Lmao. Whatever, Have These, This Is Fun :3333

If anyone in Colorado adopted a tortishell cat named Bilbo, that was was my cat and I hope you’re treating her well. My dad was never supposed to give that cat away and I hope that she’s had a loving home these past few years.

If you’re not willing to give her back, that’s okay, I just want to know that she was loved as much as I loved herr.

*gripping my pen so hard it bursts* yeah im normal about biopunk

Happy Homestuck day fellas

To anyone who needs to hear it:

It's not your fault.

You didn't deserve it.

You will get through this.

You will recover.

Some of yall needed to hear this

Credits to @/mattxiv on Instagram

More!

Turning Red

Oh god damn Pixar rly got me with this one. As someone who grew up in an Asian household with this kind of situation, this one hit on. An emotional level. Pixar/Disney has released a slew of amazing movies touching on generational trauma and I both love it and hate it.

Luca

LET. THEM. BE. BOYFRIENDS.

Inside Out

Actually really good! I’d turned down seeing this movie when it first came out cause I was an insecure teenager so Im glad I finally watched it. Joy was kinda insufferable for a little bit but it got better. I really like the message and I had fun posing a lot of questions about how things work in that universe. Also I feel Riley on a personal level cause I moved around a lot as a kid so I understand that it can be really hard sometimes.

Zootopia

Yes I had never seen this movie until now, no I dont regret not watching it. It was. Aight. Wish I wouldve watched it before finding out about the. AHEM. THE COMIC. But whatever, I like Nick.

General Opinions on Movies me and my partner marathoned recently written before the melatonin wins

Planet of the Apes trilogy

LOVED THEM. SO MUCH. I care a lot about Caesar and Maurice so the end of the third movie really had me in tears. So good.

Jurassic World Movies

Pretty alright, docked some points because of real world opinions of Crisp Rat, but I am HERE for Blue and the T-Rex. The Indominus Rex was, imo, a really cool dino. Fed my childhood love of scaley boys.

Puss in Boots: The Last Wish

YES KING ITS WHAT HE DESERVES. So happy to see Kitty again and Harvey Guillén did a great job. 10/10 will watch again.

The Golden Compass

Lost to the mf ages. I had a preview for this movie on a dvd I had as a kid, and only now got to watch it. So sad there wasn't a sequel.

The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe

YES. YES. YES. EVERYTHING I WANTED IT TO BE.

All of the Michael Bay Transformers movies

Ugh took us so long to get through cause each movie is a little over 2.5 hours but we made it! I watched the first one as a kid (as well as read some of the comics) and Ive always loved Bumblebee. I loved all of the movies. LOVED HOUND he was my childhood second favourite. Im a little sad that Arcee didn't get nearly as much of a part as she deserves but I'll live. I'm more partial towards Sam Witwicky but Cade Yeager is alright. Hes cool.

Transformers: the Movie (1986)

Partner's childhood favourite so naturally we had to. Was really good! Reminded me of why I love 80's cartoons so much, it was a huge nostalgia trip and got me wanting to watch all of my childhood shows and movies (X-Men, TMNT '87, Rainbow Brite, etc.). I will always love the style and the way they did the backgrounds. As for the movie itself, I got my fill of Arcee, and I'm happy with the experience. Will watch again.

Bayverse TMNT movies.

YES FINALLY. Ive had these on my watch list for. A WHILE. I loved them, loved Mikey and Donnie specifically. Not my favourite iteration of Casey but he was fine. Overall p good, happy to see Bebop and Rocksteady. I think they should've used '87 Krang's voice in the second movie but he's squeaky and kind of annoying so I get it. Reminds me to watch ROTTMNT.

Dinosaur

Literally didnt even know this was a Disney movie but was fantastic. Beautiful animation despite being old. Loved it.

Hook

*Points at Rufio* its him officer. Its the homestuck flashback. Despite the fact that I had to explain why Rufio cause me to uncontrollably laugh to my partner, was a really good movie. Hook and Peter were both played by amazing guys.

I'll add any if I missed them, and I'll reblog with our next batch. :)

Based on like. Nothing. Cause they have nothing in common. But @bkburrito did this to me

Nightmare blunt rotation : Connor Macleod, Juan Sánchez-Villalobos Ramírez, Kratos, Vergil fron dmc, and Raiden from mgr

We're greasy.

The system do be slipping.

Beware Pre-T ppl planning to go on T, you will get oily.

Our glasses are slipping oh god oh fuck oh fffffffuck

Intro Post Part Two: The Better One

Hi, I’m Herma! This account used to be Payday based but currently it doesn’t really have a theme.

But! For specific content, I have created sideblogs, because I will combust if I put it all on one tumblr.

Active sideblogs are:

@its-spelt-apocrypha for reblogs

@its-spelt-sheogorath for NSFW content

@its-spelt-vaermina for OC content

@accounts-of-waylo-schmidtt for My Summer Car content revolving around @bkburrito’s character <3

Welcome to Apocrypha! Browse as long as you’d like :)

Honestly not to be traumatized on main but like. Using horror to heal is such a wonderful thing and I wanna talk abt it.

I can really only speak for myself so I'm gonna talk abt my experiences with it.

One of my most helpful coping mechanisms is playing Amnesia: The Dark Descent. Amnesia is known to be one of the scariest and fucked up games of its time, and still renowned as one of the best horror games. It dives into things like torture, manipulation, unrelenting nightmares, and reality itself falling apart due to a simple action. Yet playing this game and indulging in its story and its lore helps both distract and sort of heal from life when particular memories get bad.

I use weirdcore/liminal spaces/The Backrooms to cope with my derealization issues.

I use analog horror and the Trollge to help cope with my paranoia and fear of the unknown.

I use SCP to help with fear of institutions and anamolies otherwise unable to be explained.

I use FNaF to help with terrible memories. In fact, something my brain has taken to doing is defaulting into believing I'm Michael Afton to escape from flashbacks, phantom sensations, and other things that constantly remind me of my past ab//use.

I use slashers like Michael Myers and Mr. Voorhees for fear of people larger than me (which is a lot of people, Im a very small guy) and honestly they help me accept parts of me that I hate.

It sounds terrible on paper but a lot of people can actually relate to a lot of topics in horror. Its sort of a roundabout way to get that trauma and those memories out in the open and get them resolved, even if its temporarily. Because progress is still progress, no matter how miniscule.

Strangely enough, indulging in horror reminds me that I didn't deserve it, its not my fault, and I. Will. Get. Better. I will recover. And I think thats why a lot of people with trauma turn to horror. Because when everything was shitty and when they were scared the most, horror was a proper escape. It helped, and it continues to help.

I think a lot of people use horror as a coping mechanism and I think its something that people who aren't going through the trauma recovery process should be more open-minded about. I always get odd comments about using horror as coping mechanisms and I think people should be more widely accepting of seemingly unorthodox, but healthy, ways to cope. We all cope differently.

So... are we healing our trauma through ARG Horror and Analog Horror nowadays? Take The Walten Files, Local 58, and The Mandela Catalogue, for example.

I think horror has become one of the only safe and consumable space for catharsis: to expose, explore and heal our trauma.