MCSM - Radar X Stella (Doodle Redrawn)

MCYT - Dance (Skephalo ver.) by Pixiemafia137 on DeviantArt

In some fandoms, people may be offended by shipping art, so here is a link to a recent fanart exclusively on my DA. Be sure to read the description before sending feedback. Credits for the designs can also be found there. 

Vent- Why am I always the Bad Guy?

Sorry, guys, I know it's random and it seems like I'm just rambling about nonsense but I just really need to get my feelings out right now. Please understand. 

     Why am I always the bad guy? I am always willing to listen to my acquaintances, friends, teachers, and of course, my family. They could be complaining or crying over the most randomness of things, but I still listen to them and keep my comments to myself because I know it would not be kind to say in a time like that. However, the tables turn when it comes my time to ask for support or someone to talk to. Everyone plays the "woe is me" card and wants me to bust out the violin for them. They start to make me feel bad and sure, on the outside it looks as though I'm coping with my issues just fine, but in reality, you all don't know how much your non sympathy truly hurts me. You make me feel as if I am a little kid whose opinion and feelings don't matter. Obviously, you don't seem to understand that I am a person just like all of you and that I will have thoughts and emotions because I am a 16 year old teenager. 

     You may think, "Oh, you're being stupid, just brush it off." Well, it's not easy for me to brush off crap like this especially when you try to guilt-trip me and make me feel horrible like I'm being rude to you when all I'm asking is for some support. That's what your family and friends are here for, they support you, not shove you away like you don't matter! I guess you could also argue "We only want what's best for you though. You should be grateful!" Oh, don't get me wrong, I am grateful for what I have. What more could I even ask for? I have many things that not all kids get to have, a roof over my head, food to put in my gullet, a school willing to give me education, a nice car, and even the opportunity to go to trading school. Heck, colleges from all over the country are requesting me to be one of their future students. I am extremely grateful for all this, I tell you that. However, let me address one of these things as an example of what I'm trying to say. 

     You can argue with me "I only want what's best for you." Yes, I understand you want what's best for me, but also take into consideration at least a little, is that really what I want though? Recently, I was accepted into trading school for a biomedical program, which for many high school students, can be the opportunity of a lifetime. I am still planning to attend that school, but the main reason I applied for a program like that is because I felt I would be unaccepted if I didn’t. It was not necessarily something I wanted to originally do, I only did to impress my family and also gave up on the idea that my friends would be happy for me. I previously had some of them complaining to me to stop bragging, when all I was doing was discussing plans that were stressing me out on the inside. I was not trying to be a show off, I just really needed to get that angst off my chest, but apparently that’s not okay if I do that. It’s only a luxury that everyone else gets because they have so-called “depression” and “disabilities.” 

     Now, before you start getting angry at me, I am fully aware that depression and disabilities are a real thing. Trust me, enough family members and friends I know suffer from at least one of these things. That’s fine, I understand you have a condition and I’m not blaming you for something you received that was completely out of your control, but please don’t use it for your every advantage to earn attention and guilt-trip people. Also, I personally view the idea of self diagnosing yourself as complete bullshit (sorry for swearing). You never know, you think you could have depression, but in reality, you are just unhappy at that moment. That’s all I’m trying to say. I also disapprove of the fact how people tell me this constantly too when I am unable to sit and do their bidding. “I’m gonna go kill myself!” Look, suicide is no joke and people who actually say that seem only to do it to earn attention, because if you were really serious about it, you would not be saying it and you would have already done it before anybody even realized that you were suicidal. Let’s face it though, a majority of people who say “I have depression” and “I’m gonna kill myself” is commonly teens and young adults. Why? It’s simple, because they have nothing better to do than sit on their asses, on their electronics, and complain to start drama and earn attention from others when really they were the ones to start up all the crap. 

     I know, I know, truth hurts, and I’m such a horrible person for telling you like it is, but you will either understand that I have a point or you will just leave because you can’t handle the real and ugly truth. You obviously have been cooped up living in a digital bubble for so long that you can’t even accept the truth about reality and the world you live in. I am a person who can’t be stuck in front of a screen all day because I actually have responsibilities in real life that I need to do, not just sit and play video games and text people for 16 hours a day. It’s ridiculous how many people can’t understand that. Especially when it’s those closest to me who can’t seem to get the message. Why should I keep wasting my breath with people like that if all they’re going to do is guilt-trip me for attention and judge every move I make to be a well adjusted adult? I don’t judge you and I don’t try and guilt-trip you for attention even when I need it. I never talk to you about my problems because you don’t give me that same luxury I give to you. That just shows how much you care about yourself and not your peers. You don’t know how much I care about each and every one of my friends and family, whether it be knowing you in the real world or knowing you online, and it hurts to know that I would put my life first before you, but you would never do such a thing like that for me because you care more about your well-being than mine. If you cared in the same manner as me, we would both be on the same page, not in separate books. 

     Alright, I think that’s all I have to say. If you’re lucky enough to be reading this part, that really means the world to me. That shows some of you proved me wrong and that some of you actually care. For that, thank you from the bottom of my heart. It makes me feel so much happier. :) It gives me another reason to smile again. :D Again, thank you and sorry for the rambling, but I just really needed to get this off my chest. It’s been bothering me for the last few weeks and I feel that writing this vent out was actually very good therapy for me. So, I much appreciated you listening, and I will be sure to post again very soon. Thank you and have a jolly good day. :) :D :) :D 

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2nd Pixel Gun- Zofija the Admin

DSMP/iDots - Family Friendly Picnic (Crimson NG) (+ close-ups) 

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Cheesy and odd title for this piece, I know, but to be fair I’m unsure of what to properly name it. “Cheesy,” no pun intended (I better stop while I’m ahead). I gained the inspiration for this piece after rewatching one of my all time favorite childhood cartoons known as “Kipper the Dog,” the episode in particular called “Arnold’s Drum.” Do not judge me, I am not the only one who returns to what they grew up watching for nostalgia reasons. However, I must admit, though I am now a young woman, “Kipper the Dog” I find is one of the most realistic and wholesome children’s cartoons that I can still smile and enjoy rewatching every now and then, the only difference being that the cast all consist of animals. The show may have had some episodes that revolved more around the fantasy side, but for the most part, they can be described as wholesome and realistic little adventures. I’ll be happy to one day share the adorable episodes of this show with my children in the future. 

Well, I am getting too much into the show, so allow me to talk about the render. Unfortunately, I did not (and still don’t) have all the skins I require to make the full version, so this is only a second attempt at a demo. I still require models of Foolish Gamers, Foolish Jr, Finely, Michelle, and Kayden, so I had to settle with the families I had entirely. Ranboo and Tubbo have Michael as their adopted son, Bad and Skeppy have the twins Abraxas and Asriel, and a6d has his adopted daughter Belladonna. In this picture, Michael is around the age of six, the twins are around three, and Bella is about two or so. I tried to make some details and situations similar to the episode of Kipper I was basing this off of— I’ll name a few. For one, some of the items seen in the picture are meant to be the same as the ones seen in the show; the red cookie tin, the drinks, and the food items to name some. Another example is Michael’s pose and seating, which is very much like Arnold’s in the episode, including his items he can be seen holding and on his plate. Also similar to the character’s situation, Asriel is separated from his brother and parents while Arnold sat amongst himself near his cousin, Pig, and his friends, Tiger and Kipper. That’s just a few specific details I tried to recreate here. 

The item models I used were all built in my in-game Minecraft (aside from a backpack rig) because I could not find rigs I liked or that worked for download. The food items were already a part of the animating software, but I did have to improvise and build each sandwich with the items options. Sounds horrible, but I used moss carpet as the cheese in the sandwiches, rescaling them to a smaller size and changing them to a yellow color. Overall, I still think I have it when it comes to improvisation in the Mine-Imator program. I also think that overall, this piece was cute and wholesome. 

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Color changeable Backpack rig @ Mike a6d @ N/A (original uploader deleted or deactivated) Belladonna (Infant_Outer wear) @ dawn-wasabi Asriel (toddler_child) @ dawn-wasabi Ranboo @ JaygomPlays Michael (wear) @ dawn-wasabi tubbo @ honkkarl BadBoyHalo @ TheBioticJoker Skeppy @ Pumpapastej Skeppy eboy @ P0mp Abraxas (toddler_child) @ dawn-wasabi 

*Rig pack and its creator can be found on Mine Imator forums. The skins I used and their own creators can be found on Planet Minecraft. The next generation models I made are not uploaded on any source of the web to use— sorry. 

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a6d’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/a6doff  Ranboo’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/Ranboo  Tubbo’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/Tubbo  Bad’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/thesaintsofgames  Skeppy’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/Skeppy  Belladonna, Asriel, and Abraxas @ dawn-wasabi Michael @ YouTubers 

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You are NOT allowed to use this render! 

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It’s finally here and with a few new additions to the cast! :)