Life Is So Good Right Now

ok y’all, i got told to rot in hell cause i was gay, had alot of homophobia today and outed the number of times and ppl being weird about it. just people pretending to be gay when they aren’t.

yeahh..

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goodbye 2022, hi 2023 🎉

whisper comeback is tomorrow y’all BE PREPARED TO SURVIVE

#WHISPERTHEBOYZ

CHILL SEASPN FOR SPLATOON IS OUT AND IM RAGING I CANY WAIT TO GET HOME IN 2 MINS CAUSE OMG I CANT WAITTTT‼️‼️‼️💗💗🎉🎉🎉💪💪ITS HERE SPLATOONERS

I WENT TO THE BOYZ CONCERT YESTERDAY AND HOLY FUCK I SANG EVERYTHING FULLY SO LOUDLY STRAINING MY LUNGS TO THE POINT THEY NOTICED THE BACK AND KEVIN SAID 'I LOVE YOU TOO' AFTER ME SCREAMING WHEN IT WENT SILENT

LAST NIGHT WAS TERRIFIC...

i got outed by my “friends” to others that im gay now ppl are being weird about it and they’re “disappointed”

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long time I have ever been this inactive.

this full moon, I did a whole fucking egg cleanse to get all that negativity off of me and I made a wish all those who did me bad get their karma. and I wish that all the negative energy leaves me and I feel more calmer.

and once I did an egg cleanse the amount of evil and jealousy that appeared 😭😭

but that's ok, because u finna get it BACK AT U

anyways im gonna try to moon bathe and flush shit that do not serve me anymore

i’ve had enough

(photo of the moon i took!)

wish all the negativity and the energy goes away.

ERIC CAME BACK??$:×%@^+)

I hate saying this but y'all i need a bit of help here (anyone who's lgbtq)

I'm gonna share my experiences a bit (not top much just a little) & worries so peacefully talk to me nicely.

I'm gonna do my labels journey separately so enjoy reading.

Again I'm not gonna show or say too much.

me trying out the lesbian label (I've tried this out for 2 weeks now?) + experiences

my journey in 2 weeks w the lesbian label !

signs of my attraction w the label 🏷 .

🦢 : when i would watch the film of lgbtq people on Netflix (a few months back) for the first ever time and I would always focus on the female characters.

And I would always think "do i like her romantically? Or in a nice way?"

🦢 : i would play this game (the new one) called splatoon 2 & 3 and I would always have a crush on the female characters. I remember when I was playing the solo mode and every time I would win, I would see her do a certain pose (I'm not trying to be sexual with the character when saying this, I'm just trying to express my feelings of her), she had her body out and I would always stare at it and feel flustered. Have a huge tightening in my chest and my heart heavy.

🦢 : i remember during the game, i would see the octo boy and think “wow he is so cute”. now when i was younger (like 2 - 3 years back), i would always think “i wish he was real. I would like be his friend” and developed feelings (NOT a sexual or a romantic one, a platonic one that's strong like as a friend). I used to have a crush on him but I dont anymore now. I'm just attracted as a friend. (Lesbians have crushes on unattainable men like fictional characters and all but mine isn't a fictional character but a game one)

🦢 : I started identifying with the lesbian label more when I had strong feelings for the female character. Every time I would go on solo mode story playing as her, I instantly stare at her body and think, “shes so cute i love her” but at the same/at the time (still now), i never had a crush on the male characters anymore nor not as much. Like I found both inkling & octos cute (male ones) but I wouldn't feel like dating them (as like any human would do with irl people)

🦢 : I would always make those sounds (like the exciting ones) when I would see her make a little face when she gets a win (her smile is so cute I cant) and I would be like “FUCK STOP BEING SO CUTE ITS KILLING ME” and instant blushing constantly.

🦢 : I remember when I would find the saiki k character cute but I didn't have anything with him. I was mainly focusing on kokomi and teruhashi.

🦢 : I think this one is the biggest lesbian sign from me is looking. at. girls. Just their body, their part (their upper) or just their ass. Like I would always walk past and when I see a pretty girl (this happened YESTERDAY when walking to a store) and I looked at her quickly since her lovely perfume walked past, and went, “huuhooo” (whistle sound ik but it was a silent one).

She noticed me smiling but God.

Her perfume.

Just why. Are you. So cute.

And a bonus: 🦢 I nearly kissed my female best friend when she liked the same things as me. I literally hugged her when crying and almost kissed her when she had to go (yesterday ofc different girl)

(Splatoon 2 & 3 is a good game so please check it out and the anime saiki k !)

so this is my journey identifying as it.

And I still do.

oh wow i was literally UNAWARE my results came back 2-3 days ago and I was not aware of it

curiously i decided to go check my dna to see if it came back and it DID i just never knew

coincidentally i mentioned that my great grandfather from my mom's side was a jewish man from germany and apparently they picked it up???? my 4-5-6-7-to 12 generations were jewish. but more jews from poland, belarus, Ukrainian, Lithuania, romania, Moldova and hungary. I KNEW i was jewish but then that would mean I have to convert to be considered jewish. it came from both grandparents both maternal and paternal so thats good

crazy realisation, COINCIDENTALLY on shabbat (on Saterday it was still shabbat) i got my results and seeing the jewish was shocking

and most of my dna came from my dad because he was african. he even had capr Verde walking there like theres so much of it and i just found it all shocking. bro then a huge block of British and irish popped up in there, and its ofc connected since i was BORN in britain. ties w scotland. then I got ALL scandinavian dna fully, danish swedish finnish iceland and norwegian was there on MY TEST. like do u know how INSANE that is?

and European, I got italian, greek, Spanish & Portuguese, Bulgarian, romanian, Moldovan, and a few more.

then I had unassigned. my mom is arab ofc as u guys know but this time more uncovered. she had iraqi Azerbaijani Turkish Iran on her side including Georgia yemen and a strong NORTH AFRICAN jews on the side. she also said yemeni ties and Egyptian.

suprisingly, chinese showed up on my test, viet, thai khmer indonesian and myanmar, malaysian, Japanese & more. then Russian as well.

but then. I got south asian dna from my MOM because where she is from has a strong south asian population, so I got bhutanese (from bhutan), indian, pakistani, sri lankan, Nepali, and 3 more. EVEN KAZAHSTAN LMFAOOOO

and lastly, just thought my mom was just the country she was and my dad was from the caribbean and that was it. no. few more popped up. im apparently barbadian, trinidad, descendant of the cayman islands afro population, AFRO LATINA (afro cuban??? that was shocked me more), and tbh it was fun to know everything but I was just so shocked.

it made me laugh how I stopped checking my dna and then randomly, decided to check it again and it came on jewish passover JUST to be suprised w jewish ancestry from mh ancestors on shabbat (shabbat is Friday evening to saturday evening but its passover so it may be a clash??? so yeah don't attack me.)

im just super happy rn because now I can continue learning about new traditions cultures more food to try more countries to visit, music etc

thank god im multiracial and im thankful EVERYDAY im mixed

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed