Lowell's So Fine I Want Him To Wreck Me (respectfully)

You ok?

A little bit yes, a little bit no! Some of you may have known I was in. A really, horrifically bad spot about 6 months ago before I moved across the country. I'm still struggling to recover from what the move and all of the stress has done to my body and my energy- I was already chronically ill with severe fatigue but it's been really god awfully bad lately. On top of that, I don't have the additional income from student aid since I have to wait to gain residency in my new state to be able to afford school, so I'm having to work to make enough to like. barely eat throughout the month and MAYBE pay bills on time (never mind my debt from moving so short notice and the situation I was in 🤡). I'm disabled and I really don't function well when I'm working, so I've been sleeping a lot, unable to keep up with keeping my house clean and my spouse taken care of, haven't been able to establish medical care here yet, and in a lot of pain. that being said, I'm not scared of where I live anymore and I'm no longer in active danger or an abusive situation.

so it's really a toss up but my silence here is largely medical related, including the fact that I can no longer afford the correct amount of my antidepressants so a bitch is withdrawing and having a mental health flare lmao

I miss you all and I want to get back in the swing of things as soon as I can! I like working on my games and interacting with my community! it's good for my mental well being and it helps me express myself and feel some purpose, and I hope spread some joy! right now I'm just trying to scrape by any energy possible to keeping living, though, so we'll see when I'm able to get back on the wagon. I'm also just TRULY embarrassed by the delay with FoE at thus point, and have ruminated on the project just long enough that I've started gutting and redesigning a lot of it.

the positive of this is hopefully I release a nice game. the negative is I'm scared of my socials bc my dev timeline is crap and I should have finished ages ago🤣🤣🤣 anyway this has been an annoyingly long upd8 since it had been a while since I checked in w everyone and I wanted to give the full scoop for anyone who wanted to know whats up. thank you for checking in nonnie ♥️ hope you're having a wonderful day!

Me and my dissociative issues that make me feel like I’m not real during episodes knowing damn well that’s one of the worst possible things to wind up there with: haha but he’s so pretty 0u0

My dissociative ass with an objectification/dollification kink making this visual novel: 🤝🤝🤝

Ooh. Please please make more self-inserts. Not only is it fun you have no idea how much it can help you be kind to yourself. Have the hero of the franchise fall in love with you for what you think are your annoying quirks. Have the wisest man in that fictional world, tell others that your are the kindest and the smartest person he has ever met. Have the evil guy fall for you and revoke his evil ways cuz youre just that hot. Allow yourself to be loved by the fictional characters you look up to and in time you may also begin see how wonderful you really are.

Lowell really just reignited my desire to draw up designs for an entire gothic lolita style wardrobe for the Yuyusona.

Guess I gotta draw it now.

YEEEES DO IT gothic lolita goes so hard !!!!

Keeping this anon since I’m still recovering in a way. Would Lowell be okay with an MC who’s a survivor of SA? It happened to me and I feel so horrible rn, if this makes you uncomfortable in any way please ignore this

I'm gonna be putting this under read more so that people can avoid any potential triggers before I go into detail, but the short answer is YES. CW of mentions of SA below the cut

Lowell would be more than okay with a survivor MC. He understands that people are not their traumas and that survivors are not at fault for what happened to them. He would be nothing but supportive and kind about it. Moreover, I, the game dev, am a survivor of both SA and CSA and I would NEVER write a character who would think any less of you or treat you badly for the things that you've been through.

I know how incredibly difficult it is to find feelings of safety and recovery after something like this, and if Lowell is a comforting character for you in the meantime, know that he would do just about ANYTHING to make sure you felt safe, comfortable, cared for, and grounded.

If you need any resources please don't hesitate to DM me. I'm not a therapist but I have access to hotlines and online support groups if you need that kind of support. I know it doesn't always help, but they're there for you if you need them.

Lowell gets a frog mini cookie house and maybe a frog ornament for the tree

Is winter a somber moment for them?

Lowell isn't big on Christmas but doesn't really mind it either. He's really into Krampusnacht tho!

ay ay

I meant valentine 💝

ooo valentine pinup ur gonna be eaten like a little petit four

WHATS THIS?? A SMALL KINETIC NOVEL FOR THE O2A2 QUEER JAM FEATURING ASEL???????

who wouldnt say no to that face!!!

I build a free catio for mustard. Mustard is my spoiled fur adopteee

Oh man she'd love a catio but she's not very smart so she would keep jumping and slamming into the walls while trying to hunt birds.

what was Lowell like in high school? and also who are the people he’s killed??

he was deeply invested in scene culture, a bit of a stoner, and terrible at studying. Didn't really have any friends to speak of. He spent most of his time with his headphones in refusing to participate or hold a conversation with anyone.

He's killed a few people by now! didn't always have a reason :) you aren't the first dolly he's had, but sometimes the arrangement ended... poorly.