“no More Half Loves” By Chloë Frayne

I’ve wanted to make some original magical girls for a while, so I decided to draw one girl each week during this month. Meet the first one, Carmilla.

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You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

Mahou Shoujo Fuyu Commission

Gave me good feelings

Sometimes I just feel hopeless about all of the trauma I carry. I have ongoing issues with inflammatory injuries and I know that’s linked to long-term stress, as are a bunch of other diseases. And so many of my responses to things and how I see the world are colored by the way I experienced life as a kid and it just makes me feel like I’m never going to be normal. I crave but am terrified of intimacy of any kind, and this was only worsened by emotional trauma as a teen and young adult. I just feel constantly detached, like I’m not quite a part of things, and like what even is the point if I’m never going to experience life normally anyway? Like I know no one has a “normal” experience but come on. It seems like I’m never going to be able to enjoy things the way it seems everyone else does, like I’m just going to constantly feel like the walking wounded, never quite able to open up or keep up. Idek this isn’t even making any sense. I’m just feeling pretty mournful over everything today.

i haven’t seen anyone post these yet, the tropical rouge precure website updated with an official synopsis and character bios! here they are (there may be slight inaccuracies because this is via google translate with edits for grammar to make it more readable, i did my best)

Series synopsis:

I’m a first year who transferred from a junior high school in the city this spring!

The day I moved to my new home on this island, I met a secret at the sea. The girl’s name is “Laura”, and in fact… she’s a “mermaid”!

“Grand Ocean, the land of mermaids” in the sea was deprived of “motivation power” by the “Witch of Mawashi” who lives at the bottom of the dark sea, and everyone lost motivation. If human motivation is lost, the world will be in trouble…!

That’s why Laura came to the land alone in search of “Legendary Warrior Pretty Cure”.

Meanwhile, after appearing on land, Laura is caught by the servant of the witch who turns around and is in a big pinch!

Cure Summer / Manatsu Natsumi

A first-year junior high school student who is as bright as the everlasting summer sun and motivated to do various things!

The type whose body moves before thinking, “Let’s do the most important thing now!” At any time.

On the day I moved from my hometown of Minami Nojima to Aozora City, I had a shocking encounter with Laura, a “mermaid” in the sea.

I cherish the lipstick that my mother gave me. The habit is “Tropica!”.

Her “Lip” charm point transforms her into “Cure Summer”!

Birthday: August 1st

Favorite thing: Everything tropical, school

Cure Coral / Sango Suzumura

I just love cute things, and I’m a fashionable first year!

Manatsu’s classmate. A type who can be kind to others and can get along with anyone immediately.

My house is a cosmetics shop in the city, and I know a lot about makeup and cosmetics.

Her “Cheek” charm point transforms her into “Cure Coral”!

Birthday: May 9th

Favorite things: Collecting cute things, makeup

Cure Papaya / Minori Ichinose

A very knowledgeable second year middle school student who likes to read books!

Honor student with the highest grade in the class. A type who has a poker face and doesn’t show much emotion, but holds herself firmly.

She has loved “Mermaid Princess” since she was a child and is familiar with the legends and stories of mermaids.

Her “Eyes” charm point transforms her into “Cure Papaya”!

Birthday: November 21st

Favorite thing: Reading a book

Cure Flamingo / Asuka Takizawa

A third-year junior high school student with a strong sense of justice and excellent motor skills!

At first glance, she’s cool and you want to get closer to her, and she’s an older sister who takes good care of her juniors.

In fact, there are some surprising aspects to her such as being good at playing cute animal games and cooking.

Her “Hair” charm point transforms her into “Cure Flamingo”!

Birthday: October 15th

Favorite things: Physical activity, cooking

Laura

A “mermaid” girl from the mermaid country, Grand Ocean!

Manatsu and her are the same age. A self-confident person who can honestly say whatever she thinks.

In order to fulfill my dream of becoming the next Queen of Grand Ocean, I came to look for “Legendary Warrior Pretty Cure”.

As a supporter of the Precure, she will live on land with Manatsu.

Favorite thing: Singing a song

Kururun

A sea fairy from the Grand Ocean. The mermaid queen’s pet.

You can always relax at your own pace. Its bark is “Kururun ~!”

Favorite things: Shellfish cookies

I have a huge problem of always saying that I will be better and never actually being. I’ve been my entire life waiting for God’s magical power of changing to follow on me. I’ve been always waiting for the morning I would wake up and be a good person and it never came, it never happen. It is hard to be so self-conscious, it is hard to be all the time waiting to be good all the time, to be perfect all the time, to never be aggressive, to never make anyone sad, to be always the perfect human being that never commits mistakes. 

And honestly it is not because of this text that I will be better but maybe one day I will wake up and magically be perfect or be magically not giving two fucks about being perfect or not 

Day 4 is celestial!! I really wanted to bring back my fav from last year’s mermay for this one!!

How did you decide to scientist? How you start works? And what did you do for that ?

Question: How did you decide to be a scientist? How did you start work? And what did you do for that?