It’s okay. Your desire to write will return. Your desire to do other things you love will come back, too. You’re not weak. You’re just having a hard time right now. Try not to add self-judgment on top of everything else. Depression is hard enough without blaming yourself for it.
We (in the US specifically) live in a productivity-obsessed, emotion-phobic culture which blames individuals for “failing” when they are anything but hyper-productive and relentlessly optimistic. This cultural narrative so pervasive that it’s difficult to see the high standards we set for ourselves for what they really are: Complete and total bullshit.
Despite the rampant cultural garbage that teaches us to interpret emotional ups and downs as an aberration, MANY writers and artists (and people in general!) struggle with depression and other mood “disorders.” It is not uncommon for us, among other things, to go through periods of hyperactivity followed by depressive episodes in which we get very little accomplished. I am not saying you shouldn’t try to alleviate your depression or work to find ways to minimize your suffering in the short or long term. I’m just saying there’s nothing wrong with you, and you aren’t alone.
I’m going to say that again:
If you’re having a hard time writing or enjoying writing right now because you’re depressed, you aren’t alone.
I wish I had some kind of magical answer. I don’t. But I do know that accepting your depression and loving yourself anyway beats the hell out of berating yourself for feeling like this. So, with that in mind, this might be all I have to offer:
I think you’re doing a great job. I’m sorry you feel like shit. I’m on your side whether you’re writing or not; whether you feel good or not; whether you’re being “productive” or not; whether you wanted to get out of bed this morning or not. You’re still a writer in my mind, even if you’re not writing right now. You don’t have to prove yourself to me or anyone else. And I hope you feel better soon.
stating to think there’s an inverse correlation between how good media is and how easily fandomizable it is 😁
Sharing drawings makes me happy. So, have some reshared drawings. :D
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"Mia kind of sucked actually" yeah geez she only grew up in a resentful death cult, got parentified at age 12, fled the only home she's ever known to avoid being pitted against that same sibling she had to raise, graduated law school alone, overcame trauma and depression to start a successful law firm alone in her mid-20's, and spent whatever free time she had researching emotionally painful cold cases and planning to take down a corrupt CEO. even if therapists existed in the trilogy (real therapy, not Athena's bs), when would Mia have had the time? she covered an incredible amount of ground just breaking free of Kurain and adapting to the world outside the village - again, without anyone she could entirely trust to catch her if she fell. but still, she changed and grew as a person in just the 3-year span we knew her. she got much better at managing her anxious and aggressive tendencies. she was more openly supportive toward Phoenix than any adult was to her. and she was literally TRYING to open up more to Phoenix and Maya on the night she died, by introducing those two halves of her life to each other despite the risks! if Mia Fey "sucked", then how high a standard should women be held to, hmm?
genuinely it is much better to let yourself feel bad when things creative wise doesn’t do well and remind yourself that it’s okay to feel like this just don’t let it determine your value instead of allowing it to put you in some creative burnout hole
So I've seen a lot of talk about pain scales. How there should be a special one for chronic pain patients or people who say they're 11 out of 10, etc.
The thing with pain scales though, they are supposed to be about the bodies reaction to pain. A pain scale is supposed to be about how to appropriately treat a patient. So if a person is a 10 from something you'd be a 6, their pain still needs to be treated in accordance to how it feels for the patient (in a perfect world). Your 5 may be another person's 9 but that's beyond the point. 10 is still the peak for the worst pain possible you can handle. Pain where you black out and can't speak. Where you go into shock. Where you can't do anything but lay there locked in agony. That is the peak for anyone period because that's where the body taps out. There shouldn't be extra numbers for chronic pain patients or anything. It defeats the purpose of pain scales. A good pain scale is about physical reactions with the body.
No pain scale is perfect but doctors need some way to gauge how to treat a patient. This one is the one I prefer the most because it is about the body's physical reaction to pain and the treatment for it.
Papier-Mâché Critters Traipse and Trot in Delighful Sculptures by Diana Parkhouse
//i rly want an Ace Attorney, Mia Fey game so i did a shitty dialogue exercise of Mia meeting her FANTASTIC ASSISTANT
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Brought this beautiful kitty home from the thrift store. It looks like an employee found her endearing, too.
(Image ID: A ceramic cat statue about 12 inches/30 centimeters tall, photographed from several angles. The cat is slender and off-white, sitting with her black-tipped paws tucked tightly together and her black tail wrapped around her body. She’s stretching upward as though trying to charm a person into petting her. She has artistic flourishes drawn all over her in a sketchy, ink-brush-like style — including a pink flower blossom on top of her head, a red heart on her chest, leaves down the back of her neck, and multi-coloured fish spilling plentifully up her lower back. Her eyelashes and whiskers are thickly lined in a way resembling mascara, and her human-like lips are red. A handwritten price sticker on the cat’s chest says, “She has a sore [left] ear :( $22″ She does indeed have a small chip missing from the tip of her left ear.)
something i appreciate about this site is how often i see friends, mutuals and strangers salivating over the most Some Guy looking people i’ve ever seen. i think it’s actually good for your psyche to see people carnally desire people that you would not even think twice about. it’s good for the self esteem, a good reminder that for every random ass person on the world there is a subset of people that wants to do unspeakable things to them