Ok, Ok, This Might Sound Crazy But Just Listen.

Ok, ok, this might sound crazy but just listen.

Do you know a song “Bird song”

The moment I heard it I thought: holy, this song is perfect for Steven and Steven is perfect for this song!

https://youtu.be/Jno8dow48NY

SPOILER ALERT, THE BUTTER IS SPOILED

When Steven shattered our favorite piece of... Jasper, he must have felt really guilty and a lot loooot more. But he surpassed all his thoughts and feelings about it trying to ignore it and find some kind of compromise with his emotions (guess, didnt work)

And he also was afraid of what everyone else will think about it.

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“Well I didn't tell anyone, but a bird flew by

Saw what I'd done he set up a nest outside,

And he sang about what I'd become

He sang so loud, sang so clear

I was afraid all the neighbours would hear,

So I invited him in, just to reason with him

I promised I wouldn't do it again”

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But those thoughts, guilt, anger, pain, they won’t go away no matter what. He keeps projecting those memories and thoughts that bother him, it’s like his mind or subconsciousness try to make him find help, make this pain go away, but he doesn’t listen to it.

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“But he sang louder and louder inside the house,

And no I couldn't get him out

So I trapped him under a cardboard box

Stood on it to make him stop

I picked up the bird and above the din I said

That's the last song you'll ever sing

Held him down, broke his neck,

Taught him a lesson he wouldn't forget”

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Even when he says he’s fine, he pretends that nothing of this ever happened, but...

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“But in my dreams began to creep

That old familiar tweet tweet tweet”

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It did.. it really did happen, and he can’t deny it any longer.

Everything he tried to hide, to “shove under the bed” and pretend it doesn’t exist. It all now hits him at once, making him realize how messed up is a situation he’s in. He doesn’t know what to do. He can’t lie, can’t pretend, can’t “play a role”. So there’s only Steven. And for Steven there’s nothing but a monster he think he became.

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“I opened my mouth to scream and shout,

I waved my arms and flapped about

But I couldn't scream and I couldn't shout,

Couldn't scream and I couldn't shout

I opened my mouth to scream and shout

Waved my arms and flapped about

But I couldn't scream I couldn't shout,

The song was coming from my mouth”

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