I Wish I Could Make Them Happy

I’m so useless it’s embarasing, i feel like the only good thing i’ll be able to accomplish is killing myself

Nobody is afraid to lose me. I never mean that much.

I'm being forced to eat

I'm so sick I'm being forced to eat

But yea mom send me to school cause that makes sense

Oh not to mention I made a new friend(who I have a crush on but we're not getting into that dm if you want to know)if being told and "warned about me"that I'm a violent abusive person

Isn't my life just great😍😍😍

Okay so apparently I'm a mean abusive horrible person now 😍😍😍

Don't you just love when people attack you cause your stop being friends with them

And don't you love when the person attacking you wasn't even involved like me and her were good but I stopped being friends with you friends(one wrote a note to me that was just mean things about me and the other had been a bad friend since the 1 grade)

Don't you just love that for me😍😍😍😍🤩🤩

If sharks had vocal chords what sound do you think they'd make?

I feel like they would go rahhhhhhh

i was so naive covering my body with scars thinking that somebody would notice and care, now i know that nobody cares no matter how bad it is and now im left with my body covered in scars. all for nothing.

I'm homesick for arms that don't even want to hold me.

its okay. Its okay i know you hate me. Im so sorry. I only make things worse and im so sorry, i really did try my best to make everything so nice and perfect for you, but i know im cursed to only make things worse and for you to hate me and to never be loved. Theres nothing that could fix me and i deserve the loneliness i feel. Im so sorry i got so attached. Im so fucking stupid for thinking things can be okay when im involve with it. Im such a dumbass. I deserve to be killed. It would be the greatest mercy anyone could grant me. If i were to kill myself and succeed it would be the one thing in my life i ever did right. You deserve better. Im not good enough for you and im so sorry i made you like me for the idiot that i am. I want nothing more than to bash my brains in with a hammer and wish that the sight could make you smile one last time, because at least then i would still make you happy instead of being angry and disappointed with me.

i can see it in the way you text and write to me. You havent told me things were okay. I didnt mean to make things worse.

Please. Just kill me