Seeing Him Makes My Head Hurt With Desire. I Don't Know Why, But I Want To Bleed On Him, Tie Him To Me

I cant cope with having to go to work. Maybe if I could do some physical work outside, but only places available are customer service. I can't cope with having to work as a server or a cashier till I get my degree. How do people do it, why do people do it. Why do they live.

It fucking hurts so much. I need to sleep, but how can i

NOOOO!!! A GIRL IVE BECOME GOOD FRIENDS WITH OVER THE MONTHS JUST TOLD ME SHE HAS AN ED. NOW MY BRAIN WILL AUTOMATICALLY START SEEING HER AS COMPETITION, START HYPERANALYZING EVERYTHING I AND SHE DO AND SAY AND ITLL START TO SPITE HER FOR BEING SKINNIER THAN ME.

It's so weird feeling that you have a lot of love to give, but feeling as if you have no one to give that specific love to. Yes I have loved ones that that love me, that I keep living for really. But it's no the same.

And at the same time my mind just yearns to have someone to obsess over.

The fact that I can never have him. That I will never be even able to be loose acquaintances with him. It hurts so much. It's so unfair. I've never felt the need for someone like I feel the need for him.

If he ain't like this I don't want him /hj

Treat me like your toy, I’m made solely for your pleasure, be so very selfish with me, be greedy, be greedy, be so very greedy.

I've managed to get fever 3 times this hot af summer. How does one even do that

I feel like I'm one gained kg away from taking an hammer to my Jaw so I couldn't eat solid foods again.

I want to lay his head on my chest. I want to comfort and coddle him even when he isn't necessary upset, I just wanna make him feel safe and comforted. I want to make him feel so loved it overwhelms him. Want him to realize that no one could ever love him like I do, be as gentle, make him feel as warm and safe.

It's almost midnight, but I can't sleep because I can hear my roommates clearly talk even thu my very good ear plugs.

3rd day back at school/the dorm and I already binged