I Just Need Someone To Hold Me While I Cry Sometimes. Crying/panicking Alone Makes Me Feel Too Much Like

What I would give for a good cuddle with the homies right now. Sadly, I have not the time nor the social ability to figure out a cuddle session of some sort. Always feels too weird to just be like; yo, wanna have some platonic cuddle time? Anyways, I am definitely very touch starved atm.

I want to get into a fight with someone where we just beat the shit out of each other for no reason. No emotional strings attached, no anger or grudges, just fucking going at it.

merry christmas

I'm trying to figure out more about Tumblr right now by posting a bunch of random things, so here's a story from my childhood;

I live really close to a creek, and I spent a lot of time around there as a kid. There was this one specific little pool that had a waterfall feeding into it that my friends and I really loved. It was only a few blocks away, so we'd always go there a bunch on hot summer days.

There were two spots you could use if you wanted to do a jump into the water instead of wading into it. One was a little rocky ledge about 3 feet above some deeper water. It was really perfect to do little plunges off of. 10/10 very fun. The other spot however, was this short and slanted overhang that stood about 6 feet above some shallow rocky water. If you wanted to jump off it you had to make an effort to jump out into the deeper area so you wouldn't break your legs landing on sharp rocks.

One day when I was about 9 or 10, I was at this pool with two of my friends, their dogs, and one of their parents. We were playing around and taking turns jumping off the overhang. I was a fairly unathletic kid, and it always took me a moment to prepare myself to be able to jump out far enough as to not land on the rocks. One of my friends was keeping lookout since the dogs were running around and playing with each other. She gave me the all clear and I ran toward the ledge, but I hesitated just long enough that the dogs had moved from their position farther away and had begun chasing each other. Next thing I know, they come in and sweep my legs out from under me. I hit the ground and start sliding across the rocky surface of the overhang.

Despite this ledge being only about six feet above the water, the rocks underneath were sharp and I was also quite weak and fragile at that age, so that knowledge combined with the adrenaline made me totally convinced I was about to fall to my death. (I probably would've just broken a bone or got a nasty cut or something, but ten year old brain full of adrenaline wasn't thinking the most logically) I was holding onto this tiny plant for dear life while slowly sliding farther down every time I tried to reorient myself to get back up. As a result of all the wet children dripping water all over when jumping off, it was very slippery.

My friend notices how I'm panicking and unable to get up and asks me if I need help. I was a very socially anxious child, and hated the idea of burdening anyone. So as I am sliding down this ledge, convinced I'm about to die, I hear my friend ask if I need help. My dumbass said no. I was lucky that she ignored me and pulled me up by my shoulders regardless. I find it kind of hilarious that despite being absolutely terrified, I still thought it would be better to fall and get injured than just ask for help.

I got out of it with just some scratches on my lower back, and I never told my parents because I knew they would freak out and never let me go there again. Still haven't told them to this day lol.

Solangelo is two sides of the same coin.

NOT ABSOLUTEY NOT GOLDEN RETRIEVER x BLACK CAT. NO.

NOT SUNSHINE x GRUMPY EITHER YEAH THATS RIGHT I SEE YOU.

NO!

YOUR ALL WRONG. THEYRE TWO SIDES OF THE SAME COIN.

I will explain my point,

Nico lost Bianca, the sister he loved dearly when he was young. he got to express that grief and anger.

Will lost all his older siblings (Lee, Micheal, etc) when he was young. he never got to express that grief and anger.

Nico is an extrovert forced to be an introvert because of his trauma

Will is an introvert forced to be an extrovert because of his trauma

Nico is "darkness", but he has "light"

Will is "light" but he has "darkness"

And the coin symbolism in TSATS. One side with Wills Sun tattoo, the other with Hades's helm of darkness.

The sun and the star

Will being the sun, he's warm and can heal but it can also burn and hurt

Nico being the star, He shines in the darkness. "to be a star you must burn"

Do you see what i mean? They're only opposites attract in aesthetics.

there are probably posts explaining in more detail of this, I just wanted to share this,

so one of the high school buses flipped over and this was the picture they used in the newspaper

Still baffles me how insurance companies can just... deny treatment.

This medical professional has worked with a person and used their expertise to determine that they need to have this surgery to fix a problem that may be potentially deadly if left untreated. This professional has seen many people have this treatment and they know it works and is the most viable solution.

But this insurance company can just... decide it's not necessary and refuse to cover it. Then the patient is forced to choose between letting themselves deteriorate and possibly die, or going into immense debt and barely being able to afford basic necessities.

Like, what the actual fuck.

My first Tumblr post, a little drawing I did of some of my friend group's favorite Pokémon! It was kind of an impulsive idea so not the best executed, the cheap fineliner I used bled pretty badly on the printer paper, and the proportions are all sorts of wacky, but I still think it's cute.

I need a hug