“Alone With Your Thoughts” (Candy X Castiel)

I can literally recall 90% of my classmates using "buzi" as a slur + if a girl looks "boy-ish" or vice versa, they will get called the other gender like. and? is that supposed to be an insult? what????

and granted, these kids took it from home, because no matter how legal it used to be to talk about LGBT+ stuff so far, there was literally no mention of them in school or anything similar. in movies and books from the West? sure, but that's all

(I just randomly remembered "Coming Out" and OH GOD, do I hate that movie with all my heart. I seriously consider it homophobic, though I always got shut down when I mentioned it to someone, because it's "such a cute and lovely movie, how can you hate it". yeah sure, it's lovely :))

favorite memory from prime mcl time?

I... don’t really know what you mean as “prime MCL time”? but I guess HSL, since I know many people enjoyed that season the most

sadly, I wasn’t here around that time. I started playing in 2016 (I think? I don’t remember anymore), then stopped when UL aired (I got mad at losing Kentin, okay???? 😭). I only came back around a year ago and that’s when I really joined the fandom as well

I don’t know if this counts as “favourite memory”, but the expos and goodies (including the mangas) are something I really miss, even if I haven’t personally experienced them, they sound truly amazing! also, not an exact memory as well, but I 100% support the change of the art style (illustrations and sprites); they look much better this way

as much as I quit because of UL, I’m a bit sad that I wasn’t part of the fandom then, since I can still see so many posts from that time. amazing fanarts, fanfictions, the fans interacting with each other... it might be because there are less things from the HSL era on Tumblr, but for me it seems like the golden time of the fandom was during UL

so yeah, I don’t have many memories and I’m also not sure I understood and answered your question correctly 😂 if not, I’m sorry, my brain is completely drained

You are kind, have lots of interesting ideas, and I am glad to mett you here.

.....you do know I will spend the rest of my existence trying to find out who you are, right??

on a more serious note, THANK YOU. I don’t know about the kind part, but I must admit I have many cursed interesting ideas

not me sitting in one place for 5 mins, listening to the car radio and then suddenly being inspired to write a bandit!Castiel & sheriff!Nath story

someone help me get my life together

Eldarya

last updated: 25th December 2024

HEADCANONS

Ezarel:

soft spot / weakness; pregnancy / birth; favourite types of kissing; domestic life

Lance:

touching; favourite type of kissing

first kiss; bathing / showering

injured; domestic life

first time; pregnancy / birth

soft spot / weakness; touching NSFW

being a father; being jealous; his reaction to Guardian sacrificing herself

cuddling

first date; awkward moment

crying; what turns him on

complications during pregnancy

Leiftan:

cuddling; kissing; touching

Nevra:

fighting; undressing; what turns him on

injured; pregnancy / birth; domestic life

crying; bathing / showering; soft spot / weakness

cuddling; training; touching

kissing; favourite types of kissing

first kiss; first time; being jealous

complications during pregnancy

ONESHOTS

Lance:

Valentine's Day event 2021 - continuation

Day of Forgiveness

Leiftan:

Valentine's Day event 2021 - continuation

Nevra:

Valentine's Day event 2021 - continuation

I have an Instagram now! for uh, no specific reason, really

okay, joking aside, I really love IG's story function and everywhere I go, I miss it. so I will most likely use it as a kind of place where I can share updates? who knows, we will see

I made a uqiz! Which MCL student are you?

Eldarya Valentine’s Day 2021 continuation - Nevra

I wanted to do something for Otome Haven's VD event, and I came up with this. I might write the other 3 as well because I have ideas, but I don’t know if anyone’s interested

Words: 240

Guardian's P. O. V.

I was sitting on the sandy beach with a strand of my hair between my hands, squeezing the water out of it. I didn’t think I’d go for a swim in the sea today, but that little Boltue had different plans. It was right though; the weather was quite sunny and warm despite spring just starting, the water was calm and I had just the perfect company...

I looked at Nevra, who was still playing with the companions. His wet hair covered most of his face, but I could see his childlike smile nevertheless as he splashed the water with his hands. He turned to me as if he has sensed my stare, and invited me back in the water. I was reluctant, but he didn't accept “no” as an answer.

“This day is yours as well, you worked hard” he threw me a wink that finally convinced me. I got up and made my way back to him, the waves getting higher and higher on my legs.

“I was just about to get dry, you know that, right?” I smacked his shoulder playfully. When my hand reached him, he took it and pulled me closer, planting a kiss on my lips while embracing me.

“And I really love you and enjoy time spending with you, you know that, right?”

We couldn’t spend our whole day there, but we did have a lot of fun, leaning on each other from weariness and laughter on our way home.

In angry oceans you’ve never broken, Through every wave of the storm you are my anchor

my favourite thing is how you never gave up Priya, even while being in this mess, my favourite writing from you is either “does he touch you like this?” or “phone sex”, I can’t choose, sowwy

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2017 - 2018 - 2018 - 2019 - 2020

For 2020 I didn’t the board with a drawing from every month to show my growing, but I wanted to do something else related with my grow and I always wanted to do something like this, so I am doing it kkkkk 

Neshaa is the character that since when I started was my personal challenge and, at the same time, my main source of proud. It’s through her that anyone can see my grow, see my struggle, my mistakes and my screamly changes. She’s like that mark that I hit again and again at least once in a year, in a way that May, who came far after, couldn’t. 

2020 was the year when I stopped drawing, I felt stuck, I still feel stuck… but I stopped and I’ve decided that 2021 I would go back, I would start again. But to start again, I needed to look back a little bit and find value once again in the artist that I always wanted to be. 

I hope 2021 I mark another step through her too. And this post is a reminder to myself that even if I started from low, from the bottom, I need to just keep climbing, I will not see the changes at first, but the longer I keep going, soon they will come into view and I will know. Just like I know when I put all of those together and side to side.