I Hate How A Part Of Me Still Hopes That It Was A Joke Or Wrong Feeling.

I hate how a part of me still hopes that it was a joke or wrong feeling.

I decided to try and heal so I am trying to reconnect with friends that I ghosted so that I won't be that sad.

I am in luck actually that some still do want contact with me and are still there for me so we can hang out and I can ignore my pain and become a better version of myself.

I will be better but right now I am not okay and that is okay.

VENT

I hate the fact that I was the one not wanting to play the "I love you more" Game and then playing it cuz they wanted to play it and now I am the fucking winner.

I hate the fact that before they left for vacation, I asked them to not stop loving me jokingly and guess what. They stopped loving me.

What I love is still them and I hate how much it fucking hurts.

I love that we are still going to stay friends so that I can assure that they'll be happy but that hurts. It fucking hurts.

Maybe they'll fall in love with me again if I'll be around more often, be more better. I can't lose them...

I was starting to get my life together...

Why did no one tell me how much it hurts?

I am not able to tell them that I love them anymore. I won't hear it back. I won't be able to take them on dates anymore.

I don't know anything anymore.

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only my second drawing of him and he's already in pain

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You know, it's fucking hilarious that only at the mental hospital I am one of the cool kids.

But hey.

At least I am cool somewhere in real life. :3

1 year ago
Super Hero Sonic The Hedgehog. >:3
Super Hero Sonic The Hedgehog. >:3
Super Hero Sonic The Hedgehog. >:3

Super hero Sonic the hedgehog. >:3

(Just kidding, I fucked up his eyes and tried to fix it by adding "eye liner" and just added clothing because I wanted to. :3)

1 year ago
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Did you know tumblr sells socks?

If you would like a pair of these socks, please click the "Shop Now" button below. For everyone else please enjoy these terrible feet related dad jokes.

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What was the foot’s favorite type of chips? Dori-toes.

What’s a foot’s favorite food? Shoe-shi.

The gingerbread man goes to the doctor and tells him he really hurt his foot. The doctor says “Have you tried icing it?”

Why isn’t your nose 12 inches long? Because then it would be a foot.

What does a thief wear on its feet? Sneakers.

I used to really hate my foot fungus, but now it’s actually starting to grow on me.

I didn’t think orthopedic shoes would help me, but I stand corrected.

Foot injuries are always really serious because they take so long to heel.

What did the foot say to the soccer ball when they won the match? I toed you so.

What has four legs but no feet? A table.

Which two Ancient Greek philosophers had the nicest feet? Pla-toe and Sock-rates.

Does your shoe have a hole in it? No? Then how did you put your foot in it then?

How hard was it for the shoemaker to manufacture clown shoes? It was no small feet.

What do you call it when you put two slices of bread around your foot? A below-knee sandwich.

What does a foot have for breakfast? Jam and toe-st.

What is a foot’s favorite mint? Men-toes.

What do you call a shoe made out of bananas? A slipper.

My younger sister thought TGIF was an instruction manual that told her that the Toes Get In First.

The best way to keep yourself alert at all times is to join ballet because it is the only sport that keeps you on your toes.

What causes the pain you get when you kick a rocket? Missile Toe.

Why was the toe swollen and itchy? Because it had a severe case of toe-nsilitis!

Whom did the man call instead of a doctor after hurting his feet while driving? He called the toe truck.

What is the boy called if he’s stung by a bee on his foot? You call him Toby.

Source: Wiggly Foot Jokes And Puns That'll Have You Feeling Ticklish

</Jokes>

1 year ago
"Hey, I Heard You're My Sister Now! That's Amazing!"

"Hey, I heard you're my sister now! That's amazing!"

"Our girls night is tomorrow at 8pm. We'll watch a movie and will summon a demon for fun!"

Metal had her coming out and Sage was proud. (Just wanted to draw them, not really post it but this looks adorable.)

1 year ago

Me: *ordering like, 4 chest binders and so on*

Me, thinking: "I swear I'm not trans, I just have very bad dysphoria atm... And they/them pronounces would be awesome... And nicknames are good... Mirus is a nice name..."

I am aware that these thoughts aren't quite cis.

I dunno what I am. ;-;

4 years ago

I just remembered that I had this one teacher that told everyone that birds complain most of the time. He always said it with an expression as if he always heard them complaining...

I am now wondering. Can he secretly talk to birds and they always complain to him?

1 year ago

To Sonic, are you able to fight as a WereHog in battle?

To Sonic, Are You Able To Fight As A WereHog In Battle?

Oh he can. The night we got Lavender home was a full moon. He saw the werehog and was terrified. He didn’t know it was Sonic, though. We had to wait for daylight to fully introduce ourselves.

1 year ago
Eggman, Sage And Metal Can Now Receive Questions And Will Be Used For Random Art Pieces For The Au.

Eggman, Sage and Metal can now receive questions and will be used for random art pieces for the Au.

Little bit about the three (+ the hotel itself a bit):

Eggmanland-Hotel:

The hotel was built by Eggman who is currently undergoing a redemption arc. Which means that he will try to be good, but fail. Don't expect perfection, he's trying his best.

Why he's redeeming? Simple, he was lonely and then discovered that he still has an alive relative (Shadow) and decided to give his best shot by giving him a good life instead of doing the things in Sonic Adventure 2.

He tried a few work places while trying to give Shadow some sort of a childhood. Unfortunately he can't really do anything because of his past as a villain so he decided to buy some land and build the Eggmanland-Hotel.

It was hard to get anyone to work with him due to the past villainy so he first tried to build several robots to do the job.

Unfortunately the only one who was capable enough was Metal Sonic.

At some point Amy joined in and some followed after her which made it much easier for him to find someone for the work.

Eggman discovered the way of outsourcing after a while and decided to do that to make the work easier.

(Outsourcing: use a different company for specific kinds of work, like security, housekeeping, cooks etc)

He got some people for the night shifts and some for the housekeeping because the rest of the workplaces had enough people and these kinds of workplaces were understaffed.

There is no real need for security because this is more of a hotel for families with children.

It has:

-2 playgrounds (one specifically for toddlers, the other for children), they are next to each other

-daycare (no matter how much a parent loves their child, sometimes they need a break)

-a chao garden

-a restaurant

-and all the other stuff a hotel needs

Eggman:

He is the owner and manager. He tries his best with the work plans but unfortunately it is hard to plan ahead in a hotel because guests are unpredictable. So he is currently trying to just make the workplans for the next two weeks. (which also is hard due to the unpredictability of the guests)

He adopted Shadow after finding him and decided to call Metal his son as well. Shadow asked him to adopt Rouge as well after a while and at some point he created Belle and Sage.

On April the first, Shadow and Rouge decided to ask him for a younger sibling as a joke.

Fortunately, Eggman forgot to look at the calendar and created Omega e-123.

Cubebot and Orbbot are often the babysitters for them.

Metal

There isn't much to tell about her except that she is still mute and discovered that she's actually a girl. Eggman was first confused but got over it like a day after the revelation because he researched a lot.

So a few changes have been made.

She works in the hotel, but mostly in the kitchen to cook something or helps with the dishes.

She seems to be having fun at the work place because everyone is very nice.

Eggman is afraid that she might find out that not everyone is like that which is why she works at the stations with the least people around her. (Yes, Metal already knows, Eggman is just very terrified of making any kinds of mistakes)

Sage

She goes to school and is in the same class as Tails.

She also has some cat ears to look more alike with her siblings.

Unfortunately I have not many plans for her except for the the fact that she is the young sibling who is filled with more love than anyone can ever feel. (based on my youngest sister. I love her very much. I hope she'll always feel happiness no matter the situation.)

I also hate how good it turned out.

Like, it started like this:

Eggman, Sage And Metal Can Now Receive Questions And Will Be Used For Random Art Pieces For The Au.

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