It’s Been Over Five Months Since I Watched The Mentalist’s Season Four Ending And I STILL Am Not

i really wish just SOME writers on tv right now had the like, really intrinsic, focused understanding of faith and religion that's present in person of interest, with Root's devotion to the machine, to the ideal of cybernetic enhancement, but also like. to HAROLD by extension

like the way she sees harold as her father in some ways because she sees him as THE father, not bc she sees him as a father FIGURE, not because she needs or wants his approval or his parenthood, but bc he is the originator of a GOD, her god

LIKE IT'S JUST. SUCH A FASCINATING DYNAMIC

like i fucking wish that anyone who wrote for a fantasy show with ACTUAL paladins and witches w faith etc had this level of depth or complexity in their presentation or exploration of the feelings involved bc i love it

and what if i dropped my hyperfixation-induced ethan hunt character study from last year….? what then?

UMMMMMMMMM ???????? am literally going to freak out flip a table throw my foot through a wall who knows but I AM SO EXCITED. and alas no one will care so here i come to tumblr to word vomit my feelings.

ANYWAY. as no one knows but now you do, i'm going to see bjm on october 28th at psych fest / levitation. AS WELL AS THE DANDY WARHOLS. and i was like hmmmm, i wonder what bjm's setlist looks like for levitation, bc usually they only play their recent music. well let me tell you my jaw DROPPED when i looked it up on youtube. their austin setlist?? FUCKING STACKED. at least it was ten years ago. super-sonic, wisdom, you have been disconnected, vacuum boots, oh lord ( with the dandy warhols, and if anton and courtney play together again i will literally fucking die on the spot ), servo, GOT MY EYE ON YOU??? and yes yes i know matt hollywood won't be around for this but if they play something off of strung out in heaven i might actually start sobbing. like i've already accepted that i'm going to cry during this concert bc it'll be one of the best days of my entire life, but full on sobbing my eyes out ?? may just happen. my poor friend gyna is never going to see me the same bc i'm gonna be the only one ugly crying over a psychedelic rock band that no one gives a shit about. WELL I DO. clearly.

anyway the very idea that they may play some of these songs, or literally ANY OLD SONGS AT ALL, is hyping me up so much i can't even describe how fucking excited i am. like this is more excitement than joel gion's memoir. and if they play goddamn super-sonic, i'm not just going to cry, i'm going to scream.

now i've said it before and i'll say it again : i'm not gonna be the same person after october 28th. i will be fundamentally changed as a human being. THAT'S a promise.

still thinking about marius and taylor …. the innate hopelessness of a relationship that was always doomed to fail… the way their dynamic could’ve been saved had marius just admitted what he did, but like the stubborn and distrustful asshole he is, he kept that info to himself! and look what happened! taylor honest to god tried to rectify things and was even willing to give marius a chance, was willing to forgive him, but marius continued to lie. i think it’s really interesting because it’s not something that marius would ever be used to…? like, this is a guy who lies to everyone and rarely reaps the consequences of doing so, even with his brother—who also lies straight to his face, multiple times throughout the show. marius doesn’t particularly care if people lie to him and isn’t accustomed to being around people who need him to admit he lied in order to forgive him. either the deed is forgiven/brushed off without another word (such as with marius and eddie), or the relationship is ruined because of the lie. i don’t think there’s ever been any in-between, wherein marius could save a relationship by admitting his wrongdoings. so when taylor offers that as an option, of course marius doesn’t take it! he isn’t used to that, and he’s a skeptic at heart. plus he kinda sorta despises taylor. why should he beg for forgiveness? but what i think he doesn’t realize is that you can’t escape from family, certainly not this one, and when those sorts of relationships are ruined, it ripples through everything and creates lots and LOTS of consequences. and unfortunately, having taylor as an enemy is not a good time!

Blackstar for warriorstober

new bjm is like a gift from god. a spiritual awakening. i will never get over how much i love this band

watching shows with your partner will change you …… tell me why i’ve never ever given a singular shit about sayid or ana lucia and somehow, in some way, my bf liking them makes me actually enjoy their characters. CRAZY

i do not want to see these umbrella academy fans try to compare the feeling of that ending to lost’s ending …. do not piss me off pls

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