Fiending For Arizona Green Tea So Badly, I Really Want To Try The Fallout Ones >:

"I got that dog in me" I say as a tiny dog presses buttons in my brain by violently wagging it's tail.

I understand this completely. I personally knew about the therian community well before I ever labeled myself as one, but as an outsider, I was always too nervous to call myself one because of a lot of the conflicting information that I would hear. I didn't know if I followed enough of the "rules" to consider myself a therian, even if I'd known I'm an animal for a long time. I call myself a lot of labels, I personally don't mind what others call me.

I'm an animal, I grew up like one. Others treated me as one. The only thing that changed was the empowerment I felt when I started openly referring to myself as one.

it's interesting to me when therians speak of having an "awakening" when it comes to their theriotypes. I don't mean this in a invalidating kind of way, just in a "we have very different experiences and I want to discuss that" kind of way. i never had an "awakening", because i felt like an animal from as early on as i could remember. all my life i knew that i wasn't human. that if given the choice, i would swap my body for an animal one in a single heartbeat. if i had never heard of the word therian, it really wouldn't have mattered, because I WOULD STILL BE AN ANIMAL. when i found the term therian, my hesitance was not at all from "am i an animal or not" because i knew that i was. it was more... me doubting my understanding of the specific term. "is this a spiritual term only? would i be using it incorrectly?"- i was afraid to upset anyone. to step on toes. "am i an animal" was never even a question for me because it was always a YES.

A fellow crowhearted!!!!

I'd love to know about your hearthomes!! :3 /nf

Aaa! Hello!

I'm usually pretty bad about writing about them, but I can try XD

The first one has to do with my dog theriotype. It's very post-apocalyptic. There aren't many humans left. It's lush and green, and most cities are flooded. The water usually isn't safe, though, and generally prompts a feeling of great unease. It's usually very hot and sunny. When it does rain, it's something worth celebrating. The TVs always play static, and strange creatures make their way out of the water regularly. There's something wrong with me here, too. It's where the whole radioactive dog part comes in. I've got this weird green tint, and I'm always parched. I look almost humanoid. Like a dog slowly morphing into a person. Usually, I'm walking through cities, either making dens or searching for something. There's also usually music everywhere, I constantly found different CDs or cassette mixtapes I'd listen to. For all its dangers, this world is also very beautiful. I usually see this world in memories or very familiar feelings

Fallout 4, particularly Far Harbor, is another one! I'm not sure what it is about the stinking island that gets me feeling such a deep longing, but it does. I have personal beef with any beast that makes it's way out of the fog, but still, home is home. It physically pained me to finish the dlc, I miss running around my home :/

Then there's Minecraft!

Specifically, it's the version that I and some friends have created over the span of 4 years now. It's got a really cool God system starting with the Multiverse who made the Goddess of life Melifera, as well as her counterpart, the God of death, Trigona. Then, it trickles down to things like the young Gods (such as Twine, God of architecture, and trade). And then there's even demigods, which are usually just celestial objects (the moon, the sun, a meteorite). There's also the deep history of all the inhabitants that make up the world. The sugargliders slowly dying out, the Nether hierarchy (and how it was destroyed), the skeleton hordes, the sniffers, etc.

While we made the server(s) as a place to just make a story, the entire world is based around a feeling of home and security. The overall realm is called Para Sanar, and there are two separate worlds that tell its history in different parts of time. There's also a bunch of other worlds we've made that also connect to it, though, in their own unique web.

Anyways, it's just become a very big second home to me in how much of a role it's played in my life. Anytime I play a new world, I find myself connecting it to Para Sanar, whether intentionally or not.

Alright, I'm done yapping. Hopefully, any of this made sense 😭

Sometimes, I think a little too hard about when I asked for someone's name at a local renfaire I worked at, and they asked me teasingly if I was a fae, and for a long second, I didn't know what to say back.

I identify as a shape-shifter from how I see myself and how I interact with others. I switch between forms like crazy and can never really picture an actual concrete image of myself in my head.

A lot of this I own up to my own issues with derealization, but also a lot of my personal identity I feel stems from just how I interact with the world. It's always felt like people saw me as something different than them, and that caused this rift between me and my humanity. I can see it, I can feel it in how I want to fight for the things I believe in and in my own personal beliefs about spirituality, but it's funny. My humanity has always been a part of my more spiritual thoughts and practices then my alterhumanity which has always been just me.

I was raised in a setting where dedicating myself to the experience of honoring myself as an individual while still connecting to those around me and recognizing us as one in the same was made my religion. My humanity is present within me as a warm ideal of my hopes and dreams for this world. It still isn't my body, though, which instead became how I feel and how I show my emotion through alterhumanity.

It's like I got flipped inside out.

Anyways, to cut a long story short, I don't know what I am, renfaire lady, but some kind of creature that is fascinated by humanity and likes to be mischievous sounds like it could be a part of it. I'll think about it more next spring.

You know, if winter grieves me, fall and spring look at me with love and welcoming because they too understand the fact that we all change. No matter how different I am or how conflicted I feel, I'm still me, and that's all that matters.

I enjoyed this month. I lived by the rule of: my camera roll is just a bunch of work schedules and spreadsheets. How do I fix this?

Then I planned a bunch of fun shit to go do with friends. Now, my camera roll is full of smiling faces, pumpkins, and art.

Look at your camera roll and see what you can do or plan to make it more colorful and joyous to reflect upon.

Hghh I should go check on my FH settlements

roaming around the Commonwealth Far Harbor 48/?

Me when I am offputting and peculiar to strangers (they stood too close to me and I got nervous)

sorry for barking at you, it’s the trauma

Being a crowhearted wolf ^^^. I wanna share my trinkets with people.

am i a crow or am i just longing to be close to them because of our symbiotic relationships

I wear this collar because it's STYLISH! AND MY GIRLFRIEND GAVE IT TO ME >:[

It makes me feel NICE and I LOVE HER

Dear wild canine alterhumans, you’re allowed to use and enjoy domesticated canine esc gear. Collars and chew toys and dog beds. You’re still wild.