He’s Fine, Can’t You Tell?

I don’t know why but when I’m alone, I’m forcing myself to not sleep, eat or do anything that normal human being needs.

I try not to be suicidal, but it seems that my mind just decided “hey, if you’re not doing it, I will”

And it’s not just physically, it’s like deep inside I want to ruin my life, to ruin everything that keeps me from ending myself. Why? Shouldn’t my brain make not wanna die?? Shouldn’t my subconsciousness try to prevent my death??

Omg he's SO CUTE! With or without glasses? Without

w/o or w/  👓 ?

actual footage of local man being bullied by ghosts

bow kid currently holds the brain cell. it goes back and forth

Ok, ok, this might sound crazy but just listen.

Do you know a song “Bird song”

The moment I heard it I thought: holy, this song is perfect for Steven and Steven is perfect for this song!

https://youtu.be/Jno8dow48NY

SPOILER ALERT, THE BUTTER IS SPOILED

When Steven shattered our favorite piece of... Jasper, he must have felt really guilty and a lot loooot more. But he surpassed all his thoughts and feelings about it trying to ignore it and find some kind of compromise with his emotions (guess, didnt work)

And he also was afraid of what everyone else will think about it.

***

“Well I didn't tell anyone, but a bird flew by

Saw what I'd done he set up a nest outside,

And he sang about what I'd become

He sang so loud, sang so clear

I was afraid all the neighbours would hear,

So I invited him in, just to reason with him

I promised I wouldn't do it again”

***

But those thoughts, guilt, anger, pain, they won’t go away no matter what. He keeps projecting those memories and thoughts that bother him, it’s like his mind or subconsciousness try to make him find help, make this pain go away, but he doesn’t listen to it.

***

“But he sang louder and louder inside the house,

And no I couldn't get him out

So I trapped him under a cardboard box

Stood on it to make him stop

I picked up the bird and above the din I said

That's the last song you'll ever sing

Held him down, broke his neck,

Taught him a lesson he wouldn't forget”

***

Even when he says he’s fine, he pretends that nothing of this ever happened, but...

***

“But in my dreams began to creep

That old familiar tweet tweet tweet”

***

It did.. it really did happen, and he can’t deny it any longer.

Everything he tried to hide, to “shove under the bed” and pretend it doesn’t exist. It all now hits him at once, making him realize how messed up is a situation he’s in. He doesn’t know what to do. He can’t lie, can’t pretend, can’t “play a role”. So there’s only Steven. And for Steven there’s nothing but a monster he think he became.

***

“I opened my mouth to scream and shout,

I waved my arms and flapped about

But I couldn't scream and I couldn't shout,

Couldn't scream and I couldn't shout

I opened my mouth to scream and shout

Waved my arms and flapped about

But I couldn't scream I couldn't shout,

The song was coming from my mouth”

***

This is a random rant about metal family

I think the amount of incest shippers there are of metal family is disgustingly high, you know? I mean, I have blocked an unbelievable amount of people on twitter and yet, damn, they just keep appearing.

Look, nothing against shipping, you do you, after all. I mean, of course I'm judging them for it, but honestly, me judging them for shipping underage, blood related sibling and drawing horribly explicit porn about them isn't gonna kill them, is it? I'm not hating on it either, I have never harased or send hate comments to any of the shippers. It's just... It makes me so so uncomfortable, it's grosses me out, I almost wanna vomit seeing the situations some people put the brothers in. And I try to block each user and avoid myself the bad experience, of course, but there's just SO many people that ship them that not seeing something related to it is just unavoidable.

And I get it, you know? The godamn show is called Metal Family, of course is gonna mainly involve people who are blood related, son, father, siblings, there's not a lot of character to ship together. But there are some of them, man!! There are various people who are not related and have great chemistry and you're still gonna go for the two underage brothers?? C'mon.

I just... Yeah. I hate it. And a lot of fans are there just for the incest porn and it's just... God. And a lot of them, who ship the brothers, but also like other characters, follow me and like my post and it's like, thank u man, glad you like what I post, I'm absolutely disgusted with u and the fact that u ship them but what is complaining about it gonna do? Me calling u out on it isn't gonna make u stop. I'd rather just block it so I don't have to see it. But there's so much of you that I can't even do that.

So, yeah.

[Bedtime Story]

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That’s rough, buddy…

I don’t take meds but I will still Reblog it If someone forgot.

Also, it reminds me of the song “Meds” by “Placebo”: https://youtu.be/WO9ewCO7TYI