EMMA, MY BELOVED, I DEVASTATINGLY NEED YOUR HELP. So Nowadays When I Wanna Shift I Do My Thing And Then

　　　i have it, i have it, i have it… so where is it?

there’s a thing that happens. a delusion, a performance, a cosmic joke that you’re in on until you realise you’re the punchline. you manifest something, no, you inhabit it, you embody it, you crawl inside its skin and zip yourself up. i have x. i own x. x is already in my hands. you say it until it isn’t a wish anymore, just a fact waiting to be noticed. and then. nothing.

the universe, god, the simulation, whoever’s supposed to be writing this cheque, has put you on hold. customer service music is playing. you are nowhere near x, your hands are empty, your environment bleak and x-less. you are spiritually rich and physically destitute, the manifestational equivalent of an aristocrat whose assets are frozen.

and you sit there, stunned. because it worked last time. and the time before that. and the time before that. like magic, like clockwork, like a law as immutable as gravity. you have received things you shouldn’t have received. things you had no way of getting. things that should have been out of reach but weren’t, because you knew how to want them properly. so why not now? why this, why you, why the delay?

　　　　　　so , here’s how you get x

you ignore the absence of x. you treat x like an inevitability, like a train already hurtling down the tracks towards you. not like a possibility. not like a wish. an inevitability. you do not beg the train to come; you stand at the station as if it’s already rounding the bend. you prepare. you make space. you act as if.

this is not the delusion of a fool. this is the precision of an architect. the greats have always known this, athletes, actors, politicians, emperors. success is an air, a posture, a scent worn like cologne. you can smell it on people before they have it. and if you wear it long enough, the universe catches on.

you speak in possession, not longing. you train your mind to recoil at the word "want" like it’s poison. wanting affirms lack. you do not want, you have. you are.

but what about reality? what about facts? what about the brutalist architecture of circumstance, the stone and steel of what is?

what about it? reality is not static. it is pliant, malleable, a thing to be strong-armed and shaped. the first step in changing reality is refusing to bow to it.

so you do not acknowledge the empty space where x should be. you treat it like a chair already filled, a bank account already bursting, a future already decided. you hold the pose, you speak in the tense of the having, you ignore the absence until it has no choice but to become presence.

confidence + assumption = success. it has never been more complicated than that. the world has always belonged to those who assume it should.

　　so assume. and let the world catch up.

god I just want to love him. I want to show him what love is supposed to be like. I want to show him that he doesn’t have to be alone. I want to hold him and comfort him and I want to give him everything he’s ever wanted. I want to spend the rest of my life making sure he is surrounded by love and happiness and oh my god I’m so desperately in love with him please.

another night, another neocitran and a new dr to shift to.

stuck between wanting to post every little thing about my drs and never actually knowing what to tell yall

we getting drunk and doing some scripting boutta live it up in here for real I am going to be Grayson Hawthorne’s literal nightmare and he will love me let’s gooooooo

convince yourself

manifestation is convincing yourself that nothing limits you and coming to terms with the fact that you are everything and nothing at the same time.

take my point...

everything that is reflected in the external world had a beginning in the internal world - this is a one-way road, which always begins in us as an assumption and ends up materializing externally.

everything is an assumption and every assumption has an answer(prayer) because that is how the law works - this is how your world is created.

it took me a while to understand it, but i swear to you all that convincing myself and trusting myself made everything so easy.

don't look for another method, don't wonder what you are doing wrong, don't expect change just be the change, convince yourself that you already have what you want and then just observe the outside world with the knowledge that you created it.

your one task is to CONVINCE yourself and TRUST to yourself that what you desire is already fulfilled - without actually having it in the outside world you MUST assume that your wish has been fulfilled and YOU ALREADY HAVE IT.

don't expect, don't look, don't wonder when how and where, just CONVINCE YOURSELF that you already have it.

and that's it. convince yourself, trust yourself, test yourself and live your desire.

as above, so below.

I am feeling so connected to my dr today. I am thriving I am giddy I am giggling because I can feel that crisp september air coming through my dorm window and I can hear the buzzing nonsensical chatter just before class begins and I can smell the hay I give my guinea pig every morning. I am in my dr I am living and I am breathing and I am.

someone in my dream literally told me “if you’re already in your dr, why are you trying to shift at night? if you’re already there, you’re just proving to yourself that you’re not there by doing these things to get you there, when you’re already there. just go to sleep because you’re already there.” oh!

Detachment won't do shit if you still assume you can't shift. You’ve probably seen these posts: “Just detach! Stop obsessing! Don’t use shifting as an escape, or you’ll never shift!!” And yeah, sure, taking a chill pill and not stressing yourself into oblivion can help. But just detachment alone isn't a magical one way ticket to your DR. You can detach all day, but if you still assume shifting isn’t gonna happen for you, nothing’s gonna change. -> The real problems are your assumptions, not a lack of detachment You can be obsessed as hell with shifting and still do it - if you assume you can and will. You can shift purely to get the fuck away from here - if you assume you can and will. You can put your DR on such a high pedestal that it has its own damn orbit and still shift - if (we can say it together at this point) you assume you can and will. The problem isn’t wanting something too much - it’s what you’re telling yourself every day all day long. Wanting to escape? Not the problem. → Thinking you’re stuck forever in your CR? That’s the problem. Seeing your DR as perfect? Not the problem. → Assuming it’s too good for you? That’s the problem. You heard of people that stopped trying and suddenly shifted? They probably saw sudden success not because detachment is a magic band-aid fix, but because they stopped reinforcing their old bullshit assumptions. Instead of stressing over how to pretend you don’t want what you obviously want, start questioning what you actually believe about shifting. it isn't about that, it's about assuming that what you want is already yours and that you can do it. Deserve it, whatever doubt is holding you back. Fight it, beat it and fold it into an origami bird ^-^ (Obligatory "this is only my personal opinion and not necessary a fact, if it resonates great, if not also nice"- disclaimer :3)

Whatever you say is true is true. You can literally just repeat something over and over and have the whole fucking world change.

You don't need to know more. That's it

You assume -> don't go back to the old story -> profit