Fyi the reason for this is this amazing evil x themed discord server by @autistic-evil-xisuma that i recently joined :D
Alr my evil x hyperfixation is getting out of control. Time to spam my tumblr with evil x content.
Building a lil miniature house for school, anyone got suggestions of what i should add? Preferably a hermitcraft reference / easter egg bc i feel like that could be rly funny...
(i mainly need ideas for the garden & surrounding forest ill be building :D)
I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of "I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won't do anything all day!"
But no one seems to make the connection that it's a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.
Can I go to the store? It's 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON'T KNOW!
I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I'm aware that I don't know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I've been like "hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that'll take like 15 minutes!" and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.
Plus there's also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.
Like, let's say you decide to play a video game. You've got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it's 2:49 and you haven't showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you're asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)
And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it's great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You've got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you're getting stuff done you've been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.
You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don't have the drive to write them down. You can't force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You've left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.
So next time you don't even start. There's not time. You've been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?
My point is that people seem to be going "lol I can't do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm" like this is a quirky "oh I'm so scatterbrained!" weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.
(and that's not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you're going to avoid them. Even when it's things like "going to that party" or "meeting your friends for a drink/game" or "going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class". Things you should enjoy. Things that'd help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)
Currently trying to figure out the chronological order for wolau...
Im trying to base.. Certain "events" off of the life series right
BUT I NEED STH THAT HAPPENS DURING SECRET LIFE TO HAPPEN EARLY ON AAAA (aka grian and effo teaming up w/ the warden and wither)
So now im just like. Making lists of things and trying to put it in the right order LMFAO
Also shortening some stuff bc... I feel like what i currently have would "drag on" for too long, so i gotta fix the pacing a bit. I wanna finsih planning out most of it before i post anything else cause i tend to be indecisive and don't wanna accidentally lie LMFAO-
It's my birthday today :D yippeee!!!
GUESS WHAT JUST ARRIVED!!!
MUMBO JUMBO BIG RON MERCHHHH! LETS GOOOO!!
GUYS IT'S TIME, IT FINALLY HAPPENED!!!
I POSTED THE FIRST CHAPTER FOR HERMITCRAFT/LIFE SERIES AU/FIC ON AO3!!! Its also my birthday today so i think u all should go check out my fic and reblogg this post as a present yep yep. /hj (id appreciate it a lot if u did :D)
This chapters artwork:
[Day 29]: Hypno!
Decided to just do a quick colored sketch today :D except then i accidentally started rendering... Eh it still counts as a sketch! Kind of. I think. Maybe. :(
Istg this happens every time. I go "alr just a sketch today", i blink, and suddenly multiple hours have passed and i have a fully rendered piece with a background??? Like? I wonder why that happens... (looks at my adhd diagnosis) i cant think of any reasons why /s/j
LUCKILY! I did actually manage to convince myself to only spend an hour drawing instead of the usual.... 5 to 10 hours... (i mainly do traditional art so my digital art process is still VERY slow and VERY tedious... It's been getting better tho!)
(Quote from Scars charity stream, WHICH U SHOULD RLY GO WATCH!)
Impulse: "Wait hold on, this looks a lot like those Etho statues... Did you build those? Cause we r still trying to solve that-"
Grian: "Etho definitely built those"
LMFAO I DIDNT EXPECT THE SMALLETHO LORE TO BE MENTIONED WHEN NEITHER OF THEM ARE HERE
Joel rly said "Gosh, Etho is so obsessed with me 🙄" after receiving mail from him, and then proceeds to put said mail in a bookshelf next to his bed where he "keeps all of Etho's letters"
???? Sir????
Hypothetically, if i made a painting of a lemontree, what hermit should i add to it