Incredible

specifically HER

idgaf that her family doesn't see her as a woman

idgaf that the world doesn't see her as a woman

she is my woman

(i wish)

she is the prettiest woman i know

ahhhh i love love love women

so much so much

crazy

put me in the psych ward again, idgaf, it wont change anything

change my meds, put me on antipsychotics, make me do therapy 4 times a week, make me drink more water, make me go outside more, it doesn't fucking work.

im crazy no matter what. no treatment will help or change it at all, and dont you dare say that im not trying hard enough it doesn't work. ever.

yes but its me

AHHHHH

i have a math test this morning. first period. i did not study over the weekend. its on sine/cosine/tangentss. my graphing calculator is not charged. i had to wake up at 5:30 to make a notes sheet.

got a new diagnosis

got diagnosed with an ED last night, so lets do some safe foods! (non body image based, spd based, although i do hate my body)

if a picky american child (6 years old) would eat it, there's a good chance i will too. name a food in the comments and i'll tell you if i'll eat it or not.

for consistently safe foods/meals:

strawberry smoothie and tortilla chips

grilled steak and rice

cucumber salad (chopped into quarters, with balsamic vinegar, olive oil, and a lot of salt)

plain quesadilla (flour tortilla, mexican blend cheese. thats it)

mac+cheese and ground beef (not mixed together, i eat them separately)

and pretty much nothing else. my spice tolerance is that of a nordic viking. (but i don't eat fish. or any kind of seafood)

wish i had more motivation

literally in the middle of math class rn

sister

omg i love my sister so much she is so cool and awesome and amazing shes so cool

shes 22, we have a 7 year age gap (im 14) and for the first 10 years of my life i hated her and she hated me but we've moved past that and now she told me she thinks im kinda cool!!

some things about my sister:

she is a stoner (used to smoke a lot but now just does edibles)

she takes the LSATS for fun (her highest score was like a 172 or something)

she is VERY COOL (self explanitory)

she called me a tranny for like 3 years before i came out, and it was really annoying bc she could call me a tranny but i couldn't call her it back (SHE IS TRANS DONT COME FOR HER SHE IS AMAZING AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH)

she loves me

I LOVE HER SO MUCH

"i really don't get it. i busted my ass for two years so i would be so overqualified i would be a shoe-in and they just, didn't even consider me? like didnt even fucking call my references?"

my bb nooo i love you you're overqualified they're transphobic assholes

necessary for you all to see

WEEE!! WEEEE!!! WEEE!!! YAYYY!! YIPPIE! WAHOO! AWAWAWA!!! WEE WEE WAA WAA WAA! ZWEEM !! BABABABA! YAHOOO WEE YAY WYEE !! WEWEWEE!!

my sister told me that i couldnt say tranny bc im an enby... i asked her if that meant she thought i wasnt trans enough... SHE FUCKING SAID YES. idgaf that it was originally used against trans women, its been used against me countless times, i think i deserve to say something that has been hurled at me in hate. (also dont come after her, shes trans too)

"trans men can't use tranny, that's a slur for trans women!" "trans men can't use t4t because it was originally meant for trans lesbians!" you sound like a chronically online 14 year old 'queer activist' tiktoker who thinks that bigotry always stays on target and that queerness can be neatly put into boxes

radfems / terfs get blocked on sight. i'm not going to argue with you or try to explain things you don't care to try to understand.