Sent My Friend My Unpublished, Unfinished House MD Fic And They Don’t Watch House MD So The Fact They

Currently making a list of male actors (specifically how they looked in the 90s) that I both want to dominate and also view as transition goals and the list is EMBARRASSING so obv I’m going to share it:

1) James Spader but specifically him in the movie Crash (this is a VERY new development)

2) Robert Sean Leonard (I swear this is NOT connected to my House MD hyperfixation trust me bro)

3) Thomas Gibson :)

4) Robin Williams in The Birdcage (his wardrobe and mustache are everything to me)

5) Richard Belzer (rip)

Pls rb with suggestions and ridicule

Thinking about how every antidepressant I’ve been on has done one of three things:

1) Nothing

2) Worked

3) Made me shit my pants

New greeting unlocked

Only way to get his attention these days

Trying to talk to my mom about the fact that I have bipolar disorder and am still coming off a manic episode and an example I used to try and show her that I am currently Not Feeling Normal is that I went from being a cunt that needs a nap if I don’t get at least 10 hours of sleep to being wired and completely fine after spending 2.5 weeks only getting 4 hours or less of sleep per night

She deadass looked into my autistic eyes and said that’s because my iron levels are (theoretically) leveling out after several years of dealing an bad iron deficiency “so now I have the energy of a normal person”

This feels like when a person comes out as bisexual or nonbinary and their parent is like “well everyone feels that way, you’re not queer”

Sometimes I sit in public staring off into the void thinking about my transphobic father

Other times, usually immediately after, I see shit like this and start laughing so hard I attract unwanted stares in the coffee shop:

It’s all about balance

Thing that never happened that would drive me insane: House calling Wilson “pretty boy” to make fun of him bc he likes how flustered Wilson gets about it and one day Wilson calls House “stud” or some corny shit and they just keep going back and forth with those names for several weeks and everyone’s like “please fuck already I can’t handle this” and then they do :)

I need it

The air smells like neglecting my sleep schedule and skipping class to reread my favorite books and quitting my job and writing until I can’t feel my fingers and telling my friends that I love them so much that it gives me heartburn and eating the same three meals because they taste so fucking good and cracking jokes that’ll make people uncomfortable and—

Y’all ever just wake up from a dead sleep, craving the need to craft and/or feel productive, then realize that because of the time of night there is nothing that can be done?

Then do y’all find some stickers, a fresh, still sealed notebook, AND a pen? All in the drawers of your nightstand?

Evil writing time >:)

Whenever I get too obsessed with a show i literally start dreaming fake episodes and then have to wake up and check to see if it was a real episode or not

So when I was deep into 9-1-1 a few years ago (mostly for Buddie) I had a dream where Buck was having a panic attack or something and Eddie was holding him being like “you’re safe, you’re okay, I got you” or whatever and then Buck just like…kissed Eddie???? And then I woke up

But now with what I’ve been seeing online about the most recent episodes I feel like this is a plausible scenario????

Am I a prophet????

Hype as hell bc I’m going to a writing conference this summer and I’ve never gone to one before so I thought I’d have to prepare a portfolio or something but this one explicitly says not to do that and that we are only working on new material written in the conference’s workshops and I love that for me