I Got A New Canopy :) This Totally Isn't An Excuse To Show Off My Favorite Stuffed Animals That I Keep

the universe is punishing me. Currently sobbing at 5 am over wiege. I have a cold, pink eye, and ear infection, period, and depressive episode all at once rn and then alien stage threw THAT on. Ohh hyuluka they make me sick/pos

I was a passionate till is alive truther but I am starting to lose hope. Fellow till is alive genuine believers do we see any hope he's alive and well after this. Well not well but ykwim.

AND HYUNA 💔💔💔 I EXPECTED THIS BUT HYUNA NO.

oh I'm gonna cry I'm gonna scream I'm gonna throw up I'm so upset right now oh my god. why did this have to be my hyperfixation this show ruins me

Edit: im more awake now and I'm still a till is alive truther I refuse to believe this man is dead. Also I miss Hyuna

One of my stims is spinning and I stimmed so hard I fell down and sprained my ankle. Why am I like this 💔

the elvis blog is getting to me. I was stimming a lot earlier (because I was excited about tomodachi life 2) and I was running in circles while repeating "woah mama" a bunch. it's a vocal stim now help

finally got a tumblr after a year of my husband telling me to get it, hello people of tumblr :)

@birbwithapen I love you mwa /r

So i made one of my irls read school bus graveyard, and she's been reading it in car rides and during free time at school. She just finished it a few minutes ago, actually. And she keeps hitting me with the most foul jokes in the middle of class today.

like uh here's some things I can remember, idk I'm brainfogged from overstimulation so there's probably more.

teacher: "anyone got any guesses on how to pronounce this word?"

friend: *pulls out her phone and pulls up the picture of tyler getting fucking impaled and puts it in my face*

me: "hematop- [HER NAME]."

me: "uuggh, my head feels like it's vibrating..."

friend: "like aidens?"

me: "wha- NO. FOUL."

please help /j

me and them ! btw ! if you even care !

(If they see this post I might die BUT WHATEVER I LOVE MY S/O-)

oomf posted about jason grace a bit too close to the sun and is now being haunted by jason grace himself and it's so fucking funny to me

@ruddigerspawss how does it feel to be haunted /j

okay random question do any other people w/ POTS have their legs randomly collapse under them and they fall to the ground, or do I need to get checked out for something else-

im bored and currently hyperfixated on both alnst and tma so why not assign the alien stage main cast fears they would be avatars of.

spoilers for alien stage up to round 7 + the magnus archives up to 111 (I am only on mag 192, please don't spoil the ending of tma for me i beg of you ;-;)

also I got this idea from looking through the yourfaveisanavatar blog so credits to them

Mizi is difficult but I believe she could be an avatar of the slaughter. I mean, she was driven by her mental state into attacking Luka in round 5. According to the wiki, the slaughter manifests as people driven mad by slaughter. Mizi kinda has been if you think about it. Idk, Mizi was hard.

Sua seems like an avatar of the lonely to me. She doesn't really speak with anyone except Mizi, social isolation i guess. I feel like I also remember hearing people say the lonely can come across as people who seem sorta... blank. Sua is like that in a way? Hard to explain. Idk, I'm struggling with Sua despite being a Sua fan just because we don't know a ton about her. ;-;

Ivan is an avatar of the corruption. I know, hear me out, because corruption is usually bugs and mold and stuff... but corruption can also manifest as unhealthy love and companionship. His unhealthy love and attachment to Till is a big part of Ivan's character, making me think he could be an avatar of the corruption.

Till is an avatar of the desolation to me. I know he hasn't particularly been portrayed with any fire, yeah, but the desolation also manifests as destruction of potential. Round two, anyone? I mean.. he quite literally destroyed the potential of his opponent, not allowing them a chance.

Luka is an avatar of the spiral and no one can change my mind. Luka has manipulated Mizi and Till, he messes with their head, making them question reality. See Sua and Ivan, the people they've lost. That's the whole point of the spiral, a mindfuck. Feeling like your mind is lying to you. Seeing shit. So I think Luka could easily be a spiral avatar.

Hyuna is an avatar of the hunt, maybe? I'm not too sure for her ngl. She doesn't really classify as any of the avatars.

Anyways thank you for coming to my autistic rant ted talk.