My Food Scale's Batteries Went Empty And I Don't Think We Have The Right Ones At Home So I Can't Change

Having a g

Girlfriend that I can visjr at any time would fix me

we could kiss kisandhugs and kissedss a then hug sna d cuddle and ksis mmrrre

I kinda came out to my friends yesterday? We were talking about celebrity crushes and I mentioned that I used to have a huge crush on Katy Perry, and my friends were just "Oh Really?" but they were cool with it and I'm so glad... It's just the next morning we did some kind of blind karaoke thing and my one friend was like "I got the perfect song for you!" And it was a Katy Perry song but one which I didn't recognized 😭

So that was kinda embarrassing but whatever

I'm so upset right now, because I've planned out every food I was going to eat for the day and it's been going so well, but now my parents insist they make something for the entire family to eat for dinner, and even if it's soup (and slightly lower in calories than what I would've had otherwise) I'm really quite angry I couldn't follow through with my plan :(

Also, I have no way to count the calories of what my parents cook and that makes it scary no matter what it is, but hey- they're making just soup

If alcohol bad then why so tasty? Why it make me happy :(

Now I WOULD definitely OMAD a bottle of wine

I'm going to the store after school today yay :D

I think I'm just going to buy some protein bars and sf energy drinks and gum... I may buy some corn/rice cakes as well and look for new safe foods in general, if I have time... Man, I haven't been shopping like this in a while and I'm more excited than grocery shopping probblably justifies to be lol

Any suggestions on what else I could look for?

I just had the most intense ed nightmare.

I was in the living room just practicing some sort of gymnastic exercise - idk why I don't do gymnastics - and my parents had friends over and they just kept talking about how much weight they were losing and how much better they felt now that they're skinny. I got angrier and sadder and at some point I kinda snapped and yelled, "You guys know I'm still here as well?" and they kind of laughed and my Mom just have me really pitiful look and then told the entire group that she hoped that I would have at least one summer during which I'll feel skinny and confident. Like. What. And then she called me fat and insecure and I just scrambled to the bathroom crying trying to find my blades.

It took me a hot minute after waking up to realize that didn't actually happen.

Wtf honestly

Do i hate it when people worry about me? Hell yea! Does it feel nice to know that someone gives a shit about me/notices that i'm getting worse? YES!

I get so mad when my friends tell me like “omg I ate so little today, im anorexic” or “im soooo hungry i haven’t eaten breakfast”

Shut up. Literally shut up. I’ve been fasting for 3 days.

wearing my hair open makes my face look slim but shearing it in a ponytail makes me look morr masculine.... Decisions, decisions, all of them wrong