

Shadows are the opposite of light, this includes in colour.

This means that if you have light in one colour, the shadow will be of the opposing hue, saturation, and value.

Unless the object is white, it has its own local colour -  the object’s true colour, how it would appear if the light were pure white.

The colour of the light influences the local colour of the object. so if you had yourself a brown cube and a blue light, the colours would get bluer and pinker.

now the reason shadows do not tend to be black is because pure white light is hard to find in nature.

the closest you will get to pure white light is during a really overcast day and the sun is filtering through the clouds, but even then it’ll lean towards yellow so the shadows will be slightly blue.

During a clear day, the shadows will pick up a lot of bounce light from the blue sky and have a blue tinge. You can learn more about this in this tutorial: [http://artbyriana.deviantart.com/art/Why-shadows-aren-t-gray-321656856]

But! None of this means you are never allowed to use black.

realistically shadows will have a hint of a colour to them, but stylistically you might be going for, say, a film noir look and deep black shadows are needed for impact for example.

The more you know about how light works, the more informed decisions you can make about shading and the more options you have.

If someone tells you that you can’t do something, they’re wrong! you can do what you like!

yes, black is hard to use and if you just mix a colour with black it’ll get muddy, but thats easily resolved by choosing your colours manually - which ideally you want to do regardless bc the computer doesnt have your eyes & cant choose the colours you like

basically if someone gives you some art advice and says you can’t do something, they’re wrong! you can, you just might need to study a little to figure out how to make things work.

I mean for example, people will say you must make your composition follow the rule of thirds and never align centrally, but while the rule of thirds makes it easy to create visual interest, Mad Max Fury Road is a testament to the fact that central composition can and will work if you experiment.

there are no rules in art! there are theories based on reality, this has been a post on colour theory & light theory, but they exist to inform you, not to restrict you.

Do what you like! Trust your eyes, if you think something looks good, then great! If you don’t, then research & experiment until you do.

Also if you wanna learn more abt colour theory, I go into it in a lot more depth over yonder: http://helpfulharrie.tumblr.com/post/131822744966/ http://helpfulharrie.tumblr.com/post/131958395841/

AFTER HOURS OF WORKING ON IT, IT IS FINISHED.

So this is a little fanart comic thingie of @mataglap‘s little Mchanzo fic, A Piece of Cake. This was one of the fics that first introduced me to Mchanzo and I absolutely adore the dynamic these two have in the fic. It’s so well written I just love it, and this scene, kinda the realization on Mccree’s part that he is really into Hanzo was what really did me in. I love those small, but world changing realizations. 

Thanks a bunch @mataglap for your time and effort in this fic, it makes me really happy.