Don’t Ever Date Someone With A Mental Illness If You’re Not Ready To Work Through It With Them.

“How to tell if somebody is genuinely interested in you: If you removed all of your effort from the equation would any communication remain between you? If not, there is nothing there and you deserve better.”

— Beau Taplin

Friend break up...

Friend break ups are worse than breaking up with someone that you were in a relationship with. This break up was like you are all ok one day and then there becomes this tension between the 2 of you, and then the other party just stops talking and becomes savage towards you. And so they eventually stop talking and it just kind of takes that part of your heart and makes it like it never existed in the first place. You know exactly why you ache, but also know that there will be no way of getting that piece of your heart back. Those are the worst kind of break ups.

“And what if I’m on his mind as much as he is in mine.”

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Loving someone with abandonment issues isn’t easy. Being in a relationship with someone who has abandonment issues isn’t easy. Be prepared for a lil confusion and heart break. Be prepared to put in hard work, have understanding and patience.

Relationships to people with abandonment issues commonly result these three ways:

- person with abandonment issues will either runaway/cut people off just as they start becoming attracted/attached to someone

- person with abandonment issues becomes too attached too quickly to people

- person with abandonment issues sabotages relationships even when it seems to be going well 

It’s common for people with abandonment issues to live in constant excruciating fear and anxiety about being with someone or not being with some (sometimes it can be both at the same time).

The core reason people with abandonment issues behave the way they do is an intense fear of rejection (which can be caused by multiple situations the person endured). 

***a lot of these behaviours are done through subconscious train of thought, it can be difficult to recognise you actually fear abandonment.***

“He came into my life dressed up as everything I’ve been looking for and stupid me couldn’t resist. He found his way under my skin and into my bones. Now all I can do is pray that he won’t add any more wounds to my recovering heart.”

— I never learn - Jess Amelia 

Do you ever just lay on the bathroom floor crying your eyes out because you just can't handle anything anymore and everything feels like it's crashing down

Yeah me too

Hey, guess what?

If you have a shitty father, you’re allowed to be angry about it.

If you have a shitty father, you don’t have to love them.

If you have a shitty father, you don’t have to feel bad or guilty about being angry and not loving them.

Your feelings are VALID.

They had no right to treat you like that.

Do something nice for yourself today; you earned it.

“One day, he’s going to know. He’ll know your birthday, your middle name, where you were born, your star sign, and your parent’s names. He’ll know how old you were when you learned to play violin, how your grandparents passed away, how many pets you had, and how much you hated going to school. He’ll know your eye colour, your scars, your laugh lines, and your birthmarks. He’ll know your favourite book, movie, candy, food, pair of shoes, colour, and song. He’s going to know why you wake up in the middle of the night most nights, where you were when you realised you had lost yourself, why you picked up the razor, and how you managed to put it down before things went too far. He’s going to know your phobias, your dreams, your fears, your wishes, and your worries. He’s going to know about your first heartbreak, your dream wedding, and your problems with your mother. He’ll know your strengths, weaknesses, laziness, energy, and your mixed emotions. He’s going to know about your love for all things salted caramel, your dream of being a vet when you were five, your need to sing along to every song you know, and your fears of growing older. He’ll know your bad habits, your mannerisms, your stroppy pout, your facial expressions, and your laugh like it’s his favourite song. The way you chew, drink, walk, sleep, fidget, and kiss. He’s going to know that you’ve already picked out wedding flowers, baby names, tiles for the bathroom, bridesmaid dresses, and the colour of your bedroom walls. He’s going to know, get annoyed at and then accept that you leave clean clothes out for days, get scared ordering at a store, have to organise your DVD’s by genre, and check your horoscope… just in case. He’ll know your McDonald’s order, how you don’t like sugar in your coffee, how many scoops of ice cream you want, and that you don’t like sandwiches unless they’re toasted. He’s going to know how you feel without telling him, when you’re holding in a laugh, and that you’re crying without shedding tears. He’s going to know all of it. Everything. You, from top to bottom and inside out. From learning, from sharing, from listening, from watching. He’s going to know every single thing there is to know, and you know what else? He is still going to love you.”

— He’ll Know / Love

I keep thinking that maybe someday you’ll fall in love with me. That maybe I’ll say or do something that suddenly makes you realise that you’ve always loved me. It’s stupid. I should know better by now. Yet I keep hoping for a fairy tale ending anyway.

if only my brain is louder than my heart (2)  (via unconventionalbuthappy)