“I have always loved too much, or not enough.”
— Dorianne Laux
I wish I had a best friend.
I wish I had a best friend but I can't tell anyone that because I have so many amazing friends.
But all of my amazing friends have best friends and significant others and they all have that one person who they put above everyone else and who puts them above everyone else too.
And it's not me.
And I wish I had a best friend.
No one talks about how lonely it is to be the third wheel in a friendship. Or the 11th wheel in a friend group
The people I consider myself closest to are best friends. They celebrated one of their birthdays without me.
I wished her a happy birthday and told her I missed her. She's in college, i haven't seen her since she graduated. She said she missed me too. But she didn't invite me to her party.
I wonder sometimes if my friends even like me. But then I remember that's silly. I know they love me. I guess they just don't love me as much as they love each other.
And God i know it has nothing to do with me. You can't control who you connect with. But for once I just wish it would be me!
Am I too much? Am I a pick me for wanting to be picked?
What's so wrong with wanting to be wanted?
Sobbing. I need to be needed. I need the intimacy of it. Let me worship you
Okay nobody send me death threats. It's not that serious! Here are my Marauders Hot Takes:
• Jily and WolfStar are the best ships
• I love Jegulus but it doesn't make sense in canon, but almost nothing else does anyway so who cares
• The marauders would've bullied people in real life because they bullied people in canon- I do think they also would've grown up and apologized for it (except maybe Sirius)
• Snape is a flawed complex character but he bullied children and that will never be okay. He's also literally racist and misogynistic so..
• Harry is a better person than James. He wasn't perfect, but he didn't bully anyone (only had petty rivalries) and was angry when he found out how James treated Snape and that Sirius still thought it was funny. Harry also literally payed for Fred and George to start their business. I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL HARRY IS JUST BETTER
• I will never read All The Young Dudes. I'm sorry. I just don't want to read it
• Rosekiller is a fun ship but you cannot make them good people. Barty literally killed his father in cold blood. Headcanons are fine, but it's just better and more likely that they chose their side of the war knowingly and willingly.
• Sirius is an asshole. He has so many good qualities, but he's an asshole. When he's watered down to just sad, or just fun it's never as good. He needs flaws. That goes for all the marauder
All this being said, write what you want. Read what you want. Enjoy what you like. It's just fiction and fandom and I really don't take it as seriously as this sounds
made this gem on Sunday. had to wait all week to post it
Words from On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous by Ocean Vuong
I need to start actually reading comics so here's me asking what to start with and recs! I would like to read DC, Superman, Batman, and Robin, Young Justice, Wonder Woman, Green Lantern! I know there is a lot out there so I need help sorting through it!
I’m not joking fiddlestan is genuinely such a good ship and I will die on that hill
Both of them were rejected by Ford in a way— he pushed Fiddleford AND Stan away for his own pursuits (his muse/Bill and University)
And as a result both Stan and Fiddleford were so desperate to rekindle that relationship that they didn’t realize how poorly they were treated by Ford in the first place
And then they seek comfort in each other bc the other represents all of the GOOD parts of Ford and yet they lack his flaws and they both grieve him tg
(NOT TO MENTION au where Stan pretends to be Ford in front of McGucket bc that’s a whole other can of worms tjeislfmsowle)
Idk man I could get into the angsty details ig but idk I love them
I love @hemlock-dreams Hunting!Spider au! I'm so obsessed!
(The text says "you underestimated the power of my cheerful optimism")
"Name your children after your favorite things"
Me: good night "the subplot from Paragon where Alana gives Will's dogs up for adoption and then Will hates her in a petty way for the rest of the story"
Same. My heart breaks about it. The angst possibilities are endless. More homeless Stan please 🙏
Girl Help, I can't stop thinking about Stan's drifter years
Pretty much I'm pretending to be a poet but really I'm just obsessed with stuff. she/her.. 18 (1-19-07).. ENFP
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