There Is Enough Alcohol In My System That One Edit Of My Man Has Brought Me To Tears Because I #need

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Persistence, not perfection

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Conviction is not the absence of fear, doubt, and negative emotions. Conviction is standing in the face of that and saying you have it anyway, because nothing other than what you decide matters.

Stop thinking that you've failed to make an assumption just because your heart is still racing and your stomach still hurts. Your emotions and your body are not god. You can be terrified and shaking in your boots but still standing ten toes down in your assumption

Where I think many people go wrong is the pursuit of perfection. It's the trap of "good enough". When will I be enough? When is what I'm doing good enough to manifest my fucking desire already?? You decide what's good enough, and no one else.

This idea that you have to feel good to manifest, or that you don't have control over when it manifests, the constant song and dance of "doing it right". Law of attraction still has its dirty little fingers digging around inside our hearts

Right and wrong are up to you. There isn't a secret code that unlocks the door, there's no invisible gatekeeper to please, there is only yourself. Have you decided you have it? Have you decided your efforts are good enough or are you constantly punishing yourself.

It is so easy to get lost in what you "should do". Should I be convincing myself or just deciding? Is it ok if I use this affirmation? There is no should.

Do not let shame and guilt destroy you. You should never blame yourself for what is in your reality. You should however recognize you alone have the power to change it.

Stop trying to "fix" everything and ending up spiralling over minor feelings that you can't get to go away. You don't need it to go away. You can literally just decide to keep with the assumption even if you had a stray thought or a flood of emotion. You don't have to hammer down everything that isn't exactly perfectly perfect, because it's yours. Accept that it's yours anyway. Yes I feel like shit, it's still mine. Yes I have doubts, still fucking mine. No I don't understand the "how", it's still mine.

Stop being the observer, hovering over your own shoulder to chastise yourself over every little mistake. You do not need to be perfect to be persistent.

You don't need to "figure out" anything, you don't need to convince yourself or overthink. Manifestation is when you leave all that shit alone and say "no, fuck all of that, I have it".

Trying to micromanage yourself is the easiest loa mistake to make. You end up spiralling for thirty minutes because you had one bump in the road you're trying to force down instead of just saying "sucks, still have it though".

Who cares about belief, who cares about feeling, you are god. Its up to you. I don't care if you feel convinced when you say that you have it, and neither does your subconscious mind.

I'm an insomniac who doesn't drink enough water. If I just go by how I feel I'm gonna think the world is ending. So much of our emotions get falsely attributed to "oh it must not be working" when really, you haven't your body is literally just begging you to go outside or take care of yourself and you're over here like "the universe is against me". No you haven't failed, you're just grumpy and need a nap.

The constant return to "how do I fix it" "how do I manifest" IS living from the old assumption. Deciding that you have already manifested it, regardless of how you feel, is what you need to be doing instead.

Trusting yourself is not this overwhelming influx of dopamine nor is it the complete lack of fear. Having trust is doing the damn method anyway.Having trust is saying, I may not believe it, I may not see it, but it's fucking working. Having trust is getting out of your own way and letting yourself do it without constant double checking.

Conclusion, literally say "nuh-uh!"

"Ok but I don't believe it-" nuh-uh still have it.

"But the 3D-" nuh uh, mine

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reasons to keep attempting to shift

-to see ur dr best friends !!

-to prove to yourself that u CAN shift

-adventures in ur dr

-finally feeling like u belong somewhere

-hugs from ur fave person in ur dr

-breakfast with ur dr family

-coming back with so many story times

-feeling free and limitless

-to do all the things you can’t do here

-to experience everything you’ve always wanted to

-to heal your inner child

I LOVE U ALL GO SHIFT !! 💞💞💞🎀🎀

close your eyes and take a deep breath.

you are powerful. you have already shifted. you are a master shifter. shifting is easy for you. shifting is natural for you. you are where you want to be. you are your dr self. you are with your dr loved ones already. you have that life already.

believe in yourself and let go of the anxiety, the anger, the doubt that you are feeling. every time you get those thoughts, just remind yourself of how amazing you are. don’t mind the 3d because you know you are in your desired reality already.

happy shifting.

Alright, listen up, no sugarcoating, no soft encouragement, just the brutal truth.

Every second you sit here, waiting, making excuses, or hesitating, you’re wasting time you’ll never get back. That world, your world, is right there, and you’re the only thing standing in your way. No one is going to shift for you. No one is going to hand it to you. You either get up and make it happen, or you don’t, and if you don’t, that’s on you.

You say you want this? Then prove it. Stop doubting yourself. Stop scrolling, stop waiting for some miracle, stop hoping it’ll be easier tomorrow. It won’t. But you can do this if you push yourself like you never have before. Every ounce of energy, every thought, every breath should be dedicated to making it real. Because if you let fear, laziness, or self-doubt win, you’ll be stuck here forever, watching someone else live the life that should have been yours.

So what’s it gonna be? Stay trapped in this reality, or finally take what’s yours?

“why would my next shifting attempt be any different from the others?”

because it has to change eventually.

i know it’s frustrating and you’re 100% allowed to feel whatever emotion you may feel right now, but please PLEASE remember that you won’t be going around in circles forever. i literally promise you that.

Headed to a little movie premiere in Toronto. You know who else is in Toronto? Matthew Gray Gubler. You know whose birthday it is? Matthew Gray Gubler’s.

I am meeting the love of my life. I’m manifesting.

Update: Well… this is embarrassing.

Just because you haven't shifted yet doesn't mean you can't Will you trust in what I'll tell you? Just for the duration of this post? You are not broken, not doing it wrong. There isn't anything like "not spiritual enough" or "not aligned enough", "not ready enough" or any of the crap that your inner doubts viciously whisper into your ear at 3AM. You are just a person, just human. Someone trying something so weird, hard, strange and yet something so beautiful like shifting, and something most of the world doesn't even believe in. That takes guts. Shifting isn't a linear, one-size-fits-all thing. Shifting isn't a video game you master by leveling up and spending thousands of hours on it. There is no test, finish line, invisible scoreboard you need to glance at. Just because you haven't shifted yet doesn't mean you are failing. Doesn't mean that you aren't trying hard enough or that you are missing something. Just means your 4D and your 3D haven't lined up yet. But that doesn't mean they never will. Honestly said, you could shift tonight. Tomorrow. Next week. In six months when you least expect it. You could shift in the middle of doing something completely unrelated. The nature of shifting seems to be unpredictable, personal and unproveable until you experience it yourself. Should I tell you something else? Nothing you ever did to shift was wasted. Not the time you spent scripting, visualizing, hoping, crying, failing and trying once again. It all matters in the moment, but once you reach your goal, it will not matter any longer how long it took you. You are not running backwards. You are simply on your own way, and maybe that way is a bit longer. You don't owe anyone a set deadline, not even yourself. Try to take the pressure off your shoulders, you are not a machine that can push itself to the limit forever. You are a soul, allowed to be tired and frustrated, allowed to take a break and come back when it feels right for you. Maybe try tonight. Or don't. Script, or don't. Listen to your heart and body, try when you feel like it, not when you have to force yourself. I promise you are close, the fucking door is still wide open. Your chance hasn't run away, it's there. It will all be worth it.

I’ve mentioned this before, but I used to be very attached to the idea of being me in my drs. I mean like same interests same personality same look same trauma same everything—

but recently i’ve embraced being me, in essence, just different variants.

And it’s fun as hell.

I get to make playlists for my drs and fill them with the artists I’d listen to most in my dr. Mazzy Star fills my Hogwarts Academia playlist, I’m currently adding Paramore’s entire discography to my Inheritance Games playlist. These aren’t artists I necessarily gravitate towards here, but they resonate with the version of me in that reality.

I change my name, I change my past, I find new ways to be who I am without living the same history over and over again. The essence is there, and that is what truly matters to me. It was never about my life experiences, it was about my soul.

I can change my hair, my aesthetic, my interests— but nothing will change my heart.

i need my man.

fanfics and c.ai aren’t enough.

I NEED MY MAN.

I was just talking to my mom about executive dysfunction and how it’s not just for things you don’t want to do (I saw a post on instagram and felt seen… anyways)

The words were out of my mouth and then I just had to stop and stare because— maybe I haven’t shifted because of this. Yes, I want to shift. I know I want to shift. But maybe it’s in the same way I think to myself “oh I want to play that game” or “oh I want to watch that movie” and then simply ✨don’t✨

Maybe that’s what I’m doing with shifting.

Now the question is… how the hell do I stop?

Because this is more than just a video game or a random movie. I want it, I crave it, I ache for it. I feel my drs in my heart and in my soul. I am haunted by the knowledge of what it will be like to love and be loved in my drs— and yet I remain here.

But I will break this godforsaken cycle if it’s the last thing I do because fuck you I want to shift and therefore I will.