If You’re At A Point Right Now Where You Don’t See Any Hope In The Future, Remember That The Future

I had a dream

someone I loved

had their heart ripped out.

We trusted the wrong person,

and they suffered for it.

I had a dream

i held them as they slept

praying for a pulse

head buried in their chest

I had a dream they shook awake

as if from a nightmare.

Their face said confusion

their eyes wild with panic

I had a dream I calmed them

Relief in my tears.

“You really were worried about me”

They said, weak smile on their lips.

I had a dream i held them in close

shaking in relief

their head on my chest

I slept

happiness kind of feels like an effervescent state of being that is endlessly removed from me

i still have hope though I suppose

life is good actually. fuck you.

once i saw a specter

inside a mirror.

i want to know if he was a memory

ah so i have ascended.

and i am not lonely up here in the sky.

Me and my pebble brain

i think so much of life is just finding out there are a thousand different ways to lose things.

ive been needing to say more words lately.

ive told my dear all the ones I needed to.

so now i shall say them here.

coalescence

heathen

fortuitous

darling

charismatically

prestidigitation

opal

conartist

preordained

okay. good enough for now. I’ll be back with some sunlight next time.

the novelty of having a pet will never wear off on me i’ve had animals my entire life for 23 entire years and i still sometimes stop and go holy fuck there is just a little guy in my house

my cat his ears are so pointy but his heart is so full....

nimona is the best movie i’ve ever seen and it was made for me personally.